Denial is not a river in egypt!

I felt i had to write this post to get something off my chest.

most people think that if you dont pay attention to something or just ignore it for as long as you possibly can it has no effect on you.

many of us believe that if we try to escape to some foreign suburb that we wont be affected by the plights of the inner city.

or we believe that its right to just cut off communication with someone even when we still want to talk to them.

we put ourselves through a lot of unnecessary stress trying to escape from and deny that things and feelings exist when they do.

sometimes we are able to find all types of elaborate ways of distracting ourselves from reality but in actuality that thing that you are trying to escape from has influenced your life more than you know.

lets say you met somebody at a place you love dearly.

it didnt work out and you completely want to ignore them.

you dont want to go to the same place you met them at because you dont want to bump into them

this means you have to change your whole life to avoid running into that person

so you arent really ignoring them, you are giving this person too much power (more power than they actually desreve)

aint nobody stoping me from going where i want to go.

i dont get down like that

now of course if somebody fades out of your life naturally because you are moving in a whole nother direection than ok it just happens

i go to sites all the time, "i dont want to talk to them but i dont want to make it seem as if im trying to talk to them, i dont want to initiate contact, or im a G, im trying to avoid them to prove how strong i am.

you are a fool lol

you are stressing yourself out unecessary

just call them or email them if you really want to that bad

i got caught up in that and i wound up feeling dumb because i wasted so much time because of pride (not going beneath your standards)

who created your standards

how did you come to believe what you now think is the right way to go.

always question why you have accepted a belief and measure it against reality.

if its driving you insane then maybe you might need to drop that value

theres nothing wrong with changing a belief if it no longer suits you.

you are going to waist a lot of time and energy if you dont come to terms with how you really feel.

sometimes it's good to distract yourself from doing something that you might regret

thats not always the answer though

and when you finally face that reality that you have been trying to avoid, you will thank God that you had the courage to do it.

get out of old comfort zones.

the more experiences you have the more able you will be to cope more effectively with the challenges in life.

Please God Help Me Please! Whats The Best Way To Counter The Dreaded Infestation Of Procrastination!

Im having a hard time with something.

Im writing this manual on how to cure yourself of all types of "incurable" disaeases.

Im basically giving a people a program on how they can heal themselves of diabetes, cancer, arthritis, obesity and whole host of other illneses.

Many people when they want to sell something put an ad in the paper or advertise on the radio or pass out flyers and business cards.

Im going to pass out flyers becasue i know flyers work if you pass out enough.

This is a big feat because i have to make two sales letters, one to upsell them on theinformation product another to post on the internet.

it's a lot of work because im putting in there all i have learned in natural healing from mentors and books, lectures workshops etc.

i wanna do it now because the sooner i start the faster i start making money and healing people.

how do you handle procrastination when you know you have to do something important.

my problem is i am easily distracted.

sometimes its hard forme to stay focused on something longer than 5 minutes (which is sad because i know the cure to ADHD lol)

Please Help Me Somebody

What Should I Do To Counter This!

Sorry. The White Boy Inside Of Me Really Likes These Songs.

Metalica - Master of Puppets

Heart - Barracuda

Deep Purple - Chid In Time




Metallica - One

This is why you should never ever ever drink grain alcohol!

Saturday night was a very unique one for me lol.

Im learning about herbs and their medicinal properties (healing capacity), and some mixtures require you to make tinctures.

A tincture is an herb or mixture of hebs thats mixed with a preservative to keep it in a consumable form forever.

You can mix vinegar with the herbs and yo can also mixgrain alcohol with it to keep it preserved.

So i got some liquor to go with the herbs and i went home to make the tincture (the herbs i mixed by the way were valerian, wild lettuce, loebillia and skulcap, i was making a tonic that will put you right to sleep. It didnt work though, it might work as a brewed tea though)

So i was like since i got some alcohol let me take a sip.

i cut it with some cranberry juice and for a while i aint feel nothing.

so i drunk a little bit more and all of a sudden i started to feel it.

i still kept drinking though and i felt it a little bit more.

next thing you know its 3 o'clock in the morning im drunk and horny.

its time to have a good time lol.

i rushed out of my bed making a whole bunch of noise(i rent a room in a house), i walked out the door i remember doing that.

Next thing you know it was 2pm sunday afternoon.

i had mcdonalds food scattered all around me, my cell phone was gone, my keys were gone, i had 100 dollars missing from my wallet, i had like 10 dollars in these strange looking yellow coins (which i think i got from an adult store or something lol) and i didnt remember JACK!

Well I finally got my answer today.

I went outside and talked to the guy who lives upstairs from me and we were outside talking for a minute.

He said i was immensely wet, and i was tripping hard with him like never before.

He said it was like i was a completely different person.

like the regular tubby escaped from my body and a totally different human being with a completely different personality inculcated my spiritless flesh (well maybe he didnt say it like that).

Anyway lol, we were out there talking and he said all of a sudden this fine redbone came walking down the street (he said she wasnt a dime she was a 20) and i was actually hollering at her (thats not something i ever have the confidence to do).

He said i was macking shorty hard and i just left him and walked down the street with her lol.

I guess i must have took her back to the crib because he said when he got back there there was a whole lot of moaning and groaning coming from my room.

And on top of that a lady who lives in the same building had her 17 year old kid there and she heard everything.

That's not funny man.

Dont drink please.

sidebar: this dude for a 20 dollar bet drunk a whole pint of grain alcohol STRAIGHT in only a few swallows.

That dude definately earned that twenty dollars lol.

Oh yeah, for those who dont know grain alcohol is 95% alcohol (that means if you drink that much alcohol and smoke you could litterally blow up, straight spontaneous combustion).

He was throwing up for like 2 days he said he walked all the way downtown from where we live (about 4 miles).

Please stay away from this kind of alcohol im telling you.

Just stick to wine coolers lol.

Im thinking about moving, where should i move to?

Recently i just got my hands on a good chunk of money and i feel like fleeing the state of maryland.

I feel like im too dependent on my family for help (even though i live by myself) and i feel like exploring the world to see what else is out there.

Im 27, dont have any kids, in very good shape, aint tied down to a job so where should i go and why?

I wanna go somewhere there is plenty of opportunities to make money but the cost of living is still not that high.

I would reallly like to go somewhere thats warm or at least not so cold in the winter.

can somebody give me a clue please.

Im incapable of making a decision of this magnitude for myself lol.

What your birthday says about you!

Signs tell us a lot about who we are. Anytime i want to understand someone i always ask them for their sign because i am a true believer in this fact.

After a while i'll be able to predict exactly what sign a person is just by talking to them for 5 minutes (trust me). And eventually im going to make a lot of money doing this lol (in my dreams i guess).

I picked up a fasinating book the other day called, "What Your Birthday Reveals About You" by Phyllis Vega.

It hit some things on the head and i think you might be interested in what it says about YOUR birthday.



Here's mine though lol (like anybody cares).

MARCH 19 (Pisces 1)

People with birthdays on this day are a strange mix of dreamer and doer. A dynamic, powerful, persuader crusader on the one hand, youre a gentle, dreamy poet on the other. When you are aggresive, pioneering spirit takes charge, you feel as if nothing can stop you from reaching your worldly goals. But when the dreamy, gentle, dreamy side of your nature surfaces, your creativity and artistic talent point your attention in another direction entirely. No, matter which mode you're in, when your imagination is fueled by an exciting project, your determination can surprise everyone.

March 19th births lead to idealistic reformers inclined to dramatize their own lives. Typically you rush to the aid of those who need help and then see yourself as some kind of mythological hero. You are exceptionally kindhearted and generous to a fault. However, you tend to be more outspoken and aggresive than other pisces natives.

Although, your help is appreciated, your habit of telling people of what to do is not. Some with birthdays on this day are explorers destined to break new ground in the physical world. Others prefer staying home and exploring the inner worlds of the pysyche.

Because you are impetuous, you are likely to rush into a love relationship without prior thought. As a lover,you are caring and considerate as long as the union lives up to your expectations. But if you become disillusioned, you'll make a beeline for the exit.

So there you have it. This is me i guess. I think it's pretty acurate, i must be stuck in the wrong stage or something.

If anybody tells me their birthday I will post the characteristics for their sign.

You can get it on the net somewhere but i think the book offers more of a indepth description. Or you can go to the library and get some books. You will be amazed at what you find. They also have it so precise that they can tell you exactly what kind of person you are if you know the day of the week you were born on and the time you were born. And BTW the people who discovered this information were AFRIKANS! (our ancestors along the nile valley in north east afrika) who discovered this information and who lloked just like YOU. Fantastic isnt it!

The Ass, the Fox, and the Lion: Aesops's Fables

The Ass, the Fox, and the Lion 

THE ASS and the Fox, having entered into partnership
together for their mutual protection, went out
into the forest to hunt.  

They had not proceeded far when they met a Lion. 

 The Fox, seeing imminent danger, approached the
Lion and promised to contrive for him the capture
of the Ass if the Lion would pledge his word not
to harm the Fox. 

 Then, upon assuring the Ass that he would not be
injured, the Fox led him to a deep pit and
arranged that he should fall into it.  

The Lion, seeing that the Ass was secured,
immediately clutched the Fox, and
attacked the Ass at his leisure.

The lesson: Never ever ever ever ever ever
ever ever ever trust your enemy (even
when they are nice to you and seem to be
pleasantly comfortable dealing with people
like you)! 

If a person is your real friend, when they do
something bad to you they repent and try to
make it up to you in some kind of way. 

If they don’t then they are just acting. 

They are not your friend at all. 

They are just a faker. 

Remember that for your own sake! 

Did you even know that there is a black woman running for president! And guess what, her running mate is a black woman too!

Cynthia Mckinney: President

Rosa Clemente: Vice President

These two beautiful, brilliant, classy and INDEPENDENT black women are running on the Green Party ticket. The green party is an independent party that is based on grassroots organizing and issues that are most important to the PEOPLE (not the corporations).

1. GRASSROOTS DEMOCRACY - Every human being deserves a say in the decisions that affect their lives and not be subject to the will of another. Therefore, we will work to increase public participation at every level of government and to ensure that our public representatives are fully accountable to the people who elect them. We will also work to create new types of political organizations which expand the process of participatory democracy by directly including citizens in the decision-making process.



2. SOCIAL JUSTICE AND EQUAL OPPORTUNITY - All persons should have the rights and opportunity to benefit equally from the resources afforded us by society and the environment. We must consciously confront in ourselves, our organizations, and society at large, barriers such as racism and class oppression, sexism and homophobia, ageism and disability, which act to deny fair treatment and equal justice under the law.



3. ECOLOGICAL WISDOM - Human societies must operate with the understanding that we are part of nature, not separate from nature. We must maintain an ecological balance and live within the ecological and resource limits of our communities and our planet. We support a sustainable society which utilizes resources in such a way that future generations will benefit and not suffer from the practices of our generation. To this end we must practice agriculture which replenishes the soil; move to an energy efficient economy; and live in ways that respect the integrity of natural systems.



4. NON-VIOLENCE - It is essential that we develop effective alternatives to society’s current patterns of violence. We will work to demilitarize, and eliminate weapons of mass destruction, without being naive about the intentions of other governments. We recognize the need for self-defense and the defense of others who are in helpless situations. We promote non-violent methods to oppose practices and policies with which we disagree, and will guide our actions toward lasting personal, community and global peace.



5. DECENTRALIZATION - Centralization of wealth and power contributes to social and economic injustice, environmental destruction, and militarization. Therefore, we support a restructuring of social, political and economic institutions away from a system which is controlled by and mostly benefits the powerful few, to a democratic, less bureaucratic system. Decision-making should, as much as possible, remain at the individual and local level, while assuring that civil rights are protected for all citizens.



6. COMMUNITY-BASED ECONOMICS AND ECONOMIC JUSTICE - We recognize it is essential to create a vibrant and sustainable economic system, one that can create jobs and provide a decent standard of living for all people while maintaining a healthy ecological balance. A successful economic system will offer meaningful work with dignity, while paying a “living wage” which reflects the real value of a person’s work.

Local communities must look to economic development that assures protection of the environment and workers’ rights; broad citizen participation in planning; and enhancement of our “quality of life.” We support independently owned and operated companies which are socially responsible, as well as co-operatives and public enterprises that distribute resources and control to more people through democratic participation.



7. FEMINISM AND GENDER EQUITY - We have inherited a social system based on male domination of politics and economics. We call for the replacement of the cultural ethics of domination and control with more cooperative ways of interacting that respect differences of opinion and gender. Human values such as equity between the sexes, interpersonal responsibility, and honesty must be developed with moral conscience. We should remember that the process that determines our decisions and actions is just as important as achieving the outcome we want.



8. RESPECT FOR DIVERSITY - We believe it is important to value cultural, ethnic, racial, sexual, religious and spiritual diversity, and to promote the development of respectful relationships across these lines.

We believe that the many diverse elements of society should be reflected in our organizations and decision-making bodies, and we support the leadership of people who have been traditionally closed out of leadership roles. We acknowledge and encourage respect for other life forms than our own and the preservation of biodiversity.



9. PERSONAL AND GLOBAL RESPONSIBILITY - We encourage individuals to act to improve their personal well-being and, at the same time, to enhance ecological balance and social harmony. We seek to join with people and organizations around the world to foster peace, economic justice, and the health of the planet.



10. FUTURE FOCUS AND SUSTAINABILITY - Our actions and policies should be motivated by long-term goals. We seek to protect valuable natural resources, safely disposing of or “unmaking” all waste we create, while developing a sustainable economics that does not depend on continual expansion for survival. We must counterbalance the drive for short-term profits by assuring that economic development, new technologies, and fiscal policies are responsible to future generations who will inherit the results of our actions.

That sounds like a hell of a plan. This is better than we would get from obama bin laden lol (sorry). Ive talked to some people about these two wonderful sisters, and when i talk to them they'll say, "well they aint gon win so why should i vote for them?" Because they represent your interests thats why! Why would you vote for someone who you know wont do much if anything to improve your condition. It just doesnt make sense to me. Yes the guy may be dreamy to women, but the media is using that shollow tendency that many women (not just black) have against you. And the media is pumping you up with all of this crap. Do any of yall know any of his policies. C'mon, I CHALLENGE ONE OBAMA FAN OUT THERE TO GIVE ME 5 THINGS THAT HE WANTS TO ACCOMPLISH UNDER HIS ADMINISTRATION. GIVE ME 3 IN ILL BE HAPPY. C'MON CLETUS!

C'MON!!!