tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-85710563769670841582024-03-13T05:58:26.633-04:00chillin in the tub:ideas that float in the mind of tubmanJames Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.comBlogger107125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-38100677433749191212010-11-22T13:33:00.004-05:002010-11-22T13:40:08.633-05:00ive finally found out why i am so bad with women.Im way too clingy in the begining and i am way to blunt and straightforward when it comes to words.<br /><br />I feel bad when i hurt a womans feelings but im just a blunt person.<br /><br />Being myself is more important than the attention or intimacy of a woman.<br /><br />Sounds crazy doesnt it.<br /><br />I really dont care if i hurt your feelings.<br /><br />I wish there was someone to understand me (or at least try to understand me).<br /><br />Robert Greene says that its only a fool who's honest all the time because if you are too honest you will hurt other peoples feelings.<br /><br />I guess your on the fools blog right now.James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com14tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-81409629631601275492010-11-09T16:24:00.002-05:002010-11-09T16:30:33.766-05:00Shit happens but one's thing for sure...James Tubman will always shine from on top of the heap lol.<br /><br />It seems like everytime i have a short coming somthing good happens after that.<br /><br />Just last month i made a lot of money and spent it all within less than a month.<br /><br />Now i have an opportunity to make it all back.<br /><br />The question is what will i do with it?<br /><br />Since i was young i have always been notriously bad at saving money.<br /><br />Whats a good way to save money.<br /><br />I dont have too many people who come to this site but sting lol, i know you are excellent at saving so can you please give me some pointers on ways to sav money and ways to discipline yourself to save more.James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-14214115141685061702010-11-04T12:51:00.003-04:002010-11-04T13:19:26.745-04:00When Pisces met Pisces.<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhpwXcEhabzXvNfGtTFG3n0UsTI-7xezu87G6Ehn_rkasyMpZk54mzYaQNGM_ZIQ1rgj6hcWPd1-mLR-fkwiZlCbu6t8ww4g0KHYQXj2v3tPK6UhtMaRUwgqeONUmnsrDzQbGR0zOk-nVEK/s1600/roses2.gif"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5535738887466203858" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 365px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 328px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhpwXcEhabzXvNfGtTFG3n0UsTI-7xezu87G6Ehn_rkasyMpZk54mzYaQNGM_ZIQ1rgj6hcWPd1-mLR-fkwiZlCbu6t8ww4g0KHYQXj2v3tPK6UhtMaRUwgqeONUmnsrDzQbGR0zOk-nVEK/s400/roses2.gif" border="0" /></a><br />One thing you should know about a pisces if you are in a relationship is that we are helpless romantics.<br /><br />We love to be in love and we are always dreaming about the day that we find our soulmate (i know i sound like a woman but the pisces men tend to think like this too).<br /><br />I was on fulton st. in brooklyn selling my stuff when a very attractive young lady came up to me to ask me about my cleanse.<br /><br />She listened to me intently and she gave me heavy eye contact.<br /><br />After i gave her my pitch (it was pretty irresistable) she broke down and bought a bottle.<br /><br />When she took out her money i mmediately said well let me get your number so i can keep track of your usage (and eventually resupply you when your run out).<br /><br />When i asked her for her number she blurted out, "oh what you want my number for you trying to ask me out on a date or something?"<br /><br />I took a quick look at her and saw how fine she was and it seemed like she asked that question because maybe she was hoping i would so i said "yeah! I was hoping i could take you out next thurday to a nice ethiopian restauraunt and maybe i can to get to know you a little better." (i usually dont have this kind of confidence but i felt safe enough around her to ask that question).<br /><br />So she stood there looking at me blushing with delight then i knew i had her (he he he)!<br /><br />That was last week and we've been talking ever since then.<br /><br />She is so easy to talk to.<br /><br />Sometimes we've spent hours on the phone talking about our lives (i havent done this since high school).<br /><br />I really lik ethis girl and i do believe that i can have everything i want with her except im going to have to change everything about myself.<br /><br />See its hard for 2 pisces to get along because they are both passive and clueless about reality.<br /><br />They live in a fantasy world and that idealized way of looking at the world prevents them from reaching their full potential.<br /><br />We need stronger willed mates to give us very important reality checks before we go off the deep end.<br /><br />Knowing this i can change my personality to be more practical and down to earth.<br /><br />The only reason i would even think about doing this is because i really like this girl.<br /><br />She's weird too in so many ways because she's 24 years old and she's never had a perm in her hair and she's never eaten pork before.<br /><br />Im intrigued.<br /><br />She's rarely been out of nyc so if we remain cool i want to take her to miami (so i can see her fine ass in a baithing suite).<br /><br />And other placces (i got so many plans for her she's never going to know what hit her).<br /><br />Tubby is getting ready to be a very naughty boy lol.James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-9363812418423559222010-10-29T01:48:00.002-04:002010-10-29T02:33:29.127-04:00They'll be a lot that will be said about James Tubman after he's dead, but they wont say...I aint no pussy!<br /><br />Brothers wish they had the stones to do what i did but they dont thats why they just wishin.<br /><br />I came to new york with hardly any money and i hope that by the time i leave brooklyn to live somewhere else i'll leave a multi-millionaire.<br /><br />I sell a colon cleanse i manufacture myself on fulton and elm st. in downtown brooklyn.<br /><br />I get lots of sales and its only going tto get better.<br /><br />I stand in their faces, by pass the people who are in good shape and aim straight for the fatties lol (im not laughing too hard because im beoming one myself).<br /><br />too make a long story short the new promised land is new york city.<br /><br />if you already live here do yourself a favor.<br /><br />live in a small town then come back and you will see the opportunities that you didnt see before.James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-36002254841810214902010-10-19T22:32:00.002-04:002010-10-19T22:50:39.489-04:00Some weird stuff hapened this week already!This has been a funny week.<br />First off this past sunday i went to a big natural healing expo (for hippies like me) where they displayed the latest technology and information about natural healing, psychic abilities, astrology you know right up my alley.<br />So i go there and a lot of very interesting things happened.<br />First off as soon as i hit the floor im immediately zapped by zero gravity (a woman had a 300.00 pen that zaps the different chakras in the body with zero gravity and this zero gravity is supposed to give a person or whatever is being zapped an overall feeling of well being.<br />Needless to say i didnt but the pen but i still felt better.<br />To make a long story short, i was in a lecture by the worlds most popular psychic (her name is janet something) and she told everybody to get a partner.<br />This beautiful slightly older woman was sitting in the next eisle.<br />She looked at right at me so i gave her an indication to come over.<br />She grabbed my hand and the assignment was to look in each others eyes for 2 straight minutes and say the first thing that came to mind.<br />We stared at each other and she said to me "i wish you would stop looking so sexy"<br />I was like uh okay lol (i hadnt been called that in a while so relished that moment).<br />But anyway after that incident i got her number.<br />She's in her 40's and im only 29 but if she down with occasional romp im down too!<br />She said she had a friend but she didnt hesitate to give me those digits.<br />Im like "you're over 40 i dont see a ring on your finger"<br />Then tonight i was thinking about this girl i wanted to sleep with since i first met her in manhattan last year and sure enough we damn near bumped right into each other (she wont let me get it easily but im going to try because she is definately worth it).<br />And all this has happened after i recently dumped the girl i was supposed to be marrying.<br />If im getting this much play already then i know it was meant to happen.<br />Hopefully ill have better stories in the future.<br />The moral is Dont Hold on to Somebody if you in your heart believe that you arent meant to be together.<br />Because something better could be just around the corner.James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-6396929662668212562010-10-14T13:19:00.003-04:002010-10-15T03:12:13.243-04:00Now Im Talking to the Man Behind the Man!Anybody who's been reading this blog for a few years knows that i really look up to a brother by the name of Amos Wilson.<br /><br /><br /><br />He was a black psychologist and he devoted a lot his time to helping black people solve their own problems.<br /><br /><br /><br />He did a number of lectures in new york and all around the western hemisphere.<br /><br /><br /><br />He wrote a number of books to display his theories with his monumental work being Blueprint for Black Power (i use the cover of his book as a photo to identify myself when i go to other sites)<br /><br /><br /><br />Well now since im living in new york i thought it would be cool to try and contact the man that helped him get a lot of his works published.<br /><br /><br /><br />That man's name is Sababu Plata (funny name but he's a great guy).<br /><br /><br /><br />From 1989 till amos's death in 1995 they worked together to produce some of the greatest social thought in black american history.<br /><br />Without Mr. Plata he would not have gotten Blueprint published.<br /><br />When we finally liberate ourselves from White and Asian domination it will be to great extent a result of the work he and Dr. Amos did so his work has great significance.<br /><br />I talked to him about my business and he gave me some encouraging words.<br /><br />Im so glad i moved to new york and i know for a fact that i will make some serious moves here.<br /><br />I want to employ a lot of brothers to sell my herbal products but many dont want to sell them.<br /><br />But once i show them how successful they can be at selling them maybe they will change their mind.<br /><br />This should be the goal of black leadership in this post industrial society.<br /><br />Its great because when i ask mr. plata questions about dr. wilson he always give me some wise quote that he said and then the answer makes a little more sense.<br /><br />Doint be afraid to call on the wisdom of old black people.<br /><br />You'll be surprised at what they can teach you.James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-19974108622557639472010-09-24T12:48:00.004-04:002010-09-24T15:49:57.959-04:00Would You Consider An Open Marriage?<div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEghRA5kwZExDSFEYCO0n9C5ilNK277zWbZ76Ckk8YHMIPVzumWET2kJABX3BXGyT8_HmdBMOAzxyeCdRNw6K6h_eYfNgplbblJbPdBQwcCECoPxcCGIPmhwZndEKY396wxeE1yy9L1Il_g_/s1600/will.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5520526650214572354" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 319px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEghRA5kwZExDSFEYCO0n9C5ilNK277zWbZ76Ckk8YHMIPVzumWET2kJABX3BXGyT8_HmdBMOAzxyeCdRNw6K6h_eYfNgplbblJbPdBQwcCECoPxcCGIPmhwZndEKY396wxeE1yy9L1Il_g_/s400/will.jpg" border="0" /></a> </div><br /><div>At one point i was a hopeless romantic.</div><br /><div> </div><div>I thought that two people should truly be soulmates to be in a marriage but boy my opinion of marriage has changed drastically in the past few years. </div><br /><div> </div><div>I'm a pisces so i am naturally romantic by nature, but i really dont think there is such a thing as a soulmate.</div><br /><div> </div><div>Like Chris Rock said, "nobody gets a soulmate. all you goin get in life, if you're lucky, is a mate."</div><br /><div> </div><div>Now i do believe that their could be a soulmate out there for you (i know i just contradicted myself but...) but i just dont want to spend all my time looking for one. </div><br /><div> </div><div>Im lazy and impatient.</div><br /><div> </div><div>I've been friends with a girl now from new york for almost a year.</div><br /><div> </div><div>We talk almost everyday.</div><div><br /></div><div>We dont get along with each other much except when she wants to spend my money but im cool with her so i decided to go ahead and pop the question lol.</div><div><br /></div><div>She accepted so hopefully we can get married some time soon.</div><div><br /></div><div>What really made me want to get married is looking at my neighbors.</div><div><br /></div><div>These two are siblings (brother and sister).</div><div><br /></div><div>The woman is pushing 70 and her brother is in his mid 70's.</div><div><br /></div><div>Neither one of them are married.</div><div><br /></div><div>They live in different houses too.</div><div><br /></div><div>They are pathetic, always fussing and cussing with each other, old miserable and lonely.</div><div><br /></div><div>I dont want to be like that so I decided to marry the woman ive been friends with the longest (and the one I knew would accept the propsal).</div><div><br /></div><div>I like this girl because she's easygoing like me, even though she'll get on your case if you mess up she's quick to forgive and... she doesnt mind having an open marriage.</div><div><br /></div><div>I like the idea because i dont have to be under a lot of pressure to please her.</div><div><br /></div><div>If i cant do it hopefully some other guy (or maybe some other girl) can.</div><div><br /></div><div>And if i slip up she'll be ok with it (even though i'll never tell her unless i get caught in the act). </div><div><br /></div><div>I dont want to be old, lonely and miserable so i guess you have to make some compromises down the line.</div><div><br /></div><div>Do i wish it could be a monogamous relationship where we get along very well and we blend together well and we dont have to look for substitutes?</div><div><br /></div><div>Sure!</div><div><br /></div><div>Is it likely to happen... I dont know.</div><div><br /></div><div>In this daya nd age you have to consider that most people are going to cheat on their spouse at one point in time in their life so why not go into the marriage anticipating and setting up a plan on what to do about it when it does happen.</div><div><br /></div><div>Ive never cheated on any woman i was going steady with in my life.</div><div><br /></div><div>I probably still wont do it now that its acceptable but i dont care if she does.</div><div><br /></div><div>I just want a happy woman.</div><div><br /></div><div>That's all.</div><div><br /></div><div>I know she wont always be happy but i want her happy more than sad at least 75% of the time.</div><div><br /></div><div>Thats selfish but what can you say.</div><div><br /></div><div>So what do you say?</div><div><br /></div><div>Would you have an open marriage or what.</div><div><br /></div><div>I know im not the only freak up in here. </div>James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-86740640186148142872010-09-20T13:10:00.002-04:002010-09-20T13:15:01.315-04:00Back in Brooklyn Kid!I couldnt stay away from new york for long.<br /><br />There will always be a special place in my heart for Harlem but i love, love LOVE Brooklyn.<br /><br />All you see is black people downtown.<br /><br />Not too many hispanics and whites.<br /><br />Mainly Blacks!<br /><br />Ive decided that im moving here for good.<br /><br />Im staying in a hotel for now but eventually i want to get a house out here, or even rent a storefront and sell my herbal products that way and give lectures there.<br /><br />Ive already gotten customers here so i see alot of potential.<br /><br />This is the most confident ive ever felt about my future.<br /><br />I cant beleive im actually starting to grow out of my Babyboy tendencies lol.<br /><br />Maybe.James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-35688135889652585642010-06-28T13:09:00.002-04:002010-06-28T13:14:16.963-04:00Been a long timeNothing really to report.<br /><br />Herbal business is coming along.<br /><br />Helping some of my family members with their health.<br /><br />Been doing some landscaping work too.<br /><br />I found out that i love growing flowers.<br /><br />Ill post a picture of my work so you can see how beautiful my flowers are.<br /><br />I never knew i had that side to me.<br /><br />Still looking for somebody i can settle down with but i havent been trying as much as i should lately.<br /><br />Its all good.<br /><br />Helping my nephew to mature into manhood.<br /><br />I think my addiction to alcohol is increasing because sometimes its hard go a day sometimes without drinking.<br /><br />Im a mess but ill get better eventually.James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-8283951068629999162010-02-12T19:50:00.003-05:002010-02-12T20:05:55.567-05:00All this snow is getting on my damn nerves!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjyTSeVwvgwGsBH0MqfRBb_d00a8knHCTfIMJfYsC7UbIrP8OdPHi6-fONIE_EMOmgYAz25V4rLoGn6E9-lQiQgYg-UIfYblXjWWsZfhAtz6hFZRxUdKiE7tzc_WS2EEOtOjzVEFkEOQlw8/s1600-h/cfiles28498.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjyTSeVwvgwGsBH0MqfRBb_d00a8knHCTfIMJfYsC7UbIrP8OdPHi6-fONIE_EMOmgYAz25V4rLoGn6E9-lQiQgYg-UIfYblXjWWsZfhAtz6hFZRxUdKiE7tzc_WS2EEOtOjzVEFkEOQlw8/s400/cfiles28498.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5437524704193880178" /></a><br /><br />I might be in a time warp but i thought i lived in baltimore not wisconsin.<br /><br />All this damn snow is making me heated!<br /><br />In baltimore, maryland we've had the hardest snow storm we've had probably since the ice age.<br /><br />I cant move in the house.<br /><br />Im staying with my moms now.<br /><br />Everything she says gets on my nerves.<br /><br />I whipped my little nephews ass the other day for stealing some klondike bars the other day.<br /><br />Im losing my freakin mind man, and its because of all this freakin snow.<br /><br />This is why we need more blow torches in the black community.<br /><br />I hate the color white.<br /><br />I hate bleached white flour, white sugar, white snow and most of all white people lol.<br /><br />Sidebar: There are too many cracker ass crackers moving into the hood trying to be cool with black people.<br /><br />One came up to me today and said "whats up my brother?"<br /><br />I wanted slap dog shit out his clammy white ass.<br /><br />Im not like other "safe negros" out there.<br /><br />Mutha fucker im like Brandy and Sarah jessica Parker I KNOW WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER MUTHA FUCKA!<br /><br />And every other summer before that in this nation.<br /><br />Do me a favor people.<br /><br />This is black history so i want you to do some self discovery.<br /><br />Go to the library (damn, whats that?) and look up this book called "the cartoon history of the united states" and see what these peckerwoods being doing to us since time immorial.<br /><br />I like this book because its written like a big comic book.<br /><br />You see the images of the horrible things they used to do to us and we all know images speak a thousand words.<br /><br />People you need to study slavery from the white mans perspective to really get a feel for how eveil these people were (and a glimpse of the evil that others outside this country feel at this present time).<br /><br />When the honorable Elijah Muhammad said that all white men were the devil, hewasnt jivin.<br /><br />This is the stuff they pray you never find out.James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-7340804515848127412010-02-02T18:00:00.001-05:002010-02-02T18:02:28.067-05:00How this guy made a billion dollars in 5 years.<p><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/FKU5_-eObsI&hl=en_US&fs=1&"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/FKU5_-eObsI&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object></p><p>Whenever you seek to do something always listen to an expert.</p>James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-86104557478983053652010-01-29T20:00:00.002-05:002010-01-29T20:50:39.413-05:00How does the media present us?<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2ZbjNHXF_hY1jP723UU0FQreXkT6UfkrDS3x6aN2AXPE0kPw6uH7A5njpYYSKYwsUVk8tztBJlnb2QOzsLagx8VGqsA26VOaION6jA1cD6IG5GtpStqXnMvDqMHNhV80Si-n4DFG6c1CO/s1600-h/Mail-Guardian-fooled.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5432344193111958866" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2ZbjNHXF_hY1jP723UU0FQreXkT6UfkrDS3x6aN2AXPE0kPw6uH7A5njpYYSKYwsUVk8tztBJlnb2QOzsLagx8VGqsA26VOaION6jA1cD6IG5GtpStqXnMvDqMHNhV80Si-n4DFG6c1CO/s400/Mail-Guardian-fooled.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>Black people have always been troublesome in the sense of how they should be projected on TV.<br /><br />One thing i've learned pertaining to the images of blacks in america is that they aren't static.<br /><br />Images of blacks change according to the needs this society has for them.<br /><br />Lets start with slavery.<br /><br />In slavery there was a need of this government to show blacks as "happy slaves" so that they wouldnt have any guilt in enslaving blacks.<br /><br />So you saw flyers and advertisements with blacks smiling and enjoying their existence in slavery.<br /><br />They horrible things that were done to slaves wasnt shown as much as these happy images.<br /><br />And all of this was done to soothe white guilt for what they were doing to their fellow human beings.<br /><br />When blacks were freed the government portrayed them in another light.<br /><br />This white supremacist government didnt want to give blacks all of the rights and resources that were owed to them.<br /><br />They couldnt take seeing large numbers of educated, business owning blacks because it opened up the possibilty that these people were actually equal to them so they portrayed blacks in the mainstream media as savages, incapable of adjusting to freedom and incapable of governing themselves.<br /><br />This portrayal was created to justify the terrorization of blacks on so many levels in this country, because if they are savages incapable of controling their primitive nature then they have to be controlled and dominated by the ruling society right.<br /><br />And these portrayal continued all through the early 1900's to around the mid to late 1960's.<br /><br />Then the civil rights struggle hit and civil rights leaders started to plea to the broadcasters to show more "positive" images of blacks.<br /><br />So the media started to portray blacks being integrated, living with and being friends with white people.<br /><br />They did this to say to white america, "they are just like us" so that white america wouldnt be so hostile to their integration.<br /><br />These images are still carried out today.<br /><br />Even though there is still television programing that present us as savages and barbarians, the vast majority of media images show us in a "glowing light" that is, just like whites but only colored.<br /><br />They have also depicted us as being just like them so that these sell out black people with inculcated white values could be considered normal while the vast majority of struggling blacks were considered abnormal and deviant.<br /><br />Basically saying we shouldnt try to help other blacks who are continuously held back by the government.<br /><br />Many of us dont even think we are held back because of the pervasiveness of the successful images on television.<br /><br />We have been totally brainwashed and many people dont see it yet because they have never been taught how to analyze the media.<br /><br />Im gonna start writing more posts about this issue.<br /><br />Stay tuned. </div>James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-32698190540421943662010-01-27T11:17:00.001-05:002010-01-27T11:20:33.795-05:00Im never watching espn again!<object width="560" height="340"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/HJMDn_M-ltw&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/HJMDn_M-ltw&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="560" height="340"></embed></object><br /><br />do yourself a favor and stop listening and viewing shows and people who insult youJames Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-58630054003155676762010-01-17T15:49:00.003-05:002010-01-17T16:05:15.251-05:00Keep those affirmations in your back pocket.<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhoWnoIHcqKJ8S1kvNyHyKgai027OP5Cf6igJ9usNyflAMJI4Biacg42SeNN48utZzUpt9b77wV7_HuOEMmIYgRERwAiFSxrdb6B6L972IvPZPnzB8jon6LUXrox5k_wJUbLbH_BgnIdtV8/s1600-h/positive1.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 350px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 344px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5427814334801746354" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhoWnoIHcqKJ8S1kvNyHyKgai027OP5Cf6igJ9usNyflAMJI4Biacg42SeNN48utZzUpt9b77wV7_HuOEMmIYgRERwAiFSxrdb6B6L972IvPZPnzB8jon6LUXrox5k_wJUbLbH_BgnIdtV8/s400/positive1.jpg" /></a><br /><div>I've really been sticking to my plans lately because I keep positive affrimations in my back pocket to look at whenever i need a reminder of what my goals are in life.</div><div> </div><div><br />Here are some affirmations I've jotted down for myself.</div><div> </div><div><span style="color:#ffcc00;"><br />WHAT ARE YOU WILLING TO SACRIFICE IN ORDER TO BE SUCCESSFUL?</span></div><div><span style="color:#ffcc00;"></span> </div><div><span style="color:#ffcc00;"><span style="color:#00cccc;"><br />YOUR MAIN PROBLEM IS YOU WANT SOMETHING FOR NOTHING</span> </span></div><div><span style="color:#ffcc00;"></span> </div><div><span style="color:#ffcc00;"><span style="color:#006600;"><br />GIVE A DEADLINE FOR EVERYTHING</span> </span></div><div><span style="color:#ffcc00;"></span> </div><div><span style="color:#3366ff;"><br />ONLY FOCUS ON WHAT YOU WANT</span></div><div><span style="color:#3366ff;"></span> </div><div><span style="color:#3366ff;"><span style="color:#330099;"><br />IF YOU GIVE YOUR BODY THE PROPER NUTRITION YOU WONT HAVE ANY PROBLEMS AND YOU WILL REACH YOUR FULL POTENTIAL</span> </span></div><div><span style="color:#3366ff;"></span> </div><div><br />YOU CANT SOLVE PROBLEMS BY USING THE SAME THINKING THAT CREATED THEM </div><div> </div><br />If you want to change some unwanted aspect of your life you have to create and constantly review aspirations that inspire yout ot do just that.<br /><br />John Gray said it takes the average person 200 times reviewing something before they actually get it.<br /><br />What the heck are you doing looking at this post.<br /><br />You have a lot of work to do.James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-73397816349057246142010-01-12T13:26:00.002-05:002010-01-12T13:36:36.888-05:00Here's looking at you kid!<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5425921703817028274" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj405OOUih1pd751rmtl-J1NWrrdhAHYwAFK8rFlsebWWR6Q3XuOdTpEha9xjR-Ld9PTHmqQuFtD2bVK4QLMnvHhIcUkW4KkcA8tWd2mARSp6PKG-beSn1MyjpteOtsaW-ybiJKauhEH0ZC/s400/jamestubman.jpg" border="0" /><br />Well, one of my resolutions this year is im not going to be scared to show my face on my own blog anymore.<br /><br />I know im not the handsomest brother in the world but hey at least im a man, im single and I dont have any kids lol (even though i love children and wouldnt mind having some right now but thats not the point).<br /><br />The point is in order for me to be successful in life i have to come out of my shell, stop acting like a pussy and learn how to appropriately deal with other people.<br /><br />This is the real James Tubman love it or leave it, and expect more pictures and youtube recordings in the future.<br /><br />Hope everybody's new year is going well so far.<br /><br />Peace!James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-17921222116677344152009-12-22T12:58:00.000-05:002009-12-22T13:00:06.825-05:00The History of Child Abuse Lloyd deMause The Journal of Psychohistory (abridged version)The History of Child Abuse Lloyd deMause The Journal of Psychohistory<br />The History of Child Abuse <br /><br />Lloyd deMause<br />The Journal of Psychohistory V. 25, N. 3, Winter 1998<br /><br />The following speech was given at the National Parenting Conference in Boulder, Colorado, on September 25, 1997.<br /><br />It also appears in Sexual Addicitons & Compulsivity V 1 n1 1994<br /><br />(posted with permission)<br /><br />describes crimes of abuse<br /><br />During the past three decades, I have spent much of my scholarly life examining primary sources such as diaries, autobiographies, doctor’s reports, ethnographic reports and other documents that document what it must have felt like to have been a child – yesterday and today, in the East and the West, in literate and preliterate cultures.<br /><br />In several hundred studies published by myself and my associates in The Journal of Psychohistory, we have provided extensive evidence that the history of childhood has been a nightmare from which we have only recently begun to awaken. The further back in history one goes – and the further away from the West one gets – the more massive the neglect and cruelty one finds and the more likely children are to have been killed, rejected, beaten, terrorized and sexually abused by their caretakers.<br /><br />Indeed, my conclusion from a lifetime of psychohistorical study of childhood and society is that the history of humanity is founded upon the abuse of children. Just as family therapists today find that child abuse often functions to hold families together as a way of solving their emotional problems, so, too, the routine assault of children has been society’s most effective way of maintaining its collective emotional homeostasis. Most historical families once practiced infanticide, erotic beating and incest. Most states sacrificed and mutilated their children to relieve the guilt of adults. Even today, we continue to arrange the daily killing, maiming, molestation and starvation of children through our social, military and economic activities. I would like to summarize here some of the evidence I have found as to why child abuse has been humanity’s most powerful and most successful ritual, why it has been the cause of war and social violence, and why the eradication of child abuse and neglect is the most important social task we face today.<br /><br />THE CHILD AS POISON CONTAINER<br /><br />The main psychological mechanism that operates in all child abuse involves using children as what I have termed poison containers – receptacles into which adults project disowned parts of their psyches, so they can control these feelings in another body without danger to themselves. In good parenting, the child uses the caretaker as a poison container, much as it earlier used the mother’s placenta as a poison container for cleansing its polluted blood. A good mother reacts with calming actions to the cries of a baby and helps it “detoxify” its dangerous emotions. But when an immature mother’s baby cries, she cannot stand the screaming, and strikes out at the child. As one battering mother put it, “I have never felt loved all my life. When the baby was born, I thought he would love me. When he cried, it meant he didn’t love me. So I hit him.” Rather than the child being able to use the parent to detoxify its fears and anger, the parent instead injects his or her bad feelings into the child and uses it to cleanse his or herself of depression and anger.<br /><br />Consider a typical infanticidal, incestuous culture, the Bimin-Kuskusmin of New Guinea. As is so often true in pre-literate cultures, the mothers have long post-partum taboos against sex with their husbands, sleep naked against their children until they are about four years old, have orgasms while nursing them and regularly masturbate them. One three-year-old boy describes how whenever his mother was sad or angry she masturbated him so roughly that it hurt him, and he struggled to get away, complaining of a pain in his penis. “It hurts inside,” he told the ethnologist. “It goes Ôkoong, koong, koong’ inside. I think it bleeds in there I don’t like to touch it anymore. It hurts when I pee…” Sometimes, after his mother hurt him while masturbating him, he wounds himself in the thigh and abdomen with a sharp stick and draws blood, looking at his penis and saying, “Now it hurts here, outside, not in penis. Look, blood. Feels good…” Although he is only three years old, he understands quite well that he is being used as a poison container by his mother to relieve her depression. He says, “Mother twist penis, tight…Hurt inside…Mother angry, hurt Buuktiin’s penis. Mother sad, hurt Buuktiin’s penis…Mother not like Buuktiin’s penis, want to cut off…”<br /><br />Maternal incest and pederasty by men are quite common in pre-literate groups and were common in earlier historical times. Boys in many New Guinea groups today, for instance, are so traumatized by the early erotic experiences, neglect and assaults on their bodies that they need to prove their masculinity when they grow up and become fierce warriors and cannibals, with a third of them dying in raids and wars. In fact, I have found that rather than the incest taboo being universal – as anthropologists claim – it is incest itself that has been universal for most children in most cultures in most times. A childhood more or less free from adult sexual use is in fact a very late historical achievement, limited to a few fortunate children in a few modern nations. To give you some idea of the extensive evidence I have gathered for such an unlikely conclusion, I would like to begin by summarizing the evidence which exists for the sexual abuse of children around the world today.<br /><br />THE SEXUAL ABUSE OF CHILDREN TODAY<br /><br />In America, the most accurate scientific studies, based on lengthy interviews, report that 30 percent of men and 40 percent of women remember having been sexually molested during childhood- – defining “molestation” as acctual genital contact, not just exposure. About half of these are directly incestuous, with the family members, the other half usually being with others, but with the complicity of caretakers in at least 80 percent of the cases. These experiences of seduction are not just pieced together from fragmentary memories, but are remembered in detail, are usually for an extended period of time and have been confirmed by follow-up reliability studies in 83 percent of the cases, so they are unlikely to have been fantasies. The seductions occurred at much earlier ages than had been previously assumed, with 81 percent occurring before puberty and an astonishing 42 percent under age 7.<br /><br />As high as these molestation rates seem, however, they represent only a portion of the true rates, not only because those interviewed do not include populations that have been shown to have extremely high rates- – such as criminals, prostitutes, juveniles in shelters, psychotics, etc. – but also because only conscious memories were counted, and the earliest seductions of children are almost never remembered except during psychotherapy. Adjusting statistically for what is known about these additional factors, I have concluded that the real sexual abuse rate for America is 60 percent for girls and 45 percent for boys, about half of these directly incestuous.<br /><br />Other Western nations have made fewer careful studies. A recent Canadian study by Gallup of 2,000 adults has produced incidence rates almost exactly the same as those found in the United States. Latin American family sexual activity – particularly widespread pederasty as part of macho sexuality – is considered even more widespread. In England, a recent BBC “ChildWatch” program asked its female listeners – a large though admittedly biased sample – if they remembered sexual molestation, and, of the 2,530 replies analyzed, 83 percent remembered someone touching their genitals, 62 percent recalling actual intercourse. In Germany, the Institut fur Kindheit has recently concluded a survey asking West Berlin schoolchildren about their sexual experiences, and 80 percent reported having been molested.<br /><br />Outside the West, the sexual molestation of children is a routine practice in most families. Childhood in India begins, according to observers, with the child being regularly masturbated by the mother, the girl “to make her sleep well,” the boy “to make him manly.” The child sleeps in the family bed, witnesses and most likely takes part in sexual intercourse between the parents. The child is often “borrowed” to sleep with other members of the extended household, leading to the Indian proverb that “For a girl to be a virgin at ten years old, she must have neither brothers nor cousin nor father.” Childhood is so eroticized that, as one Western observer put it, “The little Hindu girls are deflowered by the little boys with whom they play, and repeat together the erotic lessons which their parents have unwittingly taught them on account of the general promiscuity of family life throughout India. In all the little girls of less than ten years of age the complete hymen is wanting…Incest is often the rule rather than the exception.”<br /><br />Child marriage was, of course, a long-standing Indian practice. When laws were passed in 1929 trying to outlaw it, the government was overwhelmed by men insisting that early marriage was an absolute necessity, since little girls were naturally very sexual and must be married early if they are to be restrained from seducing adults. “Cupid overtakes the hearts of girls…at an early age,” they said. “A girl’s desire for sexual intercourse is eight times greater than that of males.” Indian mothers also often supported early marriage, frankly admitting it was necessary in order to protect their little girls against rape in the family, saying that “they were afraid to leave their daughters at home, even for one afternoon, without a mother’s eye and accessible to the men of the family.”<br /><br />The Indian subcontinent, in fact, still has many groups, such as the Baiga, where actual incestuous marriage is practiced, between fathers and daughters, between mothers and sons, between siblings and even between grandparents and their grandchildren – thus disproving the oft-repeated anthropological truism that “no known tribe has ever permitted incest” because if it were allowed society would surely cease functioning. In many of these villages, the children move at the age of 5 or 6 from the incestuous activities of the family bed to spend the rest of their childhood in sex dormitories, where they are initiated by older youth and men into intercourse with a succession of other children, none for longer than three days at a time, under threat of gang rape.<br /><br />Childhood in China has historically had the same institutionalized rape rituals as in India, including the pederasty of boys, child concubinage, the castration of boys to be used sexually as eunuchs, marriage of young girls to a number of brothers, widespread boy and girl prostitution and the regular sexual use of child servants and slaves. So prevalent was the rape of little girls that Western doctors found that, as in India, few girls entering puberty had intact hymens. Even the universal practice of foot binding was for sexual purposes, with a girl undergoing extremely painful crushing of the bones of her feet for years in order that men could make love to her big toe as a fetish, a penis-substitute.<br /><br />Childhood in contemporary Japan, although somewhat more Western than that of other Eastern nations, still includes masturbation by mothers “to put them to sleep.” Parents often have intercourse with their children in bed with them, and “co-sleeping,” with parents physically embracing the child, often continues until the child is ten or fifteen. One recent Japanese study found daughters sleeping with their fathers over 20 percent of the time after age 16. Recent sex surveys report memories of sexual abuse even higher than comparable American studies, and “hot lines” of sexual abuse report mother-son incest in almost a third of the calls, the mother saying to her teenage son, “It’s not good to do it alone. Your IQ becomes lower. I will help you, ” or “You cannot study if you cannot have sex. You may use my body,” or “I don’t want you to get into trouble with a girl. Have sex with me instead.” Historically, Japan has been one of the most endogamous societies in the world, with incestuous marriages in court circles being approved even in historical times and preferred sibling, cousin, uncle-niece and aunt-nephew marriages having been so extensive that genetics experts have discovered that the incestuous inbreeding has affected the size and health of the Japanese. Even today, there are rural areas in Japan where fathers marry their daughters when the mother has died or is incapacitated, “in accordance with feudal family traditions.”<br /><br />The sexual use of children in the Near East is as widespread as in the Far East. Historically, all the institutionalized forms of pedophilia which were customary in the Far East are documented extensively for the Near East, including child marriage, child concubinage, temple prostitution of both boys and girls, parent-child marriage (among the Zoroastrians), sibling marriage (quite common among Egyptians), sex slavery, ritualized pederasty and child prostitution. Masturbation in infancy is said to be necessary “to increase the size” of the penis, and older siblings are reported to play with the genitals of babies for hours at a time. Mutual masturbation, fellatio and anal intercourse are also said to be common among children, particularly with the older boys using younger children as sex objects. The nude public baths (hammam) are particularly eroticized in many areas, being especially notorious as a place of homosexual acts, both male and female.<br /><br />Girls are used incestuously even more often than boys, since females are valued so little. One report found 80 percent of Near Eastern women surveyed recalled having been forced into fellatio between the ages of 3 and 6 by older brothers, cousins, uncles and teachers. The girls rarely complain, since “if there is any punishment to be meted out, it will always end up by being inflicted on her.” Arab women know that their spouses are pedophiles and prefer having sex with children to having sex with them. Their retribution comes as follows. When the girl is about 6 years old, the women of the house grab her, pull her thighs apart and cut off her clitoris and often also her labia with a razor, thus usually ending her ability to feel sexual pleasure forever. One Egyptian woman relates her memory of how it happened to her. After being used sexually by the men in her family during her early childhood, she says:<br /><br />I was six years old that night when I lay in my bed, warm and peaceful…I felt something move under the blankets, something like a huge hand…another hand was clapped over my mouth to prevent me from screaming.<br /><br />They carried me to the bathroom…I remember…a rasping metallic sound which reminded me of the butcher when he used to sharpen his knife…My blood was frozen in my veins…my thighs had been pulled wide apart…I felt that the rasping knife or blade was heading straight down towards my throat. Then suddenly the sharp metallic edge seemed to drop between my thighs and there cut off a piece of flesh from my body.<br /><br />I screamed with pain despite the tight hand held over my mouth, for the pain was not just a pain, it was like a searing flame that went through my whole body. After a few moments, I saw a red pool of blood around my hips.<br /><br />I did not know what they had cut off from my body, and did not try to find out. I just wept, and called out to my mother for help. But the worst shock of all was when I looked around and found her standing by my side. Yes, it was her, I could not be mistaken, in flesh and blood, right in the midst of these strangers, talking to them and smiling at them.<br /><br />A recent survey of Egyptian girls and women showed 97 percent of uneducated families and 66 percent of educated families still practiced clitoridectomy. Nor is the practice decreasing – UN reports estimate that more than 74 million females have been mutilated, with “more female children mutilated today than throughout history.”<br /><br />Clitoridectomy, like all sexual mutilations, is, I believe, an act of incest. If it is incest when a father rapes a daughter, it is also incest when parents assault their children by cutting off, sewing up, burning, flaying or gashing their genitals. In all these cases, the child is being used for the sadistic sexual pleasure of the parent. In fact, circumcision ceremonies are often followed by drinking parties that end in intercourse, so sexually arousing is the circumcision- – in some areas, the traveling circumcizer is actually accompanied by some prostitutes, who know how sexually excited villages become after the ceremony. Therefore, the practice of sexually mutilating children’s genitals- – one of the most widespread rituals in the world – by itself makes incest a near-universal trait.<br /><br />THE EVOLUTION OF CHILDHOOD<br /><br />Historically, the routine use of children as poison containers to prevent adults from feeling overwhelmed by their anxieties has also been universal. Examples from the history of childhood regularly reveal children are expected to “absorb” the bad feelings of their caretakers. As one peasant community in rural Greece puts it, you must have children around to put your bad feelings into, especially when the “Bad Hour” comes around. An informant describes the process as follows:<br /><br />One of the ways for the Bad Hour to occur is when you get angry. When you’re angry a demon gets inside of you. Only if a pure individual passes by, like a child for instance, will the “bad” leave you, for it will fall on the unpolluted.<br /><br />Newborn infants, in particular, were perfect poison containers because they were so “unpolluted.” The newborn then became so full of the parent’s projections that even if he or she is allowed to live (up to half the children in early societies were murdered at birth), the infant had to be tied up – tightly swaddled in bandages for up to a year or more- – to prevent it from “tearing its ears off, scratching its eyes out, breaking its legs, or touching its genitals,” i.e., to prevent it from acting out the violent and sexual projections of the parents.<br /><br />Children were particularly useful as poison containers when adults felt anxious about recent or impending success. Success stirs up superego retaliation, and the sacrifice of children to appease the gods – that is, the punitive parents – was an extremely widespread guilt-reducing device. Most early states practiced child sacrifice. Typical was Carthage, where a large cemetery has been discovered called The Tophet filled with over 20,000 urns deposited there between 400 and 200 B.C. The urns contained bones of children sacrificed by their parents, who often would make a vow to kill their next child if the gods would grant them a favor – for instance, if their shipment of goods were to arrive safely in a foreign port. Some urns contain the bones of stillborn babies along with the bones of two-year-olds, indicating that if the promised child was not born alive, an older child had also to be killed to satisfy the promise. The sacrifice was accompanied by a music, wild dancing and riotous orgy, and was probably accompanied by the ritual rape of virgin girls, as it was with the Incans. Plutarch told how the priests would “cut their throats as if they were so many lambs or young birds; meanwhile the mother stood by without a tear or moan [while] the whole area before the statue was filled with a loud noise of flutes and drums…” Sacrifice, rape and genital mutilation of young girls continues to take place today in the Andean mountains, particularly to ward off the guilt coming after successful cocaine deliveries. These ceremonies, from antiquity to today, resemble closely the satanic rituals made familiar recently in the newspapers, using the infliction of rape, sexual mutilation and other horrors in order to visit upon child victims elements of the traumas of the satanists’ own childhood.<br /><br />That child sacrifice was carried out mainly by the rich in each of these early societies confirms my theory that it is a guilt-reducing technique. Whenever new ventures were begun, children would be sacrificed. Whenever a new building or bridge was built, a child would be buried within it as a “foundation sacrifice.” Children still play at capturing a child and making it part of the bridge in “London Bridge’s Falling Down.” Children’s bodies were particularly useful in curing disease. Whatever one’s physical ills, a child could be used to “absorb” the poison that was responsible. When, for instance, one wanted to be cured of leprosy, one was supposed to kill a child and wash one’s body in its blood. When one wanted to find out if a house whose previous occupants had died of plague was still infected or not, one rented some children to live in it for several weeks to see if they died – rather like the use of canaries in mines to detect poisonous gas. When one was impotent, depressed or had venereal disease, doctors prescribed having intercourse with a child. As late as the end of the nineteenth century, men who were brought into Old Bailey for having raped young girls were let go because “they believed that they were curing themselves of venereal disease.” Raping virgins was particularly effective for impotence and depression; as one medical book put it, “Breaking a maiden’s seal is one of the best antidotes for one’s ills. Cudgeling her unceasingly, until she swoons away, is a might remedy for man’s depression. It cures all impotence.” And, of course, whenever a parent had a disease, they always had their children handy to absorb the poison. Thus British doctors in the nineteenth century regularly found when visiting men who had venereal disease that their children also had the same disease – on their mouths, anuses or genitals.<br /><br />No matter what anxieties one had, one had children always at hand to use to relieve them. The evolution of childhood from incest to love and from abuse to empathy has been a slow, uneven path, but one whose progressive direction is, I think, unmistakable. This evolution of parent-child relations is, I contend, an independent source of historical change, lying in the ability of successive generations of parents to live through their own childhood traumas a second time and work through their anxieties in a slightly better manner this second time around. It is in this sense that I say that history is like psychotherapy, which also heals through revisiting one’s childhood traumas and reworking earlier anxieties. If the parent – the mother, for most of history – is given even the most minimal support by society, the evolution of childhood progresses, new variations in historical personality are formed, and history begins to move in new, innovative directions.<br /><br />The crucial relationship in this evolution is the mother-daughter relationship. If little girls are treated particularly badly, they grow up to be mothers who cannot rework their traumas, and history is frozen. For instance, although China was ahead of the West in most ways during the pre-Christian era, it became “frozen” and fell far behind the West in evolutionary social and technological change after it adopted the practice of footbinding girls. Similarly, the cliterodectomy of girls in Moslem societies has inhibited their social development for centuries, since it likewise puts a brake on the ability of the next generation of mothers to make progress in caring for their children. Clearly, different groups have moved different distances up the ladder of psychological evolution, since some contemporary groups still practice brain-eating as our Paleolithic ancestors did, and different subgroups of our more advanced nations still terrorize and abuse their children in ways identical to those that were commonplace centuries ago, producing the “historical fossils” (early “psychoclasses”) we now call borderline personalities and other severe character disorders. Your neighbor is as likely to be a result of medieval parenting as of modern parenting, so modern societies contain a full range of childrearing modes and psychoclasses.<br /><br />The “generational pressure” for psychological change is not only an independent historical force – originating in inborn adult-child striving for relationship – it occurs independent of social and technological change, and can be found even in periods of economic stagnation. My “psychogenic theory of history” posits that a society’s childrearing practices are not just one item in a list of cultural traits, but – because all other traits must be passeed down from generation to generation through the narrow funnel of childhood – instead makes childrearing the very basis for the transmission and development of all other cultural traits, placing definite limits on what can be achieved in the material spheres of history. The main source of childhood evolution is, I believe, the process I call psychogenesis, by which parents – mainly the mother for most of history – revisit a second time around the stages of childhood and undo to some extent the traumas they themselves endured. It is in this sense that history is like a psychotherapy of the generations, undoing trauma and giving historical personality a chance at a new start with every baby born. Only humans have brain networks that allow this miracle to take place. All cultural changes in the past 100,000 years of Homo sapiens sapiens are epigenetic, not genetic. Regardless of changes in the environment, it is only when changes in childhood occur that epigenetic changes in the brain can occur and societies can begin to progress and move in unpredictable new directions that are more adaptive. That more individuated and loving individuals are ultimately more adaptive is understandable – because they are less under the pressures of infantile traumas and are therefore more rational in reaching their goals. But that this childhood evolution – and therefore all social evolution – is terribly uneven is also understandable, given the varying conditions under which parents all over the world have to conduct their childrearing tasks.James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-38195473714034460162009-12-15T15:13:00.003-05:002009-12-15T15:29:46.045-05:00If you had 24 hours to make 10,000 dollars how would you make it?<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEily5hvaKqTAVMHbVh7Q6gR76vPGboKqzVPcBkp2UriplFc7RdCSAvfXRV1sVMaHEGNts-NSzEimBIyG9Fp0IgYk97WyimHVd4H2chNPgfuNEkiDGrG9oM2qZ2yae1eKSc_eblc5nBuQGSq/s1600-h/money.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5415559560698441650" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 135px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 135px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEily5hvaKqTAVMHbVh7Q6gR76vPGboKqzVPcBkp2UriplFc7RdCSAvfXRV1sVMaHEGNts-NSzEimBIyG9Fp0IgYk97WyimHVd4H2chNPgfuNEkiDGrG9oM2qZ2yae1eKSc_eblc5nBuQGSq/s400/money.jpg" border="0" /></a> I can think about a few ways i would make this money.<br /><br />Unfortunately most of them require unscrupulous methods lol.<br /><br />This is a good question to ask because if you cant do it in a day you might be able to do it in a months time.<br /><br />It's all about creativity and persistence.<br /><br />I would create a company and and create stock certificates right at the library for my business.<br /><br />Give them all the reasons why they should invest in my company.<br /><br />Tell them exactly how much they would make and get to 125th and start pushin that shit to the limit.<br /><br />Now you would think that trying to push that idea to rich white people would give you a better chance of gettin' it.<br /><br />I think that blacks would be more sympathetic to the cause and they would want to contribute because they see a young brother in a nice suit trying to do the right thing.<br /><br />Might not work but i think i would get close because there is probably 100,000 people who walk through 125th everyday and i would be all up in their faces.<br /><br />Anyway, how would you get it.<br /><br />C'mon now, even if its nasty i want to hear it lol.James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-85025711334279619812009-12-12T15:13:00.002-05:002009-12-12T16:02:43.700-05:00Guess What Tiger You Are Still A Nigger!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiKruZTuqOcgJgGGEEXnc1IlPbOJ5d0XX0sMhaLZTQ9bGC2te9QyAQWgQyQUYdnpq695lgD5Z_TIk-TaL7I3AWBu6tpQ52uCPTyUGzceujIjtbkIkfQzxAMN7DOrvJ7DGFLEE7T10KHKjLp/s1600-h/tiger-woods.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5414446450550034866" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 307px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiKruZTuqOcgJgGGEEXnc1IlPbOJ5d0XX0sMhaLZTQ9bGC2te9QyAQWgQyQUYdnpq695lgD5Z_TIk-TaL7I3AWBu6tpQ52uCPTyUGzceujIjtbkIkfQzxAMN7DOrvJ7DGFLEE7T10KHKjLp/s400/tiger-woods.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><br />This is the poster child for why a high profile black man should not have numerous sexual liasions with multiple amounts of white women. </div><div> </div><div>]<br />He's a disgrace to the black race he really is.</div><div> </div><div><br />He is a prime example of how white images of beauty have so warped and twisted our minds.</div><div> </div><div><br />Ladies and gentlemen white people enslaved us!</div><div> </div><div><br />Killed over 100 million afrikans throughout the MAAFA.</div><div> </div><div><br />White men have raped literally millions of african women.</div><div> </div><div><br />White women lying on black men, saying they were raped by them, have caused 1000's of black men to be lynched in this country.</div><div> </div><div><br />When you look at late 19th and early to mid 20th century media images of black people in movies, books and novels you would think that black men were obsessed with raping white women.</div><div> </div><div><br />Why would any black man (or black woman for that matter) let these demonic people come anywhere near our naked bodies after all they have done to us and continue to do to us?</div><div> </div><div><br />Granted many of us have been duped into thinking they are attractive but once you really start to read and learn about how they have treated us in this country historically i just dont understand how our people can sleep with them after that point.</div><div> </div><div><br />Another thing, whenever a white person sleeps with a black person that white person is using them just like an adult who molests a child.</div><div> </div><div><br />Now sounds like ive gone way to far doesnt it?</div><div> </div><div><br />Let me explain.</div><div> </div><div><br />White people know that we are the dumbest people in the universe because we still love them after they have done so much harm to us.</div><div> </div><div><br />They know that if we were in our right minds we would try to retaliate against them for all of the misery and suffering they put our people through.</div><div> </div><div><br />So when you see white men and women willingly sleeping with blacks they are playing on our ignorance of our history.</div><div> </div><div><br />They are taking advantage of us.</div><div> </div><div><br />I wont go too much more into that because its such a touchy topic but i am just amazed at how pervasive and acceptable interracial marriage is.</div><div> </div><div><br />Tiger will recover from all of this.</div><div> </div><div><br />By the way that dude has a voracious sex drive.</div><div> </div><div><br />I mean wow, 9 TIMES IN ONE NIGHT!</div><div> </div><div><br />My girl would be lucky if she got 9 minutes out of me lol.</div><div> </div><div><br />Its really sad but in my opinion he was a dissapointment from the begining.</div><div> </div><div><br />This fiasco in the news is so damaging to the collective of black men in this country.</div><div> </div><div><br />Tiger was the Golden Boy.</div><div> </div><div><br />He was the guy that was looked at as being different from the rest of us.</div><div> </div><div><br />Now whites believe that no matter how rich and successful we are.</div><div> </div><div><br />No matter how seemingly moral and good we are.</div><div> </div><div><br />Our main goal in life is to have sex with as many of their women as possible.</div><div> </div><div><br />This harks back to the the movie "The Birth of a Nation."</div><div> </div><div><br />This movie portrayed blacks in a negative light to say the least.</div><div> </div><div><br />It was about many things but it was mainly about a black man (really a white man in black face) chasing down a helpless white woman and having her eventually commit suicide so she escape being raped by this man.</div><div> </div><div><br />At the end i think Ku Klux Klan lynched the man and this was the most popular movie in history at the time.</div><div> </div><div><br />After this movie ran in theaters all over the country the amount of black men lynched sky roketed.</div><div> </div><div><br />This movie basically reinforced the racist belief that all black men desire to rape white women and take them away from white men.</div><div> </div><div><br />When you see the majority of our male entertainers marying white women and having all types of perverse sexual liasons with them in pornography and so forth this einforces those old archaic stereotypical beliefs.</div><div> </div><div><br />We gotta get smart people.</div><div> </div><div><br />Dr. Leonard Jeffries, a prominent African American historian, said that "history is your power."</div><div> </div><div><br />If you know history no one can fool you.</div><div> </div><div><br />Tiger obviously doesnt know anything about his history unless he's a traitor to his race and we have many of those in our race too unfortunately.</div><div> </div><div><br />This scandal is going to enliven the racists in this society even more then they are now.</div><div> </div><div><br />I cant believe he didnt sleep with one black woman.</div><div> </div><div><br />This is harmful in so many ways. </div>James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-44598482588816669042009-11-27T12:48:00.002-05:002009-11-27T13:18:07.977-05:00Formulating the plan of action that will lead to successI know that i am a scatter brain but i dont want to feel like im wasting my time.<br /><br />I know how to promote a business and i think i should spend time promoting my own instead of promoting somebody else's.<br /><br />If it doesnt work fine ill go back to old jobs that I had but i think my dream is worth a chance.<br /><br />When i go back to New York after this research study im doing i am going to pass out flyers for my goods and services on 125th st. just like i used to when i was in union square working for twinkle toes.<br /><br />Im still young and while you are young you can pursue any type of fantasy you want.<br /><br />This can be a reality if i want it bad enough.<br /><br />I think the 3 main traits you have to have when selling anything is, you have to have a passion for what you are selling, you have to constantly keep in touch with the client and you have to give them a solution to whatever problem they have.<br /><br />You dont have to be nice.<br /><br />You dont have to be easy to get along with.<br /><br />The mainthing you have to do is solve their problem.<br /><br />I have access to knowledge that will definately solve their health problems if they do what the manuals and videos say.<br /><br />I am bringing a gift to these people's lives by promoting and selling vital information that will release them from the burgeoning clutches of the pharmaceutical and so called "health care" industry.<br /><br />I was at my family reunion yesterday and it was announced that my uncle died in his early 50's like 2 oclock in the morning on thanksgiving morning.<br /><br />He had heart surgery like 3 weeks ago and didnt tell anybody.<br /><br />He died on his job working late at night.<br /><br />Let me tell you something I AINT GOING OUT LIKE THAT!<br /><br />If you hear about me dying it's going to be because i got stabbed, shot or ran over by a mack truck.<br /><br />It damn sure wont be because i died of a disease or illness.<br /><br />I am not going to let these malevolent, blood sucking, merciless vultures pimp me out with their drugs and surgery.<br /><br />They are not going to get me or my youngin's and hopefully some New Yorkians will be smart enough to buy the material so they wont get got themselves.<br /><br />We shall see.James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-58689465559581091102009-11-21T11:26:00.002-05:002009-11-21T12:19:34.851-05:00Back in B-More for the HolidaysNew York is cool and im going back to live there but im taking some time to be with my family and make some real money this holliday season.<br /><br />I had to take a time out because things were starting to get way too stressful for me.<br /><br />The people at the shelter i was in started acting crazy and i knew i had to get out there.<br /><br />I was working everyday of the week not really making much and i was forced to learn a whole lot in a short period of time.<br /><br />If i wasnt in a shelter where i had to put up with a whole bunch of ignorant staff members it wouldnt be so bad.<br /><br />If you can, in your own life, if things are getting way too stressful for you take a time out.<br /><br />Give your mother or some other responsible adult in your life the kids for a few weeks (with money to take care of them of course).<br /><br />Ask your job for time off.<br /><br />If they dont let you take off, QUIT!<br /><br />Your peace of mind is important.<br /><br />You have to trust in your ability to succeed.<br /><br />See the main way i have succeeded in life is when my back was up against the wall.<br /><br />Im from the inner city slums of Baltimore.<br /><br />Most of the people who live there are racked with many mental, physical and psychological problems.<br /><br />It is an excuse but it is a legitamate one.<br /><br />However you have to overcome your problems.<br /><br />If you dont then you are useless and you will eventually be a burden to others around you.<br /><br />The goal is to move yourself from a state of dependency to independency.<br /><br />Then to move yourself from a state of independency to interdependency (says the guy in the book The Seven Habits of Highlt Effective People).<br /><br />My boss Mr. Twinkle Toes was giving me a fit there.<br /><br />He would take out money from my check when i made a mistake but im still training.<br /><br />Where's the learning curve mutha fucka?!<br /><br />Ive changed a lot about myself to acclimate myself appropriately to this job and i just couldnt do it at the time with all of the other stresses on me.<br /><br />So i left and didnt give them any indication of where i was going (thats fucked up aint it lol).<br /><br />Im not stressed because i know i can get the job back.<br /><br />One of the guys i met in the shelter Vashti is an Indian Punjabi crackhead lol.<br /><br />He's the guy that hooked me up with the job actually.<br /><br />So instead of waiting every week to get paid he would keep going to the boss to get money everyday so he could smoke his crack.<br /><br />They keep letting the Punjabi crackhead so i know they arent going to say anything to me (at least i hope not lol).<br /><br />I dont know?<br /><br />I'll eventually figure out along the way.<br /><br />What i want to do is become a master herbalist, a massage therapist and a bikram yoga instructor.<br /><br />You learn the herbology to know what herbs to give to the patient, being a massage therapists you can workout the bones, muscles tendons and ligaments and cure them that way, and if you become an yoga instructor you can teach them moves to increase their circulation to cure them that way.<br /><br />By the time i hit 30 i am going to be a mutha shut ya mouth.James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-80815313459587739882009-11-10T04:58:00.002-05:002009-11-10T05:18:17.648-05:00Trying to learn lifes most important lessons on my own<p>Its been real hard these last 2 weeks </p><p>Ive had many challenges to face and are still facing them</p><p>My boss has given me more responsibilities on my job and he has taken me under his wing so to speak</p><p>Its hard work but i do believe its worth the fight</p><p>Ive changed in so many ways since ive came to new york</p><p>I've made many friends and enemies since ive been here </p><p>Ive put up with a lot of hardship and struggle since ive been here too.</p><p>It's truly been a roller coaster ride.</p><p>One thing i do notice about new york is if you have a good idea and stick with it to the end you can make it.</p><p>This is what i am trying to do at this yoga place.</p><p>There are about 6 guys who work there and i am the only black guy of course and also i think one of the only straight guys there (pablo the maintenance man might be the lone exception).</p><p>That's good because i flirt with all of the girls and they have to like it because they get some male attention there.</p><p>I may be ugly but hey, if you are the only option, what can you say lol</p><p>The owner of the place is an equadorian who used to play in broadway musicals (do i have to tell you what his sexual preference is). </p><p>He's gets on me a lot (he gets on everybody really) but he has to run a business so i understand.</p><p>He toldme straight up that i had to do something with my hair because i look wild with my big nappy frow, long sideburns and nappy goatee.</p><p>I wouldnt have even thought about considering that if he didnt offer to pay for it.</p><p>I have braids now and now hopefully i look a little more "approachable" as he puts it.</p><p>Im learning alot about how to run a business through this work.</p><p>It takes discipline, being honest, and lots of patience.</p><p>Hopefully i can grow from this experience and finally put myself on the straight and narrow path to success.</p>James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-45807734873221278222009-11-04T06:33:00.004-05:002009-11-04T06:47:31.842-05:00Moving on up in the gameI like new york<br /><br />especially manhattan<br /><br />my yoga is getting better after a few more classes and i can see more clearer the goal of becoming a yoga teacher within the next 6 months<br /><br />the teachers there are cool and they all want me to take their class<br /><br />its crackers who teach the courses of course with one indian girl<br /><br />i wish there were some sisters up in there teaching it (even though some sisters do the yoga there surprisingly)<br /><br />already ive seen a difference in my overall health and vitality since ive been doing bikram yoga<br /><br />in class you stretch almost every muscle in your body so when you come out of class you are completely open and flexable<br /><br />it can even help to cure you of diseases by itself because of its healing functions<br /><br />you should try it where you are<br /><br />there is a studio in harlem taught by blacks so i might see if i can work there when i get my certification<br /><br /><br />where i pass out flyers in union square i see celebrities all the time<br /><br />i've actually hugged terrell owens and told him "dont let the media get you down, man"<br /><br />i hope he appreciated that<br /><br />i saw greg anthony (former basketball player from espn), saw a guy from mtv, one of the policeman from the wire<br /><br />its been quite an experience here so far and we still have a lot more to goJames Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-21139273381093887612009-10-23T11:11:00.002-04:002009-10-23T11:26:58.437-04:00You never know what you're gonna getI think I might have decided what i want to do in life<br /><br />Besides being an herbalist i think i have in mind a profesion that i never thought i would be interested in.<br /><br />Now i want to be a yoga instructor<br /><br />Sounds crazy right for a brother to be talking like this but i might have finally found my calling<br /><br />Right now im working for a yoga place passing out flyers for them<br /><br />The job doesnt pay that much and i spend all day hounding people to take yoga classes but the second hand rewards are priceless.<br /><br />I actually took a bikram yoga class yesterday.<br /><br />Me!<br /><br />The dude from the inner city, crime ridden, drug infested slums of baltimore took a hot yoga class with a whole bunch of yuppies yesterday.<br /><br />Sounds crazy but i actually like the class.<br /><br />It challenged me in ways that i have never been challenged before though.<br /><br />It's intense because in a bikram yoga class the temperature is 105 degrees and you have to do movements for 90 minutes straight.<br /><br />And you have to do strenuous stretching techniques that close off circulation to certain areas of the body, but when you relax those muscles the highly oxygenated blood pumps back into those veins, capillaries and arteries clearing out toxins and impurities.<br /><br />It's intense, but i LOVED the challenge.<br /><br />That was the first time i ever did yoga of any type but it wont be the last.<br /><br />In about 6 months i can see myself working my way up getting a certification in brikham yoga and teaching classes to make a living.<br /><br /> In addition i will get additional certifications in herbology and that way ill be able to heal the body from a multi-faceted level.<br /><br />When i get the certification i wanty yall to come up here and take the class for free.<br /><br />Sunshine, when are you due?James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-71656796417907664052009-10-06T10:21:00.002-04:002009-10-06T10:44:13.511-04:00We Live In Brooklyn Now Baby!Thats right kid.<br /><br />We live in the brooklyn zoo now baby.<br /><br />Birthplace of Michael Jordan, Mike Tyson, Jay - Z, Biggie, and a whole host of celebrities and entertainers.<br /><br />Things are going well.<br /><br />Im finally doing something i love to do and getting paid for it (not much but that will be changing soon).<br /><br />I work for a charity group that raises money for victims of homelessness.<br /><br />I love it because i stand in the middle of manhattan everyday talking about just how bad homeless people are being treated by this wicked government.<br /><br />And even though the vast majority of New Yorkians ignore the hell out of me, some atually contribute to our organization and show just how powerful the human spirit is.<br /><br />Im out there 4 to 8 hours a day waxing on about how thousands of people are becoming homeless everyday.<br /><br />It's like therapy actually.<br /><br />I get my frustrations off of my back and in return educate the public about conditions that could affect their lives because none of us are immune to loosing our job or place.<br /><br />Often i get crouds of people hovering around me just so they have can hear the sobering truthful words that i speak.<br /><br />I have to admit im having a lot of fun.<br /><br />Yesterday i stoped a guy who was trying to steal this woman's bookbag (that was fun).<br /><br />I really dont know why he would try to do that because he was very fat and slow (i guess he thought nobody would chase him down).<br /><br />Im getting my plan together and with the little bit im making i should be into my own place soon.<br /><br />I should have thought about doing this a long time ago.<br /><br />Ill keep in touch.James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8571056376967084158.post-64786167472022440302009-09-16T10:38:00.003-04:002009-09-16T11:00:30.517-04:00New York is full of so many choices<br /><br />There are a million ways to make a living here.<br /><br />And with all the people here its very easy to make money.<br /><br />All you need is a good idea, a good plan the will to pull it off and the capacity to stick with it even when the going gets tough.<br /><br />All of us have to find multiple ways of making money in this new economy that are outside of the rhelm of employment.<br /><br />The problem is i dont like to work lol.<br /><br />I think its degrading to work all day on a job you hate just to support your creditiors (landlord, banks, gas and electric etc.)<br /><br />FUCK THE RAT RACE is my philosophy!<br /><br />Im not a rat so i shouldnt even be in this race to begin with.<br /><br />I've read many books on how to attain wealth and i have the skills and the mind to be wealthy.<br /><br />But accumuating money is not the main goal.<br /><br />The main goal (for me at least) is to "bring the white man's rule of the earth to an end!"<br /><br />Every problem we have in our community is because of their currupt and vindictive and brutal oppresion.<br /><br />It might be hidden behind a black face (and this is why so many of us are confused) but ultimately it is the white man that is pulling the strings.<br /><br />For as long as we have been in this country we have always been systematically targeted and terrorized by the white ruling elite.<br /><br />The White man only has one goal for all Afrikan people; KEEP THOSE NIGGERS FROM ACCUMULATING ANY WEALTH AND REALZING THAT WE ARE MAKING THEM SUFFeR EVERY SINGLE DAY AND IN EVERY SINGLE WAY.<br /><br />I am sick and tired of pussy footing around, acting as if everything is peech keen while our people are destroyed every single day.<br /><br />Over a million men are locked up and over 2 milliona are processed through the criminal justice system every year.<br /><br />The ruling elite is taking every single dollar they can from the treasury, bankrupting this nation, while the middle, working class and poor are left with the burden.<br /><br />Why are we not marching downtown to their towering buildings and ripping them to shreds taking our money back from these theives that stole it in the first place?<br /><br />Dag, where did that come from lol.<br /><br />I have to go.James Tubmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04192686802895547676noreply@blogger.com2