chillin in the tub:

ive finally found out why i am so bad with women.

2010-11-22T13:33:00.004-05:00

Im way too clingy in the begining and i am way to blunt and straightforward when it comes to words.

I feel bad when i hurt a womans feelings but im just a blunt person.

Being myself is more important than the attention or intimacy of a woman.

Sounds crazy doesnt it.

I really dont care if i hurt your feelings.

I wish there was someone to understand me (or at least try to understand me).

Robert Greene says that its only a fool who's honest all the time because if you are too honest you will hurt other peoples feelings.

I guess your on the fools blog right now.

Shit happens but one's thing for sure...

2010-11-09T16:24:00.002-05:00

James Tubman will always shine from on top of the heap lol.

It seems like everytime i have a short coming somthing good happens after that.

Just last month i made a lot of money and spent it all within less than a month.

Now i have an opportunity to make it all back.

The question is what will i do with it?

Since i was young i have always been notriously bad at saving money.

Whats a good way to save money.

I dont have too many people who come to this site but sting lol, i know you are excellent at saving so can you please give me some pointers on ways to sav money and ways to discipline yourself to save more.

When Pisces met Pisces.

2010-11-04T12:51:00.003-04:00

One thing you should know about a pisces if you are in a relationship is that we are helpless romantics.

We love to be in love and we are always dreaming about the day that we find our soulmate (i know i sound like a woman but the pisces men tend to think like this too).

I was on fulton st. in brooklyn selling my stuff when a very attractive young lady came up to me to ask me about my cleanse.

She listened to me intently and she gave me heavy eye contact.

After i gave her my pitch (it was pretty irresistable) she broke down and bought a bottle.

When she took out her money i mmediately said well let me get your number so i can keep track of your usage (and eventually resupply you when your run out).

When i asked her for her number she blurted out, "oh what you want my number for you trying to ask me out on a date or something?"

I took a quick look at her and saw how fine she was and it seemed like she asked that question because maybe she was hoping i would so i said "yeah! I was hoping i could take you out next thurday to a nice ethiopian restauraunt and maybe i can to get to know you a little better." (i usually dont have this kind of confidence but i felt safe enough around her to ask that question).

So she stood there looking at me blushing with delight then i knew i had her (he he he)!

That was last week and we've been talking ever since then.

She is so easy to talk to.

Sometimes we've spent hours on the phone talking about our lives (i havent done this since high school).

I really lik ethis girl and i do believe that i can have everything i want with her except im going to have to change everything about myself.

See its hard for 2 pisces to get along because they are both passive and clueless about reality.

They live in a fantasy world and that idealized way of looking at the world prevents them from reaching their full potential.

We need stronger willed mates to give us very important reality checks before we go off the deep end.

Knowing this i can change my personality to be more practical and down to earth.

The only reason i would even think about doing this is because i really like this girl.

She's weird too in so many ways because she's 24 years old and she's never had a perm in her hair and she's never eaten pork before.

Im intrigued.

She's rarely been out of nyc so if we remain cool i want to take her to miami (so i can see her fine ass in a baithing suite).

And other placces (i got so many plans for her she's never going to know what hit her).

Tubby is getting ready to be a very naughty boy lol.

They'll be a lot that will be said about James Tubman after he's dead, but they wont say...

2010-10-29T01:48:00.002-04:00

I aint no pussy!

Brothers wish they had the stones to do what i did but they dont thats why they just wishin.

I came to new york with hardly any money and i hope that by the time i leave brooklyn to live somewhere else i'll leave a multi-millionaire.

I sell a colon cleanse i manufacture myself on fulton and elm st. in downtown brooklyn.

I get lots of sales and its only going tto get better.

I stand in their faces, by pass the people who are in good shape and aim straight for the fatties lol (im not laughing too hard because im beoming one myself).

too make a long story short the new promised land is new york city.

if you already live here do yourself a favor.

live in a small town then come back and you will see the opportunities that you didnt see before.

Some weird stuff hapened this week already!

2010-10-19T22:32:00.002-04:00

This has been a funny week.
First off this past sunday i went to a big natural healing expo (for hippies like me) where they displayed the latest technology and information about natural healing, psychic abilities, astrology you know right up my alley.
So i go there and a lot of very interesting things happened.
First off as soon as i hit the floor im immediately zapped by zero gravity (a woman had a 300.00 pen that zaps the different chakras in the body with zero gravity and this zero gravity is supposed to give a person or whatever is being zapped an overall feeling of well being.
Needless to say i didnt but the pen but i still felt better.
To make a long story short, i was in a lecture by the worlds most popular psychic (her name is janet something) and she told everybody to get a partner.
This beautiful slightly older woman was sitting in the next eisle.
She looked at right at me so i gave her an indication to come over.
She grabbed my hand and the assignment was to look in each others eyes for 2 straight minutes and say the first thing that came to mind.
We stared at each other and she said to me "i wish you would stop looking so sexy"
I was like uh okay lol (i hadnt been called that in a while so relished that moment).
But anyway after that incident i got her number.
She's in her 40's and im only 29 but if she down with occasional romp im down too!
She said she had a friend but she didnt hesitate to give me those digits.
Im like "you're over 40 i dont see a ring on your finger"
Then tonight i was thinking about this girl i wanted to sleep with since i first met her in manhattan last year and sure enough we damn near bumped right into each other (she wont let me get it easily but im going to try because she is definately worth it).
And all this has happened after i recently dumped the girl i was supposed to be marrying.
If im getting this much play already then i know it was meant to happen.
Hopefully ill have better stories in the future.
The moral is Dont Hold on to Somebody if you in your heart believe that you arent meant to be together.
Because something better could be just around the corner.

Now Im Talking to the Man Behind the Man!

2010-10-14T13:19:00.003-04:00

Anybody who's been reading this blog for a few years knows that i really look up to a brother by the name of Amos Wilson.

He was a black psychologist and he devoted a lot his time to helping black people solve their own problems.

He did a number of lectures in new york and all around the western hemisphere.

He wrote a number of books to display his theories with his monumental work being Blueprint for Black Power (i use the cover of his book as a photo to identify myself when i go to other sites)

Well now since im living in new york i thought it would be cool to try and contact the man that helped him get a lot of his works published.

That man's name is Sababu Plata (funny name but he's a great guy).

From 1989 till amos's death in 1995 they worked together to produce some of the greatest social thought in black american history.

Without Mr. Plata he would not have gotten Blueprint published.

When we finally liberate ourselves from White and Asian domination it will be to great extent a result of the work he and Dr. Amos did so his work has great significance.

I talked to him about my business and he gave me some encouraging words.

Im so glad i moved to new york and i know for a fact that i will make some serious moves here.

I want to employ a lot of brothers to sell my herbal products but many dont want to sell them.

But once i show them how successful they can be at selling them maybe they will change their mind.

This should be the goal of black leadership in this post industrial society.

Its great because when i ask mr. plata questions about dr. wilson he always give me some wise quote that he said and then the answer makes a little more sense.

Doint be afraid to call on the wisdom of old black people.

You'll be surprised at what they can teach you.

Would You Consider An Open Marriage?

2010-09-24T12:48:00.004-04:00

At one point i was a hopeless romantic.

I thought that two people should truly be soulmates to be in a marriage but boy my opinion of marriage has changed drastically in the past few years.

I'm a pisces so i am naturally romantic by nature, but i really dont think there is such a thing as a soulmate.

Like Chris Rock said, "nobody gets a soulmate. all you goin get in life, if you're lucky, is a mate."

Now i do believe that their could be a soulmate out there for you (i know i just contradicted myself but...) but i just dont want to spend all my time looking for one.

Im lazy and impatient.

I've been friends with a girl now from new york for almost a year.

We talk almost everyday.

We dont get along with each other much except when she wants to spend my money but im cool with her so i decided to go ahead and pop the question lol.

She accepted so hopefully we can get married some time soon.

What really made me want to get married is looking at my neighbors.

These two are siblings (brother and sister).

The woman is pushing 70 and her brother is in his mid 70's.

Neither one of them are married.

They live in different houses too.

They are pathetic, always fussing and cussing with each other, old miserable and lonely.

I dont want to be like that so I decided to marry the woman ive been friends with the longest (and the one I knew would accept the propsal).

I like this girl because she's easygoing like me, even though she'll get on your case if you mess up she's quick to forgive and... she doesnt mind having an open marriage.

I like the idea because i dont have to be under a lot of pressure to please her.

If i cant do it hopefully some other guy (or maybe some other girl) can.

And if i slip up she'll be ok with it (even though i'll never tell her unless i get caught in the act).

I dont want to be old, lonely and miserable so i guess you have to make some compromises down the line.

Do i wish it could be a monogamous relationship where we get along very well and we blend together well and we dont have to look for substitutes?

Sure!

Is it likely to happen... I dont know.

In this daya nd age you have to consider that most people are going to cheat on their spouse at one point in time in their life so why not go into the marriage anticipating and setting up a plan on what to do about it when it does happen.

Ive never cheated on any woman i was going steady with in my life.

I probably still wont do it now that its acceptable but i dont care if she does.

I just want a happy woman.

That's all.

I know she wont always be happy but i want her happy more than sad at least 75% of the time.

Thats selfish but what can you say.

So what do you say?

Would you have an open marriage or what.

I know im not the only freak up in here.

Back in Brooklyn Kid!

2010-09-20T13:10:00.002-04:00

I couldnt stay away from new york for long.

There will always be a special place in my heart for Harlem but i love, love LOVE Brooklyn.

All you see is black people downtown.

Not too many hispanics and whites.

Mainly Blacks!

Ive decided that im moving here for good.

Im staying in a hotel for now but eventually i want to get a house out here, or even rent a storefront and sell my herbal products that way and give lectures there.

Ive already gotten customers here so i see alot of potential.

This is the most confident ive ever felt about my future.

I cant beleive im actually starting to grow out of my Babyboy tendencies lol.

Maybe.

Been a long time

2010-06-28T13:09:00.002-04:00

Nothing really to report.

Herbal business is coming along.

Helping some of my family members with their health.

Been doing some landscaping work too.

I found out that i love growing flowers.

Ill post a picture of my work so you can see how beautiful my flowers are.

I never knew i had that side to me.

Still looking for somebody i can settle down with but i havent been trying as much as i should lately.

Its all good.

Helping my nephew to mature into manhood.

I think my addiction to alcohol is increasing because sometimes its hard go a day sometimes without drinking.

Im a mess but ill get better eventually.

All this snow is getting on my damn nerves!

2010-02-12T19:50:00.003-05:00

I might be in a time warp but i thought i lived in baltimore not wisconsin.

All this damn snow is making me heated!

In baltimore, maryland we've had the hardest snow storm we've had probably since the ice age.

I cant move in the house.

Im staying with my moms now.

Everything she says gets on my nerves.

I whipped my little nephews ass the other day for stealing some klondike bars the other day.

Im losing my freakin mind man, and its because of all this freakin snow.

This is why we need more blow torches in the black community.

I hate the color white.

I hate bleached white flour, white sugar, white snow and most of all white people lol.

Sidebar: There are too many cracker ass crackers moving into the hood trying to be cool with black people.

One came up to me today and said "whats up my brother?"

I wanted slap dog shit out his clammy white ass.

Im not like other "safe negros" out there.

Mutha fucker im like Brandy and Sarah jessica Parker I KNOW WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER MUTHA FUCKA!

And every other summer before that in this nation.

Do me a favor people.

This is black history so i want you to do some self discovery.

Go to the library (damn, whats that?) and look up this book called "the cartoon history of the united states" and see what these peckerwoods being doing to us since time immorial.

I like this book because its written like a big comic book.

You see the images of the horrible things they used to do to us and we all know images speak a thousand words.

People you need to study slavery from the white mans perspective to really get a feel for how eveil these people were (and a glimpse of the evil that others outside this country feel at this present time).

When the honorable Elijah Muhammad said that all white men were the devil, hewasnt jivin.

This is the stuff they pray you never find out.

How this guy made a billion dollars in 5 years.

2010-02-02T18:00:00.001-05:00

Whenever you seek to do something always listen to an expert.

How does the media present us?

2010-01-29T20:00:00.002-05:00

Black people have always been troublesome in the sense of how they should be projected on TV.

One thing i've learned pertaining to the images of blacks in america is that they aren't static.

Images of blacks change according to the needs this society has for them.

Lets start with slavery.

In slavery there was a need of this government to show blacks as "happy slaves" so that they wouldnt have any guilt in enslaving blacks.

So you saw flyers and advertisements with blacks smiling and enjoying their existence in slavery.

They horrible things that were done to slaves wasnt shown as much as these happy images.

And all of this was done to soothe white guilt for what they were doing to their fellow human beings.

When blacks were freed the government portrayed them in another light.

This white supremacist government didnt want to give blacks all of the rights and resources that were owed to them.

They couldnt take seeing large numbers of educated, business owning blacks because it opened up the possibilty that these people were actually equal to them so they portrayed blacks in the mainstream media as savages, incapable of adjusting to freedom and incapable of governing themselves.

This portrayal was created to justify the terrorization of blacks on so many levels in this country, because if they are savages incapable of controling their primitive nature then they have to be controlled and dominated by the ruling society right.

And these portrayal continued all through the early 1900's to around the mid to late 1960's.

Then the civil rights struggle hit and civil rights leaders started to plea to the broadcasters to show more "positive" images of blacks.

So the media started to portray blacks being integrated, living with and being friends with white people.

They did this to say to white america, "they are just like us" so that white america wouldnt be so hostile to their integration.

These images are still carried out today.

Even though there is still television programing that present us as savages and barbarians, the vast majority of media images show us in a "glowing light" that is, just like whites but only colored.

They have also depicted us as being just like them so that these sell out black people with inculcated white values could be considered normal while the vast majority of struggling blacks were considered abnormal and deviant.

Basically saying we shouldnt try to help other blacks who are continuously held back by the government.

Many of us dont even think we are held back because of the pervasiveness of the successful images on television.

We have been totally brainwashed and many people dont see it yet because they have never been taught how to analyze the media.

Im gonna start writing more posts about this issue.

Stay tuned.

Im never watching espn again!

2010-01-27T11:17:00.001-05:00

do yourself a favor and stop listening and viewing shows and people who insult you

Keep those affirmations in your back pocket.

2010-01-17T15:49:00.003-05:00

I've really been sticking to my plans lately because I keep positive affrimations in my back pocket to look at whenever i need a reminder of what my goals are in life.

Here are some affirmations I've jotted down for myself.

WHAT ARE YOU WILLING TO SACRIFICE IN ORDER TO BE SUCCESSFUL?

YOUR MAIN PROBLEM IS YOU WANT SOMETHING FOR NOTHING

GIVE A DEADLINE FOR EVERYTHING

ONLY FOCUS ON WHAT YOU WANT

IF YOU GIVE YOUR BODY THE PROPER NUTRITION YOU WONT HAVE ANY PROBLEMS AND YOU WILL REACH YOUR FULL POTENTIAL

YOU CANT SOLVE PROBLEMS BY USING THE SAME THINKING THAT CREATED THEM

If you want to change some unwanted aspect of your life you have to create and constantly review aspirations that inspire yout ot do just that.

John Gray said it takes the average person 200 times reviewing something before they actually get it.

What the heck are you doing looking at this post.

You have a lot of work to do.

Here's looking at you kid!

2010-01-12T13:26:00.002-05:00

Well, one of my resolutions this year is im not going to be scared to show my face on my own blog anymore.

I know im not the handsomest brother in the world but hey at least im a man, im single and I dont have any kids lol (even though i love children and wouldnt mind having some right now but thats not the point).

The point is in order for me to be successful in life i have to come out of my shell, stop acting like a pussy and learn how to appropriately deal with other people.

This is the real James Tubman love it or leave it, and expect more pictures and youtube recordings in the future.

Hope everybody's new year is going well so far.

Peace!

The History of Child Abuse Lloyd deMause The Journal of Psychohistory (abridged version)

2009-12-22T12:58:00.000-05:00

The History of Child Abuse Lloyd deMause The Journal of Psychohistory
The History of Child Abuse

Lloyd deMause
The Journal of Psychohistory V. 25, N. 3, Winter 1998

The following speech was given at the National Parenting Conference in Boulder, Colorado, on September 25, 1997.

It also appears in Sexual Addicitons & Compulsivity V 1 n1 1994

(posted with permission)

describes crimes of abuse

During the past three decades, I have spent much of my scholarly life examining primary sources such as diaries, autobiographies, doctor’s reports, ethnographic reports and other documents that document what it must have felt like to have been a child – yesterday and today, in the East and the West, in literate and preliterate cultures.

In several hundred studies published by myself and my associates in The Journal of Psychohistory, we have provided extensive evidence that the history of childhood has been a nightmare from which we have only recently begun to awaken. The further back in history one goes – and the further away from the West one gets – the more massive the neglect and cruelty one finds and the more likely children are to have been killed, rejected, beaten, terrorized and sexually abused by their caretakers.

Indeed, my conclusion from a lifetime of psychohistorical study of childhood and society is that the history of humanity is founded upon the abuse of children. Just as family therapists today find that child abuse often functions to hold families together as a way of solving their emotional problems, so, too, the routine assault of children has been society’s most effective way of maintaining its collective emotional homeostasis. Most historical families once practiced infanticide, erotic beating and incest. Most states sacrificed and mutilated their children to relieve the guilt of adults. Even today, we continue to arrange the daily killing, maiming, molestation and starvation of children through our social, military and economic activities. I would like to summarize here some of the evidence I have found as to why child abuse has been humanity’s most powerful and most successful ritual, why it has been the cause of war and social violence, and why the eradication of child abuse and neglect is the most important social task we face today.

THE CHILD AS POISON CONTAINER

The main psychological mechanism that operates in all child abuse involves using children as what I have termed poison containers – receptacles into which adults project disowned parts of their psyches, so they can control these feelings in another body without danger to themselves. In good parenting, the child uses the caretaker as a poison container, much as it earlier used the mother’s placenta as a poison container for cleansing its polluted blood. A good mother reacts with calming actions to the cries of a baby and helps it “detoxify” its dangerous emotions. But when an immature mother’s baby cries, she cannot stand the screaming, and strikes out at the child. As one battering mother put it, “I have never felt loved all my life. When the baby was born, I thought he would love me. When he cried, it meant he didn’t love me. So I hit him.” Rather than the child being able to use the parent to detoxify its fears and anger, the parent instead injects his or her bad feelings into the child and uses it to cleanse his or herself of depression and anger.

Consider a typical infanticidal, incestuous culture, the Bimin-Kuskusmin of New Guinea. As is so often true in pre-literate cultures, the mothers have long post-partum taboos against sex with their husbands, sleep naked against their children until they are about four years old, have orgasms while nursing them and regularly masturbate them. One three-year-old boy describes how whenever his mother was sad or angry she masturbated him so roughly that it hurt him, and he struggled to get away, complaining of a pain in his penis. “It hurts inside,” he told the ethnologist. “It goes Ôkoong, koong, koong’ inside. I think it bleeds in there I don’t like to touch it anymore. It hurts when I pee…” Sometimes, after his mother hurt him while masturbating him, he wounds himself in the thigh and abdomen with a sharp stick and draws blood, looking at his penis and saying, “Now it hurts here, outside, not in penis. Look, blood. Feels good…” Although he is only three years old, he understands quite well that he is being used as a poison container by his mother to relieve her depression. He says, “Mother twist penis, tight…Hurt inside…Mother angry, hurt Buuktiin’s penis. Mother sad, hurt Buuktiin’s penis…Mother not like Buuktiin’s penis, want to cut off…”

Maternal incest and pederasty by men are quite common in pre-literate groups and were common in earlier historical times. Boys in many New Guinea groups today, for instance, are so traumatized by the early erotic experiences, neglect and assaults on their bodies that they need to prove their masculinity when they grow up and become fierce warriors and cannibals, with a third of them dying in raids and wars. In fact, I have found that rather than the incest taboo being universal – as anthropologists claim – it is incest itself that has been universal for most children in most cultures in most times. A childhood more or less free from adult sexual use is in fact a very late historical achievement, limited to a few fortunate children in a few modern nations. To give you some idea of the extensive evidence I have gathered for such an unlikely conclusion, I would like to begin by summarizing the evidence which exists for the sexual abuse of children around the world today.

THE SEXUAL ABUSE OF CHILDREN TODAY

In America, the most accurate scientific studies, based on lengthy interviews, report that 30 percent of men and 40 percent of women remember having been sexually molested during childhood- – defining “molestation” as acctual genital contact, not just exposure. About half of these are directly incestuous, with the family members, the other half usually being with others, but with the complicity of caretakers in at least 80 percent of the cases. These experiences of seduction are not just pieced together from fragmentary memories, but are remembered in detail, are usually for an extended period of time and have been confirmed by follow-up reliability studies in 83 percent of the cases, so they are unlikely to have been fantasies. The seductions occurred at much earlier ages than had been previously assumed, with 81 percent occurring before puberty and an astonishing 42 percent under age 7.

As high as these molestation rates seem, however, they represent only a portion of the true rates, not only because those interviewed do not include populations that have been shown to have extremely high rates- – such as criminals, prostitutes, juveniles in shelters, psychotics, etc. – but also because only conscious memories were counted, and the earliest seductions of children are almost never remembered except during psychotherapy. Adjusting statistically for what is known about these additional factors, I have concluded that the real sexual abuse rate for America is 60 percent for girls and 45 percent for boys, about half of these directly incestuous.

Other Western nations have made fewer careful studies. A recent Canadian study by Gallup of 2,000 adults has produced incidence rates almost exactly the same as those found in the United States. Latin American family sexual activity – particularly widespread pederasty as part of macho sexuality – is considered even more widespread. In England, a recent BBC “ChildWatch” program asked its female listeners – a large though admittedly biased sample – if they remembered sexual molestation, and, of the 2,530 replies analyzed, 83 percent remembered someone touching their genitals, 62 percent recalling actual intercourse. In Germany, the Institut fur Kindheit has recently concluded a survey asking West Berlin schoolchildren about their sexual experiences, and 80 percent reported having been molested.

Outside the West, the sexual molestation of children is a routine practice in most families. Childhood in India begins, according to observers, with the child being regularly masturbated by the mother, the girl “to make her sleep well,” the boy “to make him manly.” The child sleeps in the family bed, witnesses and most likely takes part in sexual intercourse between the parents. The child is often “borrowed” to sleep with other members of the extended household, leading to the Indian proverb that “For a girl to be a virgin at ten years old, she must have neither brothers nor cousin nor father.” Childhood is so eroticized that, as one Western observer put it, “The little Hindu girls are deflowered by the little boys with whom they play, and repeat together the erotic lessons which their parents have unwittingly taught them on account of the general promiscuity of family life throughout India. In all the little girls of less than ten years of age the complete hymen is wanting…Incest is often the rule rather than the exception.”

Child marriage was, of course, a long-standing Indian practice. When laws were passed in 1929 trying to outlaw it, the government was overwhelmed by men insisting that early marriage was an absolute necessity, since little girls were naturally very sexual and must be married early if they are to be restrained from seducing adults. “Cupid overtakes the hearts of girls…at an early age,” they said. “A girl’s desire for sexual intercourse is eight times greater than that of males.” Indian mothers also often supported early marriage, frankly admitting it was necessary in order to protect their little girls against rape in the family, saying that “they were afraid to leave their daughters at home, even for one afternoon, without a mother’s eye and accessible to the men of the family.”

The Indian subcontinent, in fact, still has many groups, such as the Baiga, where actual incestuous marriage is practiced, between fathers and daughters, between mothers and sons, between siblings and even between grandparents and their grandchildren – thus disproving the oft-repeated anthropological truism that “no known tribe has ever permitted incest” because if it were allowed society would surely cease functioning. In many of these villages, the children move at the age of 5 or 6 from the incestuous activities of the family bed to spend the rest of their childhood in sex dormitories, where they are initiated by older youth and men into intercourse with a succession of other children, none for longer than three days at a time, under threat of gang rape.

Childhood in China has historically had the same institutionalized rape rituals as in India, including the pederasty of boys, child concubinage, the castration of boys to be used sexually as eunuchs, marriage of young girls to a number of brothers, widespread boy and girl prostitution and the regular sexual use of child servants and slaves. So prevalent was the rape of little girls that Western doctors found that, as in India, few girls entering puberty had intact hymens. Even the universal practice of foot binding was for sexual purposes, with a girl undergoing extremely painful crushing of the bones of her feet for years in order that men could make love to her big toe as a fetish, a penis-substitute.

Childhood in contemporary Japan, although somewhat more Western than that of other Eastern nations, still includes masturbation by mothers “to put them to sleep.” Parents often have intercourse with their children in bed with them, and “co-sleeping,” with parents physically embracing the child, often continues until the child is ten or fifteen. One recent Japanese study found daughters sleeping with their fathers over 20 percent of the time after age 16. Recent sex surveys report memories of sexual abuse even higher than comparable American studies, and “hot lines” of sexual abuse report mother-son incest in almost a third of the calls, the mother saying to her teenage son, “It’s not good to do it alone. Your IQ becomes lower. I will help you, ” or “You cannot study if you cannot have sex. You may use my body,” or “I don’t want you to get into trouble with a girl. Have sex with me instead.” Historically, Japan has been one of the most endogamous societies in the world, with incestuous marriages in court circles being approved even in historical times and preferred sibling, cousin, uncle-niece and aunt-nephew marriages having been so extensive that genetics experts have discovered that the incestuous inbreeding has affected the size and health of the Japanese. Even today, there are rural areas in Japan where fathers marry their daughters when the mother has died or is incapacitated, “in accordance with feudal family traditions.”

The sexual use of children in the Near East is as widespread as in the Far East. Historically, all the institutionalized forms of pedophilia which were customary in the Far East are documented extensively for the Near East, including child marriage, child concubinage, temple prostitution of both boys and girls, parent-child marriage (among the Zoroastrians), sibling marriage (quite common among Egyptians), sex slavery, ritualized pederasty and child prostitution. Masturbation in infancy is said to be necessary “to increase the size” of the penis, and older siblings are reported to play with the genitals of babies for hours at a time. Mutual masturbation, fellatio and anal intercourse are also said to be common among children, particularly with the older boys using younger children as sex objects. The nude public baths (hammam) are particularly eroticized in many areas, being especially notorious as a place of homosexual acts, both male and female.

Girls are used incestuously even more often than boys, since females are valued so little. One report found 80 percent of Near Eastern women surveyed recalled having been forced into fellatio between the ages of 3 and 6 by older brothers, cousins, uncles and teachers. The girls rarely complain, since “if there is any punishment to be meted out, it will always end up by being inflicted on her.” Arab women know that their spouses are pedophiles and prefer having sex with children to having sex with them. Their retribution comes as follows. When the girl is about 6 years old, the women of the house grab her, pull her thighs apart and cut off her clitoris and often also her labia with a razor, thus usually ending her ability to feel sexual pleasure forever. One Egyptian woman relates her memory of how it happened to her. After being used sexually by the men in her family during her early childhood, she says:

I was six years old that night when I lay in my bed, warm and peaceful…I felt something move under the blankets, something like a huge hand…another hand was clapped over my mouth to prevent me from screaming.

They carried me to the bathroom…I remember…a rasping metallic sound which reminded me of the butcher when he used to sharpen his knife…My blood was frozen in my veins…my thighs had been pulled wide apart…I felt that the rasping knife or blade was heading straight down towards my throat. Then suddenly the sharp metallic edge seemed to drop between my thighs and there cut off a piece of flesh from my body.

I screamed with pain despite the tight hand held over my mouth, for the pain was not just a pain, it was like a searing flame that went through my whole body. After a few moments, I saw a red pool of blood around my hips.

I did not know what they had cut off from my body, and did not try to find out. I just wept, and called out to my mother for help. But the worst shock of all was when I looked around and found her standing by my side. Yes, it was her, I could not be mistaken, in flesh and blood, right in the midst of these strangers, talking to them and smiling at them.

A recent survey of Egyptian girls and women showed 97 percent of uneducated families and 66 percent of educated families still practiced clitoridectomy. Nor is the practice decreasing – UN reports estimate that more than 74 million females have been mutilated, with “more female children mutilated today than throughout history.”

Clitoridectomy, like all sexual mutilations, is, I believe, an act of incest. If it is incest when a father rapes a daughter, it is also incest when parents assault their children by cutting off, sewing up, burning, flaying or gashing their genitals. In all these cases, the child is being used for the sadistic sexual pleasure of the parent. In fact, circumcision ceremonies are often followed by drinking parties that end in intercourse, so sexually arousing is the circumcision- – in some areas, the traveling circumcizer is actually accompanied by some prostitutes, who know how sexually excited villages become after the ceremony. Therefore, the practice of sexually mutilating children’s genitals- – one of the most widespread rituals in the world – by itself makes incest a near-universal trait.

THE EVOLUTION OF CHILDHOOD

Historically, the routine use of children as poison containers to prevent adults from feeling overwhelmed by their anxieties has also been universal. Examples from the history of childhood regularly reveal children are expected to “absorb” the bad feelings of their caretakers. As one peasant community in rural Greece puts it, you must have children around to put your bad feelings into, especially when the “Bad Hour” comes around. An informant describes the process as follows:

One of the ways for the Bad Hour to occur is when you get angry. When you’re angry a demon gets inside of you. Only if a pure individual passes by, like a child for instance, will the “bad” leave you, for it will fall on the unpolluted.

Newborn infants, in particular, were perfect poison containers because they were so “unpolluted.” The newborn then became so full of the parent’s projections that even if he or she is allowed to live (up to half the children in early societies were murdered at birth), the infant had to be tied up – tightly swaddled in bandages for up to a year or more- – to prevent it from “tearing its ears off, scratching its eyes out, breaking its legs, or touching its genitals,” i.e., to prevent it from acting out the violent and sexual projections of the parents.

Children were particularly useful as poison containers when adults felt anxious about recent or impending success. Success stirs up superego retaliation, and the sacrifice of children to appease the gods – that is, the punitive parents – was an extremely widespread guilt-reducing device. Most early states practiced child sacrifice. Typical was Carthage, where a large cemetery has been discovered called The Tophet filled with over 20,000 urns deposited there between 400 and 200 B.C. The urns contained bones of children sacrificed by their parents, who often would make a vow to kill their next child if the gods would grant them a favor – for instance, if their shipment of goods were to arrive safely in a foreign port. Some urns contain the bones of stillborn babies along with the bones of two-year-olds, indicating that if the promised child was not born alive, an older child had also to be killed to satisfy the promise. The sacrifice was accompanied by a music, wild dancing and riotous orgy, and was probably accompanied by the ritual rape of virgin girls, as it was with the Incans. Plutarch told how the priests would “cut their throats as if they were so many lambs or young birds; meanwhile the mother stood by without a tear or moan [while] the whole area before the statue was filled with a loud noise of flutes and drums…” Sacrifice, rape and genital mutilation of young girls continues to take place today in the Andean mountains, particularly to ward off the guilt coming after successful cocaine deliveries. These ceremonies, from antiquity to today, resemble closely the satanic rituals made familiar recently in the newspapers, using the infliction of rape, sexual mutilation and other horrors in order to visit upon child victims elements of the traumas of the satanists’ own childhood.

That child sacrifice was carried out mainly by the rich in each of these early societies confirms my theory that it is a guilt-reducing technique. Whenever new ventures were begun, children would be sacrificed. Whenever a new building or bridge was built, a child would be buried within it as a “foundation sacrifice.” Children still play at capturing a child and making it part of the bridge in “London Bridge’s Falling Down.” Children’s bodies were particularly useful in curing disease. Whatever one’s physical ills, a child could be used to “absorb” the poison that was responsible. When, for instance, one wanted to be cured of leprosy, one was supposed to kill a child and wash one’s body in its blood. When one wanted to find out if a house whose previous occupants had died of plague was still infected or not, one rented some children to live in it for several weeks to see if they died – rather like the use of canaries in mines to detect poisonous gas. When one was impotent, depressed or had venereal disease, doctors prescribed having intercourse with a child. As late as the end of the nineteenth century, men who were brought into Old Bailey for having raped young girls were let go because “they believed that they were curing themselves of venereal disease.” Raping virgins was particularly effective for impotence and depression; as one medical book put it, “Breaking a maiden’s seal is one of the best antidotes for one’s ills. Cudgeling her unceasingly, until she swoons away, is a might remedy for man’s depression. It cures all impotence.” And, of course, whenever a parent had a disease, they always had their children handy to absorb the poison. Thus British doctors in the nineteenth century regularly found when visiting men who had venereal disease that their children also had the same disease – on their mouths, anuses or genitals.

No matter what anxieties one had, one had children always at hand to use to relieve them. The evolution of childhood from incest to love and from abuse to empathy has been a slow, uneven path, but one whose progressive direction is, I think, unmistakable. This evolution of parent-child relations is, I contend, an independent source of historical change, lying in the ability of successive generations of parents to live through their own childhood traumas a second time and work through their anxieties in a slightly better manner this second time around. It is in this sense that I say that history is like psychotherapy, which also heals through revisiting one’s childhood traumas and reworking earlier anxieties. If the parent – the mother, for most of history – is given even the most minimal support by society, the evolution of childhood progresses, new variations in historical personality are formed, and history begins to move in new, innovative directions.

The crucial relationship in this evolution is the mother-daughter relationship. If little girls are treated particularly badly, they grow up to be mothers who cannot rework their traumas, and history is frozen. For instance, although China was ahead of the West in most ways during the pre-Christian era, it became “frozen” and fell far behind the West in evolutionary social and technological change after it adopted the practice of footbinding girls. Similarly, the cliterodectomy of girls in Moslem societies has inhibited their social development for centuries, since it likewise puts a brake on the ability of the next generation of mothers to make progress in caring for their children. Clearly, different groups have moved different distances up the ladder of psychological evolution, since some contemporary groups still practice brain-eating as our Paleolithic ancestors did, and different subgroups of our more advanced nations still terrorize and abuse their children in ways identical to those that were commonplace centuries ago, producing the “historical fossils” (early “psychoclasses”) we now call borderline personalities and other severe character disorders. Your neighbor is as likely to be a result of medieval parenting as of modern parenting, so modern societies contain a full range of childrearing modes and psychoclasses.

The “generational pressure” for psychological change is not only an independent historical force – originating in inborn adult-child striving for relationship – it occurs independent of social and technological change, and can be found even in periods of economic stagnation. My “psychogenic theory of history” posits that a society’s childrearing practices are not just one item in a list of cultural traits, but – because all other traits must be passeed down from generation to generation through the narrow funnel of childhood – instead makes childrearing the very basis for the transmission and development of all other cultural traits, placing definite limits on what can be achieved in the material spheres of history. The main source of childhood evolution is, I believe, the process I call psychogenesis, by which parents – mainly the mother for most of history – revisit a second time around the stages of childhood and undo to some extent the traumas they themselves endured. It is in this sense that history is like a psychotherapy of the generations, undoing trauma and giving historical personality a chance at a new start with every baby born. Only humans have brain networks that allow this miracle to take place. All cultural changes in the past 100,000 years of Homo sapiens sapiens are epigenetic, not genetic. Regardless of changes in the environment, it is only when changes in childhood occur that epigenetic changes in the brain can occur and societies can begin to progress and move in unpredictable new directions that are more adaptive. That more individuated and loving individuals are ultimately more adaptive is understandable – because they are less under the pressures of infantile traumas and are therefore more rational in reaching their goals. But that this childhood evolution – and therefore all social evolution – is terribly uneven is also understandable, given the varying conditions under which parents all over the world have to conduct their childrearing tasks.

If you had 24 hours to make 10,000 dollars how would you make it?

2009-12-15T15:13:00.003-05:00

I can think about a few ways i would make this money.

Unfortunately most of them require unscrupulous methods lol.

This is a good question to ask because if you cant do it in a day you might be able to do it in a months time.

It's all about creativity and persistence.

I would create a company and and create stock certificates right at the library for my business.

Give them all the reasons why they should invest in my company.

Tell them exactly how much they would make and get to 125th and start pushin that shit to the limit.

Now you would think that trying to push that idea to rich white people would give you a better chance of gettin' it.

I think that blacks would be more sympathetic to the cause and they would want to contribute because they see a young brother in a nice suit trying to do the right thing.

Might not work but i think i would get close because there is probably 100,000 people who walk through 125th everyday and i would be all up in their faces.

Anyway, how would you get it.

C'mon now, even if its nasty i want to hear it lol.

Guess What Tiger You Are Still A Nigger!

2009-12-12T15:13:00.002-05:00

This is the poster child for why a high profile black man should not have numerous sexual liasions with multiple amounts of white women.

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He's a disgrace to the black race he really is.

He is a prime example of how white images of beauty have so warped and twisted our minds.

Ladies and gentlemen white people enslaved us!

Killed over 100 million afrikans throughout the MAAFA.

White men have raped literally millions of african women.

White women lying on black men, saying they were raped by them, have caused 1000's of black men to be lynched in this country.

When you look at late 19th and early to mid 20th century media images of black people in movies, books and novels you would think that black men were obsessed with raping white women.

Why would any black man (or black woman for that matter) let these demonic people come anywhere near our naked bodies after all they have done to us and continue to do to us?

Granted many of us have been duped into thinking they are attractive but once you really start to read and learn about how they have treated us in this country historically i just dont understand how our people can sleep with them after that point.

Another thing, whenever a white person sleeps with a black person that white person is using them just like an adult who molests a child.

Now sounds like ive gone way to far doesnt it?

Let me explain.

White people know that we are the dumbest people in the universe because we still love them after they have done so much harm to us.

They know that if we were in our right minds we would try to retaliate against them for all of the misery and suffering they put our people through.

So when you see white men and women willingly sleeping with blacks they are playing on our ignorance of our history.

They are taking advantage of us.

I wont go too much more into that because its such a touchy topic but i am just amazed at how pervasive and acceptable interracial marriage is.

Tiger will recover from all of this.

By the way that dude has a voracious sex drive.

I mean wow, 9 TIMES IN ONE NIGHT!

My girl would be lucky if she got 9 minutes out of me lol.

Its really sad but in my opinion he was a dissapointment from the begining.

This fiasco in the news is so damaging to the collective of black men in this country.

Tiger was the Golden Boy.

He was the guy that was looked at as being different from the rest of us.

Now whites believe that no matter how rich and successful we are.

No matter how seemingly moral and good we are.

Our main goal in life is to have sex with as many of their women as possible.

This harks back to the the movie "The Birth of a Nation."

This movie portrayed blacks in a negative light to say the least.

It was about many things but it was mainly about a black man (really a white man in black face) chasing down a helpless white woman and having her eventually commit suicide so she escape being raped by this man.

At the end i think Ku Klux Klan lynched the man and this was the most popular movie in history at the time.

After this movie ran in theaters all over the country the amount of black men lynched sky roketed.

This movie basically reinforced the racist belief that all black men desire to rape white women and take them away from white men.

When you see the majority of our male entertainers marying white women and having all types of perverse sexual liasons with them in pornography and so forth this einforces those old archaic stereotypical beliefs.

We gotta get smart people.

Dr. Leonard Jeffries, a prominent African American historian, said that "history is your power."

If you know history no one can fool you.

Tiger obviously doesnt know anything about his history unless he's a traitor to his race and we have many of those in our race too unfortunately.

This scandal is going to enliven the racists in this society even more then they are now.

I cant believe he didnt sleep with one black woman.

This is harmful in so many ways.

Formulating the plan of action that will lead to success

2009-11-27T12:48:00.002-05:00

I know that i am a scatter brain but i dont want to feel like im wasting my time.

I know how to promote a business and i think i should spend time promoting my own instead of promoting somebody else's.

If it doesnt work fine ill go back to old jobs that I had but i think my dream is worth a chance.

When i go back to New York after this research study im doing i am going to pass out flyers for my goods and services on 125th st. just like i used to when i was in union square working for twinkle toes.

Im still young and while you are young you can pursue any type of fantasy you want.

This can be a reality if i want it bad enough.

I think the 3 main traits you have to have when selling anything is, you have to have a passion for what you are selling, you have to constantly keep in touch with the client and you have to give them a solution to whatever problem they have.

You dont have to be nice.

You dont have to be easy to get along with.

The mainthing you have to do is solve their problem.

I have access to knowledge that will definately solve their health problems if they do what the manuals and videos say.

I am bringing a gift to these people's lives by promoting and selling vital information that will release them from the burgeoning clutches of the pharmaceutical and so called "health care" industry.

I was at my family reunion yesterday and it was announced that my uncle died in his early 50's like 2 oclock in the morning on thanksgiving morning.

He had heart surgery like 3 weeks ago and didnt tell anybody.

He died on his job working late at night.

Let me tell you something I AINT GOING OUT LIKE THAT!

If you hear about me dying it's going to be because i got stabbed, shot or ran over by a mack truck.

It damn sure wont be because i died of a disease or illness.

I am not going to let these malevolent, blood sucking, merciless vultures pimp me out with their drugs and surgery.

They are not going to get me or my youngin's and hopefully some New Yorkians will be smart enough to buy the material so they wont get got themselves.

We shall see.

Back in B-More for the Holidays

2009-11-21T11:26:00.002-05:00

New York is cool and im going back to live there but im taking some time to be with my family and make some real money this holliday season.

I had to take a time out because things were starting to get way too stressful for me.

The people at the shelter i was in started acting crazy and i knew i had to get out there.

I was working everyday of the week not really making much and i was forced to learn a whole lot in a short period of time.

If i wasnt in a shelter where i had to put up with a whole bunch of ignorant staff members it wouldnt be so bad.

If you can, in your own life, if things are getting way too stressful for you take a time out.

Give your mother or some other responsible adult in your life the kids for a few weeks (with money to take care of them of course).

Ask your job for time off.

If they dont let you take off, QUIT!

Your peace of mind is important.

You have to trust in your ability to succeed.

See the main way i have succeeded in life is when my back was up against the wall.

Im from the inner city slums of Baltimore.

Most of the people who live there are racked with many mental, physical and psychological problems.

It is an excuse but it is a legitamate one.

However you have to overcome your problems.

If you dont then you are useless and you will eventually be a burden to others around you.

The goal is to move yourself from a state of dependency to independency.

Then to move yourself from a state of independency to interdependency (says the guy in the book The Seven Habits of Highlt Effective People).

My boss Mr. Twinkle Toes was giving me a fit there.

He would take out money from my check when i made a mistake but im still training.

Where's the learning curve mutha fucka?!

Ive changed a lot about myself to acclimate myself appropriately to this job and i just couldnt do it at the time with all of the other stresses on me.

So i left and didnt give them any indication of where i was going (thats fucked up aint it lol).

Im not stressed because i know i can get the job back.

One of the guys i met in the shelter Vashti is an Indian Punjabi crackhead lol.

He's the guy that hooked me up with the job actually.

So instead of waiting every week to get paid he would keep going to the boss to get money everyday so he could smoke his crack.

They keep letting the Punjabi crackhead so i know they arent going to say anything to me (at least i hope not lol).

I dont know?

I'll eventually figure out along the way.

What i want to do is become a master herbalist, a massage therapist and a bikram yoga instructor.

You learn the herbology to know what herbs to give to the patient, being a massage therapists you can workout the bones, muscles tendons and ligaments and cure them that way, and if you become an yoga instructor you can teach them moves to increase their circulation to cure them that way.

By the time i hit 30 i am going to be a mutha shut ya mouth.

Trying to learn lifes most important lessons on my own

2009-11-10T04:58:00.002-05:00

Its been real hard these last 2 weeks

Ive had many challenges to face and are still facing them

My boss has given me more responsibilities on my job and he has taken me under his wing so to speak

Its hard work but i do believe its worth the fight

Ive changed in so many ways since ive came to new york

I've made many friends and enemies since ive been here

Ive put up with a lot of hardship and struggle since ive been here too.

It's truly been a roller coaster ride.

One thing i do notice about new york is if you have a good idea and stick with it to the end you can make it.

This is what i am trying to do at this yoga place.

There are about 6 guys who work there and i am the only black guy of course and also i think one of the only straight guys there (pablo the maintenance man might be the lone exception).

That's good because i flirt with all of the girls and they have to like it because they get some male attention there.

I may be ugly but hey, if you are the only option, what can you say lol

The owner of the place is an equadorian who used to play in broadway musicals (do i have to tell you what his sexual preference is).

He's gets on me a lot (he gets on everybody really) but he has to run a business so i understand.

He toldme straight up that i had to do something with my hair because i look wild with my big nappy frow, long sideburns and nappy goatee.

I wouldnt have even thought about considering that if he didnt offer to pay for it.

I have braids now and now hopefully i look a little more "approachable" as he puts it.

Im learning alot about how to run a business through this work.

It takes discipline, being honest, and lots of patience.

Hopefully i can grow from this experience and finally put myself on the straight and narrow path to success.

Moving on up in the game

2009-11-04T06:33:00.004-05:00

I like new york

especially manhattan

my yoga is getting better after a few more classes and i can see more clearer the goal of becoming a yoga teacher within the next 6 months

the teachers there are cool and they all want me to take their class

its crackers who teach the courses of course with one indian girl

i wish there were some sisters up in there teaching it (even though some sisters do the yoga there surprisingly)

already ive seen a difference in my overall health and vitality since ive been doing bikram yoga

in class you stretch almost every muscle in your body so when you come out of class you are completely open and flexable

it can even help to cure you of diseases by itself because of its healing functions

you should try it where you are

there is a studio in harlem taught by blacks so i might see if i can work there when i get my certification

where i pass out flyers in union square i see celebrities all the time

i've actually hugged terrell owens and told him "dont let the media get you down, man"

i hope he appreciated that

i saw greg anthony (former basketball player from espn), saw a guy from mtv, one of the policeman from the wire

its been quite an experience here so far and we still have a lot more to go

You never know what you're gonna get

2009-10-23T11:11:00.002-04:00

I think I might have decided what i want to do in life

Besides being an herbalist i think i have in mind a profesion that i never thought i would be interested in.

Now i want to be a yoga instructor

Sounds crazy right for a brother to be talking like this but i might have finally found my calling

Right now im working for a yoga place passing out flyers for them

The job doesnt pay that much and i spend all day hounding people to take yoga classes but the second hand rewards are priceless.

I actually took a bikram yoga class yesterday.

Me!

The dude from the inner city, crime ridden, drug infested slums of baltimore took a hot yoga class with a whole bunch of yuppies yesterday.

Sounds crazy but i actually like the class.

It challenged me in ways that i have never been challenged before though.

It's intense because in a bikram yoga class the temperature is 105 degrees and you have to do movements for 90 minutes straight.

And you have to do strenuous stretching techniques that close off circulation to certain areas of the body, but when you relax those muscles the highly oxygenated blood pumps back into those veins, capillaries and arteries clearing out toxins and impurities.

It's intense, but i LOVED the challenge.

That was the first time i ever did yoga of any type but it wont be the last.

In about 6 months i can see myself working my way up getting a certification in brikham yoga and teaching classes to make a living.

In addition i will get additional certifications in herbology and that way ill be able to heal the body from a multi-faceted level.

When i get the certification i wanty yall to come up here and take the class for free.

Sunshine, when are you due?

We Live In Brooklyn Now Baby!

2009-10-06T10:21:00.002-04:00

Thats right kid.

We live in the brooklyn zoo now baby.

Birthplace of Michael Jordan, Mike Tyson, Jay - Z, Biggie, and a whole host of celebrities and entertainers.

Things are going well.

Im finally doing something i love to do and getting paid for it (not much but that will be changing soon).

I work for a charity group that raises money for victims of homelessness.

I love it because i stand in the middle of manhattan everyday talking about just how bad homeless people are being treated by this wicked government.

And even though the vast majority of New Yorkians ignore the hell out of me, some atually contribute to our organization and show just how powerful the human spirit is.

Im out there 4 to 8 hours a day waxing on about how thousands of people are becoming homeless everyday.

It's like therapy actually.

I get my frustrations off of my back and in return educate the public about conditions that could affect their lives because none of us are immune to loosing our job or place.

Often i get crouds of people hovering around me just so they have can hear the sobering truthful words that i speak.

I have to admit im having a lot of fun.

Yesterday i stoped a guy who was trying to steal this woman's bookbag (that was fun).

I really dont know why he would try to do that because he was very fat and slow (i guess he thought nobody would chase him down).

Im getting my plan together and with the little bit im making i should be into my own place soon.

I should have thought about doing this a long time ago.

Ill keep in touch.

2009-09-16T10:38:00.003-04:00

New York is full of so many choices

There are a million ways to make a living here.

And with all the people here its very easy to make money.

All you need is a good idea, a good plan the will to pull it off and the capacity to stick with it even when the going gets tough.

All of us have to find multiple ways of making money in this new economy that are outside of the rhelm of employment.

The problem is i dont like to work lol.

I think its degrading to work all day on a job you hate just to support your creditiors (landlord, banks, gas and electric etc.)

FUCK THE RAT RACE is my philosophy!

Im not a rat so i shouldnt even be in this race to begin with.

I've read many books on how to attain wealth and i have the skills and the mind to be wealthy.

But accumuating money is not the main goal.

The main goal (for me at least) is to "bring the white man's rule of the earth to an end!"

Every problem we have in our community is because of their currupt and vindictive and brutal oppresion.

It might be hidden behind a black face (and this is why so many of us are confused) but ultimately it is the white man that is pulling the strings.

For as long as we have been in this country we have always been systematically targeted and terrorized by the white ruling elite.

The White man only has one goal for all Afrikan people; KEEP THOSE NIGGERS FROM ACCUMULATING ANY WEALTH AND REALZING THAT WE ARE MAKING THEM SUFFeR EVERY SINGLE DAY AND IN EVERY SINGLE WAY.

I am sick and tired of pussy footing around, acting as if everything is peech keen while our people are destroyed every single day.

Over a million men are locked up and over 2 milliona are processed through the criminal justice system every year.

The ruling elite is taking every single dollar they can from the treasury, bankrupting this nation, while the middle, working class and poor are left with the burden.

Why are we not marching downtown to their towering buildings and ripping them to shreds taking our money back from these theives that stole it in the first place?

Dag, where did that come from lol.

I have to go.

New York is definately different!

2009-09-12T14:35:00.002-04:00

This city is so fast pace.

Everybody is always rushing to go nowhere.

I have never seen so many people in one area in my whole entire life.

I have to admit it i love it though.

Nobody cares and i do love it.

People dont say hello.

Everybody's always in a rush.

Most New Yorkians are real assholes but i dont care.

I love it!

Im at a shelter now trying to figure out how im going to make a living.

You say "damn a shelter" but you would be surprised to find out who's in one.

There is a guy with a PHD here.

There are many people who have college degrees here.

They were professionals for many years and just got fired on a whim and wound up here.

These are really trying times for some unfortunately.

I dont have that many minutes left on the internet here.

Ill let you know some of the things ive been doing here next time.

moving to the big apple

2009-08-24T11:52:00.002-04:00

i decided that i need a change of scenery so i am moving to the big apple.

dont even have a place to lay my head at but ill find some way through the thick and then with the little resources that i have.

see you all on the flip side.

Top 10 R&B Albums Right Off The Dome

2009-08-06T10:51:00.003-04:00

10) Jagged Edge - J. E. Heartbreak

9) Groove Theory - Groove Thory

8) Whispers - Greatest Hits

7) Luther Vandross - Busy Body

6) Pm Dawn - Of the Heart, Of the Soul and of the Cross

5) Maxwell - Urban Suite

4) Marvin Gaye - What's Going On/Midnight Love/ Let's Get it On

3) Stevie Wonder - Fulfillingness First Finale

2) Sade - Love is Stronger Than Pride/ Best of Sade

1) Intro - Love Thang (you just have to listen to it, especially the second side)

I want to see your list ( so i can steal some ideas).

No matter how much you try you will never escape the madness of your reality

2009-07-28T15:11:00.003-04:00

This brings up another life lesson that blacks need to understand.

Yesterday Stephon Marbury was on his 24 hour internet show he has in his house.

He ranted on for a long time about God knows what.

He put his finger in some vaseline and ate it.

Then he just started crying for a few minutes all of a sudden.

When i heard about his tirade i really felt sorry for the guy.

Then i realized why he acted the way he did and i still felt saoory for him even more.

Marbury used to be one of the best ball players in the league.

He was easily in the top 20 every year in scoring.

His career started to drop slowly and last year he hardly scored two points a game in the playoffs.

Obviously he was feeling a lot of pressure (and the drugs (probably e-pills) didnt help much either).

The lessons i got from this tirade was that money obviously doesnt buy happiness and you need to have a goals you are always striving for.

Rich people get rich and just stop striving for anything because they feel that having lots of money should sufficient.

It's not.

You ever heard the saying that "an idle mind is a devils workshop?"

This is what happens when you dont have over arching long term goals that you are struggling mightily tp achieve.

The mind will turn against itself without a clear purpose.

This happened with Rick James.

This man made so much money in the 80's that he didnt have to make any more money for the rest of his life.

He didnt have any goals so he just said "let's party" and smoked his brain out with drugs and crack.

He died young because his body couldnt handle the constant abuse.

You need long term hard to reach goals or you are going to kill youself.

It's just as simple as that.

Guess What Gates, You Still A Nigga!

2009-07-22T15:30:00.002-04:00

The Honorable professor of Afrikan Studies at the esteemed college Harvard University ran into some rough business with a policeman in Cambridge the other day.

He was coming home from China when he inserted his key into the hole and found out he couldnt get it unlocked (he later said that his key had a tendency to jam).

So he went around the back to see if he could get in that way and when he was trying to find an alternative way to get into his place one of his neighbors (who were probably white because he lives in a predominantely white neighborhood) called the cops because they didnt know who he was.

So the white police officer comes to his house after he broke in and asked him to show him ID stating that he was who he said he was.

Gates shows the guy his Masaachusets drivers liscence and his Harvard University ID.

The police officer isnt satisfied so he goes outside and calls Harvard (because Gates could be a con artist).

Gates gets upset and starts saying things like "why are you doing this? is it because im a black man in america?"

LOL!

No its because you a NIGGA!

Anyway, Gates gets so irate that he fusses and fusses until the police officer locks him up and calls it a day.

See Gates thought that he was exceptional because he was a Harvard professor.

He thought that he could get away with slick talking the police (like middle and upper class whites do all the time) and still get away with it.

He was wrong.

I remember seeing a documentary by Gates on the poor and the middle to upper class Blacks and how these 2 classes are so different from one another.

On a certain scene where a black man from the inner city was talking about the plights that he went through in his inner ciity community, Gates said, "this guy seems like an alien to me."

implying that he was nothing like that guy.

Well the white officer treated him as if he was that kind of a guy that night.

And then on another scene of the same documentary Gates says he heas more in common with his white colleagues than with black men in the inner city.

The police officer saw you and the brothers in the inner city as one and the same.

So when are we going to wake up?

No matter whether you slumming in the hood, or living it up in your condo.

Shoping at the local swap meet, or patronizing some high priced italian designer in Palm Beach.

You can be driving a 2009 380 Mercedes Benz or diving a 1981 Hatchback,

YOU STILL A NIGGA, NIGGA!

And eventually you will run into the right cracker who will bring that super inflated ego down to reality.

Peace!

The Last Samurai and the Power of Symbolic Thought

2009-07-12T20:53:00.003-04:00

This was a very emotional movie.

I experienced so many different feelings throughout my viewing that i was almost exhasted after it was over.

The movie was about a fictional character named nathan algren who went all around the world helping the united states military invade and conquer different societies (indian nations, asian nations etc.)

In the begining they showed flashbacks of when he and other soldiers shot innocent men, women and children unmercilessly in the back to clear the land for white corporate interest.

I lost it after i saw that emotionally because i couldnt help but think about how our ancestors in afrika were ruthlessly killed by these europeans.

They didnt stand a chance.

The european already had a lot of training conquering different indigenous territories and he knew that wouldnt be able to outlast the military strategy and advanced weaponry that the european had in store for them.

They murdered countless hundreds and thousands of victims slaughtering them as if they were animals.

Cecil Rhodes (a belgian debtor) with his army for the belgian government took over the territory of what is now zambia and zimbabwe.

There were about 30 million people in this area when he got there.

Only a few years later there were only 10 million natives left (and this history is well documented and solid).

Not to mention the wholesale enslavement of our people by the millions.

Never ever ever ever forget the murder and death our people encountered at the hands of these people.

It's time to get your weight up people!

2009-07-10T15:10:00.003-04:00

Time's a wasting (with me at least).

We have to start doing the right things in our lives so we can move on to the next level of our development.

I'm 28 years old and i am still struggling from day to day with my finances because im too lazy and complacent to go out there and take the world by the horns and get what i want out of life like i know i can do.

Im tired of being a fuck up.

Im tired of being the black sheep of the family.

I'm tired of being an underachiever.

Im going to get myself together this year.

Im going to achieve a lot this year, i know it.

I am going to make these last 5 months the best 5 month span i ever had.

I am going to take more risks and come out of my shell more and live a little bit more for the rest of the year.

I am going to change my life for the better.

You'll see.

Homosexuality: Genetic or Cultural

2009-07-02T18:11:00.003-04:00

There are a lot of homosexuals out here and it seems like more of them are croping up everyday.

I dont have any problems with these people but i dont buy the notion that some of us are born like this.

Many of us were made like this by the culture we grew up in.

I think homosexual acts (especially between men) are disgusting.

But i am interested in learning how these people came to engage in the type of behaviors they engage in with the same sex.

I'm a student of human nature so i cant help it.

One of the sources of information i recommend for people who want to study the nature of homosexuality is Patricia Newton in her lecture "Early Sexual Trauma."

Another good source is Francis Cress Welsing.

Let's talk about why some poeple take on this way of life.

One theory is that many men who were abused sexualy by other men when they were young (before 12) will grow up to become homosexual or bi-sexual (a study was done on this issue by health professionals at the former hosptial Providence in Baltimore in the 1980's) .

Strangely enough for the guys who were molested after 12 it was a different story.

For those who were molested after 12, they somehow stayed straight, but many of them grew up to hate women because they never forgave their mother for allowing this horrible event to take place (they erroneously blame their mother).

Francis Cress Welsing suggests that some men are gay because they are trying to compensate for the male affection they lacked as a child.

Many men grew up without fathers or didnt have strong role models who were there all the time to give us the manly love that we need in order to grow properly.

Men know what im talking about.

I rememebr when i was a child.

Sometimes i wanted a hug from my father, and he gave me one.

Maybe boys need this kind of affection from influential men in their life or they wont grow properly.

So with the gay guys out here, engaging in the sexual activities they engage in may be a way to make up for not getting their hand held by a strong male figure (such as their father) when they were walking down the street.

Or for not getting the hugs, the kisses, the rubs of the head and so forth that they lacked at a young tender age of development.

Im not saying all brothers who didnt have this growing up will be gay.

All Cress Welsing is saying (im not saying anything) is that this might be the case with the very few ones who decided to go down this route.

Another reason could be because they make a profit from that kind of behavior.

In baltimore there are a lot of male whores, and many of them catch the bus and congregate with the regular population.

I was sittin gon a bus stop on north ave. in baltimore and some of these people came inside the bus stop to sit down too (i guess they were tired after all their ho-ing lol).

So i was curious about how much they made so i asked the guy that was in there "excuse me, how much do you typically make during the week."

This dude (who obviously looked like a man) told me that he made anywhere from 700 to 1000 dollars a week (sometimes even more).

I was flabbergasted.

This dude did not look like a woman at all probably one of the ugliest drag queens i have ever seen.

He could have been lying though.

The point im trying to make here is that many males get a profit from having sex with other men.

This goes on all the time in baltimore.

We have to give our brothers other options other than having sex with other men in order to make a decent living.

This was a subject that was on my mind and i wanted to discuss it with you.

Hope i didnt gross too many people out lol.

What do you think?

Build up your knowledge base and they can never fool you.

2009-06-24T20:56:00.006-04:00

Knowledge will enable you to see the games that are run on you all throughout your life.

You can see them coming a mile away if you study ahead of time what you are dealing with.

You can beat anybody, it doesnt matter how big or how smart they are, if only you first study them and make appropriate preparations.

Since a young child i always knew the value of knowledge.

I still do but of course its not going to mean anything if you dont apply to whatever goals you have in life.

I was in my first year of college and i was in a history class.

At the time my history teacher was talking about the scramble for afrika (when most western european countries met together back in the late 1890's to decide who would get what country in afrika after they conquered that territory).

He showed a documentary about the time where the european nations were giving their rationalizations for the takeover.

Rudyard Kipling in his book said it was the "White Man's Burden" to civilize the savage afrikans because without them to make us into full fledged human beings we would seep more and more into chaos.

Then they went on to talk about many of the reasons we are supposedly genetically inferior to them.

I was heated.

What made it worse was that i was in a room full of white people (because i went to a predominatly white school).

I felt like i was being stripped of my dignity because i couldnt think of a single event in history prior to our contact with europeans that would negate all of these harsh statements.

I hollered during this lesson,"i aint inferior to NOBODY."

I know i startled a lot of people but i just couldnt take it anymore.

I didnt return that next semester because i knew i had to dig in our past to find some information that would prove all of these suckers wrong (and boy did i find it).

I started reading books about my history that fired up my intellect.

My appetite for the great aspects for our history was insatiable and i was amazed at what i found out about our people.

Suffice it say that that event completely changed my life (and i wouldnt take it back for all the tea in china).

Be curious people.

Never stop learning and never stop growing.

Read this book too up top.

Its a good place to start f you want to get some significant information about our history as a people.

I hope you have a great journey of self discovery.

I know i did.

The Black Middle Class Doesnt Care About Their Less Fortunate Brothers and Sisters

2009-06-09T16:36:00.003-04:00

There are a lot of black fakers all over this country (the states) and they are the ones who make it seem as if they are really thinking in the best interest of the people.

Many black people who have a little money and status and who act as if they really want to help their people really arent qualified to lead anybody.

Since the 1950's the Black leadership's thrust has been to appeal to the politicians to solve our problems for us as oppose to finding ways to solve our own problems.

They look to others to do what we can easily do for ourselves (and many of them arent even conscious of it).

Other ethnic groups (including afrikans from the continent) come here and clean up in the states making more money than most black businesses in the inner city.

And they do it because they understand just how good we already have it here.

If you know how to get your hands on a little money you can do pretty well in this country (even in this recession).

But you have to think for yourself.

And another thing.

These black people act as if they care but they keep themselves in gangs and it doesnt matter how much sense another black person makes, if they dont like them for some stupid reason they wot even listen to him.

The ones with a little power reject the ones who can give our people the leadership they so desperately need because of a superficial reason.

Most black people think that the best way to get back at somebody is to completely ignore them.

That may be true, but you may be ignoring someone who can get us to where we need to be at.

They ignore good knowledge and leadership when they see it because they are jealous that someone could be smarter than them or more able to lead than them.

The most intelligent person should always lead no matter whether you like them or not.

We'll revisit this issue one day but in the near future the real leadership of the Afrikan race will rise up and weed these hypocrites from our midst.

You'll see.

What would you do illegally if you knew nothing could happen to you?

2009-05-31T16:29:00.003-04:00

That may be a messed up question but this is the way im feeling right now.

I just felt like posting this question because somebody got me so upset that i actually contemplating seriously hurting someone.

I calmed down after a few minutes but if i had a gun, and i knew nothing would happen if i did something lol (i guess that's nothing to laugh about).

I sound like a cereal killer.

That's freaky.

Im the kind of person that represses a lot.

If something bothers me i dont think its right to burden people with my attitude.

So i often suffer in silence.

But the good thing is im learning how to deal with my anger so it doesnt matter how mad i might get i calm down after a minute.

But im also the kind of person that can get as mad as i got about the issue before, no matter how long the incident was ago.

I still think about little things from my childhood that piss me off sometimes.

I dont know that's just dumb.

But anyway, im curious to know what would YOU do if you knew you could get away with it?

Sometimes i wish iwas invisible and my body didnt leave any finger prints so i could go around town robbing banks lol.

I really need some mental help.

Malcolm x: the man, the myth and the race traitor

2009-05-27T19:11:00.003-04:00

Provocative title isnt it.

I love malcolm x because he truly made white supremacy simple to understand.

I mean if you look at his youtube videos you will see that he explained an intricate social system so simply that a child could understand it.

He was fearless in his delivery and he didnt hesitate to tell the truth regardless of where it landed him.

He connected not only with national black leaders but with international afrikan leaders (particularly when he took a tour of major afrikan nations).

He had an international message that was directed at creating a pan afrikan political social economic system.

He rose from crime (drug dealing, stealing, burglarizing houses, drinking and druging) went to jail, learned the wisdom of the nation of islam through the teachings of the honorable elijah muhammad, and he turned his life around and a few years out of prison was lecturing at places like harvard, yale and oxford.

He was completely commited to the struggle.

Never cheated on his wife, never picked up drugs or alcohol after he heard muhammad teachings.

So with all these accolaids underneath his belt, why would i ever stoop so low in calling him a race traitor?

Because i believe he let his ego get too out of hand.

See malcolm x was a taurus.

And if there is one thing about a taurus i know is that they love love love attention (almost as much as a leo).

Another thing i know is if you cross them thats your ass.

They will get you back even if it requires hurting you, many close people around them and themselves.

He found out that a man who he thought of as a father, the honorable elijah muhamad, was sleeping with all of these different women, having children by them and not taking care of them so he told the news media of this man's improprieties, damaging the image of the nation to the world.

I call him a race traitor because he didnt care about the fact that this man basically took care of him from the moment he left the prison.

If it wasnt for muhammad, x would have never found knowledge of self and found out who the enemy was.

He wouldnt have met his wife and had his four kids.

He would have never been lecturing at harvard and yale.

The only reason you had a second chance at life is because this man took you under his wing and you basically spit in his face.

Im not saying muhammad wasnt wrong for siring children that he wasnt taking care of but x didnt look at the bigger picture.

Muhammad was providing employment for thousands of black men and women.

He was turning thousands of mens lives around who were in prison and making them whole again.

Because of this mans influence black people were starting to wake up and break themselves from the destructive forces of white supremacy.

And malcolm didnt think about all of these things before he put muhammads dirty laundry out.

People say the men who killed malcolm were in the fbi, the new york police or whatever.

>Maybe but if i was in that organization and this dude discredited my leader i would have wanted to killl him too.

X's life is a reminder to me that you have to fully consider the ramifications of your actions.

Now he tried to appoligize to muhammad right before he got killed, but the fbi and police infiltraitors in the group prevented the appology letters from getting to muhammad.

We have to analyze malcolm x's life and get the meat of the lessons the shining star taught us.

Porn completely kills any chance of you having a normal relationship

2009-05-15T19:34:00.003-04:00

Porn hurts you in the long run

It's really bad for you for a number of reasons

I saw this canadian documenatry the other day that blew me away called "not a love story."

I never knew how damaging the images of porn are not only to women but to men as well.

Men who consume massive amounts of hardcore porn have so many problems in the bedroom.

Some arent able to climax without ejaculating on a woman's face or in her mouth.

Some men keep going deeper and deeper into the hardcore bin until they want to see women tortured and hurt (like in these snuff movies that are out).

Some men only think of women as sexual objects and cant possibly see women as full fledged human beings.

The massive influx of porn has also been used for political reasons from its inception.

Under Hitler Germany, before they invaded Poland they flooded the country with pornography because it bifurcated the population from each other.

What do i mean?

While the polish men were in their rooms, getting their thing off, they wernt prepared for the invasion that was about to happen.

It seperates the population from each other so they wont stand up and unite themselves against their enemies (this is the main reason why hardcore porn has run amuck in the states).

This stuff is killing people.

It is literally turning unsuspecting, innocent men and children into satanic monsters everyday.

It is killing the humanity of men everyday.

And since women follow anything a man says follow to please the man, they often emulate the self degrading activities that are so pervasive in porn.

Many of these acts are degrading, perverse and down right disgusting.

I think most men who buy and consume porn have been emasculated by this society and of course in porn women are completely subordinate to men.

So they can act out their secret fantasies of dominating women whenever they consume these images.

Its a mess.

What are we going to do to turn this society around?

Everything about this society is so dehumanizing.

It totally strips us of any endearing human qualities.

From the violence that is pervasive on televison and in movies.

To the dangerous images that are ubiquitous in music videos and porn.

We really need to collectively appologive to our children for all that we've done to them.

We have robbed them of their innocence before they are even born.

We need to ask ourselves, "what kind of human being am i really?"

Nobody gives a shit about a black man and it is enough to make you cry

2009-05-06T23:21:00.003-04:00

Black men in the states and black men im sure all over the world have it bad because everybody wishes they could be us and they are jealous of our natural God given talents.

We have in the united states a prison system that is designed to incarcerate the fuck out of black males for petty petty petty bullshit (im sorry about the profanity).

I just found out that there are about 1.5 million black men who are being processed through the criminal justice every single year.

And you know what i just found out, roughly half of the black men are being processed not for assult charges, not for rape, not for murder or robbery or any other big time crime.

Get this shit right here.

They are being processed detained and given sentences, having their right systematically taken away (and their jobs taken away) because of petty majijuana possessions.

You get that.

1.5 million black men are processed through the jails of this country every year and half 750,000 black men are detained in jail (the worst place in the world) for marijuana possesions.

And yet people actually think this is the greatest country on earth.

Not for a black man it isnt

About 60% or more of all black men living grew up without their fathers living with them.

We are most likely to be profiled (have a car puled over for routine checks by the police).

All whites and others are scared of us.

If they see 3 black men walking down the street, they could have suits on and people will still be scared.

In the media we are constantly portrayed as thugs and criminals.

The first story on the 6oclock news almost every night is a brother killin another brother.

Now black women outnumber black men in actual employment numbers.

There are over 900,000 black men in the job market then there are black men.

Therer are over 1 million men in jail (more men in jail then there are in college).

There is a 50% unemployment rate amongst black men around this country (this means 1 out of 2 black men who are looking for a job will not get the job because of employer bias).

And for the ones who get the job they have routinely degrade themselves and give up their dignity to a white employer in order to break the evil stereotypes about black men that are constantly portrayed in the media.

And now the whole public school system of this nation is trying to label every black male in the schools special ed (because they dont understand them or their culture).

And now again the white devils who own the prisons all over this nation (and who get paid by the state for every convict they bring in) are now looking for places to put their jails based on the amount of black males who are labeled special ed.

They are doing this because the malse who are labeled special ed in the schools are more likely to go jail then other males.

So if they study how many males are being slapped with the label special ed while they are young they can basically track how many convicts they will have to fill their prisons ahead of time.

Its like a farmer planting a seed knowing that when that seed grows they can harvest that crop.

If that doesnt tell you how bad it is for a black man in america i dont know what will.

And they have to walk around with that stigma of special ed all the time.

People degrading them and humiliating them (of the 5 million children who are labeled special ed in the schools over 80% are males)

And the schools get grant money from the state and the government the more children they label mentally disabled.

it's ashame.

but these problems are not going to last for long.

We will reclaim our communities as a people.

We will save our brothrs and our children.

We will self sufficient in this new world because we have the money and power to do it.

All it takes is courage and imagination.

Will you join me in the fight?

This Swine Flu Scare Is Swine Shit

2009-05-03T22:35:00.003-04:00

Here in the united states the local and national media are scaring the hell out of people telling them all about how this mysterious swine flu virus is sweeping over the country infecting people at a high rate.

Im glad the local news hasnt been starting off with the average story, a brother shooting another brother, but this is not an acceptable alternative.

They showed pictures of kids on college campuses with the dust masks on their faces.

They showed a local catholic church where now they cant even shake hands because of the fear of spreading the virus.

So now all they do is bow to each other.

That is retarted im sorry, and besides that is not going to prevent you from getting the disease anyway if your immune system isn’t in tip top form.

Diseases, toxins, bacteria, viruses are constantly flowing through the air and we are constantly suceptable to them.

Right now the airborne form of aids, herpes, ebola (maybe not ebola) and guess what SWINE FLU are now being circulated through your lungs and body through the air you are breathing right now.

The only reason these external pathogens don’t start munching on your T cells and breaking down your immune system is because you don’t have enough in your body or it hasn’t been triggered through other high risk experiences.

That’s getting a little off the subject but I am an herbalist and sometimes I have to impart good information.

Anyway I don’t know where this mysterious virus came from and I really don’t care because we are going to encounter a so called killer virus throughout our life e it us or family so I might as well give you the cure to all viruses big and small.

Its plague tonic.

I learned this formula from the Master Herbalist Dr. Richard Schulze who has healed literally thousands of people of life threatening diseases with his prescriptions.

I have a batch of this tonic at my house and I will tell you one thing I know for certain.

If you have a cold or a minor flu, you will be cured of this illness within at least an hour if you take 20 to 40 small spoonfuls of this formula.

If you take 20 to 40 spoonfuls a day for the rest of your life you will never be sick, and if by chance you do get sick it will only be temporary.

Always know that there is a solution to every problem that you have in life.

You don’t have to accept inferior conditions.

Within that big beautiful brain that god gave you lies the answer to every question ever known to man.

Don’t be scared by this garbage and the media scaring people to death with this propaganda.

Think for yourself for god’s sakes.

Now go out there and make this stuff.

I just realize I didn’t tell you how to make it.

You have no idea how fortunate you are.

Ingrdediants

Garlic

Ginger

Cayenne Peppers (the hottest you can find)

Onion

Horseradish Root (this is not as hard to get as it might seem)

and top all of it off with some Apple Cider Vinnegar

put all of the contents in a blender until it’s chunky

take it out put in a glass jar and it will last forever (the vinegar purifies it)

there you have it

good stuff

2009-04-19T10:59:00.000-04:00

The main reason why the black man is still subordinate to the white man.

2009-04-03T22:45:00.003-04:00

Many black people fail to see the reality of the state we are in as a people.

ive mentioned this many times before and i will mention it again now, the main reason why the black man has no power in this world is because we keep looking for whites to solve the problems for us that we should be solving for ourselves.

we depend on white men to give us everything and you are not being honest with yourself if you dont look at this fact objectively no matter how ugly it is.

We depend on the majority white police to protect us from thugs and crooks.

we depend on the white owned hospitals and insurance companies to provide us with medical care when we get sick.

We depend on white and other ethnic merchants to supply us with food and other goods that we can manufacture ourselves.

We depend on the handouts and goodwill of others to sustain our very lives and we have some people put here talking about they are independent.

the worst thing you can do is lie to yourself.

this si the black mans fault.

we should not have let another group of people enslave us and take away our cultural and historical memory.

we were the first ones to build buildings out of stone and steel.

we were the first teachers, researchers, scientists and experimenters.

we were the first managers of human and non human resouces.

think about how much time, effort and orgainzation it took for us to create the pyramids.

think about the thousands of men who needed materials, skills training, food, uniforms; all of these resources were created, built and generated by afrikan people without any european or asian to dictate to us what needed to be done.

why are we letting our children (whites, asians and others) tell us how to do things that we have already long before they were born.

in order for black men to reclaim our communities from the ravenous, blood sucking vampires who now own and control them we have to realise that we came from a history where we already owned our own and did a better job of managing our resources than any other people on this earth.

thats like letting a handicapped person beat you in the 100 yard meter dash when you are a world class sprinter.

thats like letting somebody who is retarted beat you in math

thats like letting a high school junior varsity football team beat you when you just won the superbowl.

are you getting the picture people?

Sometimes its hard to get over someone you once jhad deep feelings for

2009-03-04T16:10:00.002-05:00

Sometimes i can be a little clingy to people.

I dont know why that is.

For instance, i was with someone and things didnt work out.

Now the person doesnt want to talk to me but in the relationship both of us did things that we shouldnt have done.

Am i wrong for still trying to maintain contact with this person.

She doesnt want to speak to me at all.

I just dont understand.

I guess thats how people are sometimes.

Once they are done with you they just throw you away like a piece of trash or something.

Well if people so easily loose contact with you after things didnt go as planned, i think the question should be asked: did hey ever like you.

See we use people all the time.

The people who do something for you and say its from the heart i believe are the sneakiest of them all.

I just dont think that someone would do something for somebody they didnt like.

If you do something for someone that must mean that you want something back from them.

A lot of people lie to themselves im just trying to be honest with myself.

All people give to get something in return.

Maybe i'm wrong.

Who knows.

My Tribute to the great afrikan asafo (warrior scholar) Dr. Amos Wilson

2009-02-23T19:24:00.004-05:00

There aren't too many intellectuals who can stir your spirits like amos wilson.

Born in 1941 on february 23rd this man dedicated his life to analyzing our condition as afrikan people all around the world and most importantly coming up with solutions on how we can get out of the mess that we are in as a people.

This man wrote numerous books such as The Developmental Psychology of the Black Child (scientifically proving that afrikan people evolve physically and psycho-motorly in advance of any other people.
They walk first, talk first, think first, comprehend first before any other babies on this earth.)

He wrote Black on Black Violence: The Psycho Dynamics of Black Self Annihilation In Service of White Domination basically saying that black people are hurting and killing each other in the interests of the white supremacists who rule his world.

His greatest achievement was his 856 page masterpiece Blueprint For Black Power basically stating how afrikan people can gain economic control of their communities and nations.

He owned a printing and publishing business on 125th street in harlem, new york city from the late 80's to the mid 90's.

He put all of the money he made off of his books, lectures, and teaching salary back into the business.

He was completely commited to his mission even to the point where he would use cardbord to fill in his shoes because he would put every cent he had back into the movement.

Sometimes he would do lectures and the hosts would promise him money at the end but wouldnt give it to him.

He didnt put up a fuss he just said "brother that alright, i understand" and kept going about the business of learning information that would help us to advance as a people.

He was an afro-centric psychologist who spoke on a number of different issues such as econmics, criminology, sociology, history, physics, political science, military science, male female relationships: you name it he had a great opinion on the topic.

Ive read most if not all of his books and listened to countless speeches he gave and i will tell you that he ranks up there intellectually with the likes of a martin luther king jr., malcolm x, w.e.b. dubois, martin delaney, edward wilmont blydon, kwame nkrumah, cheikh anta diop or any other afrikan scholar.

I liked him because he was not afraid to talk about what black men truly had to do to rid ourselves of the rule of white men.

He didnt hold anything back in terms of his criticism of the improprities of this government or any other currupt nation on this earth.

he was a real example of black manhood if there ever was one and he truly with all his heart loved, loved, loved afrikan people.

You will never read about him in an afrikan amerikan history textbook because he didnt sell out for anybody.

You will never see his picture posted at a black history event because negro intellectuals hated him because he was TRULY committed to the struggle.

He was not afraid at all to harshly criticize white supremacy and its effect on black folk not only in this country but in the whole world.

He spent many sleepless nights traveling all around the country because so many poeple wanted him to speak at their school.

He died on january 15th 1995 from a heart attack because he worked so hard to serve his own.

When a friend asked him "amos, why do you work so hard man why dont you slow down," amos just looked at him and said "this is the only thing i know how to do."

He loved us and this man died in obscurity while people like al sharpton, cornel west, micheal eric dyson (who are bought and paid for) get more press than they know what to do with.

learn about this man through his works.

They have lots of his stuff on youtube.

You will not find an intellectual that cared more about building a nation for black folks than amos wilson.

He should be a saint and in my mind he is one.

I owe you so much amos.

You showed me what real afrikan manhood looks like.

I'll always cherish your memory.

Thank you for your contribution to my life.

An exclusive interview with me done by my home girl fantasy eyes.

2009-02-22T19:23:00.004-05:00

The great and wonderful fantasy eyes gave me the pleasure of interviewing me with a series of questions.

I had to take some time to really think about what i would say but i believe my thoughts acurately reflect my answers given.

Enjoy.

1. What is the one thing you regret most in life?

That is a question that didnt require any thought from me at all.

The one thing i regret most in life is not hiring a good financial planner to help me manage my money.

There have been rare times in my life where i actually made a good deal of money but then blew it within a short period of time because i was careless with it.

If i had a personal financial planner to stay on my butt, then i would have made some good choices with my money and i probably wouldnt be as broke as i am today.

2. Describe the most memorable day of your life so far?

This is going to sound corny but the most memorable day of my life so far was when i won a black history contest at my old school.

At a college i attended in baltimore they had a black history contest and the winner was going to get 200 dollars.

I needed money for my rent and i thought i knew a good deal of black history so i decided to test my luck and enter the contest.

When i arrived i saw over a hundred people had entered the contest and i was like "yo" lol.

They could have teams too (up to 4 people on a team so i was like yo this is going to be hard).

I tried to join and they wouldnt even let me be on a team by myself lol.

So i pleaded and pleaded and they finally let me on the show.

It was well over a hundred people competing for that money.

It was sororities competing for the money, the psychology club was on their competing.

And i asked a few people could i be on their team and they said no.

So the game got started and there was all these people in the audience with clickers in their hands to answer the questions on the screen.

i knew almost all of the answers because i won a black history contest when i was in grade school.

It came down to only a few people at the end.

It was the first group to get to one hundred wins.

I went against a whole sorority.

I looked up and the score was 90 to my 60.

I knew i had to answer everyting else so i answered the last 3 questions as quickly as i could and it was tied 90 to 90.

The last question came up and no one answered it (and i had to scream on the sorority girls because they were getting the answers from the machine equipment and telling the person answering the questions what to say).

So the next question came up they still didnt answer it, i knew the answer, so i shouted out SAMMY DAVIS JR. (that was the answer lol).

The guy paused then he shouted YOU JUST WON THE 2004 MTV BLACK HISTORY CONTEST!

I was fl;exing my muscles.

I hugged the guy who gave me the money.

That was a VERY emotional experience that i will never forget.

3. What are you afraid of and why?

Well i guess im going to have to bear my soul for this one.

I think the thing i fear most is being alone without someone to love.

I think that the only way i can be a true man is if i have a woman on my side.

If im not in a relationship or talking to a woman to advance it further i feel like i am incomplete.

I guess thats why i am so afraid to ask women out because deep down inside, when i am rejected by a woman i feel like i am not worthy of love.

I feel like i have to please women and be accepted by women in order to feel good about myself.

It's sad and it makes me look like a weak pathetic loser but i think that is the stimulus behind my worst fear.

4. How would you solve the economical problems of our nation?

What a great question.

First of all, many of us have finally accepted the fact that we cant depend on a job to support ourselves for the rest of our lives.

Because it could be lost very easily.

So the question is how do you get more money from different sources.

The answer: SELL INFORMATION!

See fanatsy, we are living in the information age and there are many people who will spend TONS of money to get information they can use to advance a hobby, their career, raising their children etc (this is why we go to college and spend thousands of dollars in the process).

If you can solve a vital problem that many people are having in their lives you can make lots of money.

When it comes to solving our plights as a people every black person over 10 should be able to read and write proficiently and they need to be selling something on a day to day basis in some market to somebody.

this is the only way we will get ahead as a people.

and by the way this is what george "dubba ya" bush said when he was in office.

He said the road to prosperity and wealth in this country is through entrepreneurship.

So if this si the case why dont we have more learning institutions in our neighborhoods teaching us how to be financially independent in the worst downturn in the economy since the great depresion.

Ill share my level of knowledge with my fellow blog memebers later on down the road but to make a long story short we all have to sell some kind of valuable information to somebody.

And not only can we sell inofrmation to people in this country but also with the advent of the internet and technological resources, we can sell to people all over the world.

Like in places like afrika for example.

Afrika is being rampaged with all types of ailments, AIDS, Guinea Worm, Malaria etc.

They have extreeme poverty.

They have many problems with running their governments.

Look at the knowledge afrikan amerikans have in this country.

We have doctors, mba's, phd's, politicians, business people.

We have everything we need to help our motherland to get over these and other problems.

And we can sell this information and make a profit as a result.

We need to focus our attention on how we can sell our expertise.

Once we do this we will be financially independent as a race.

5. What is one thing people should know about you, that they don't?

Why you wanna know lol.

I dont know fantasy.

Maybe i do.

I want everyone to know that i have started an organization called AMOS Solutions based off of the first name of my favorite intellectual figure Dr. Amos Wilson.

The acronymn "AMOS" stands for Afrikan Must Operate In Solidarity.

It's an organization that has as its central goal the total liberation of afrikan people around this globe.

We plan to thoroughly do everything i mentioned in my post "this is my blueprint for black empowerment" and more (we are serious people who are dedicated to a serious purpose).

We would appreciate donations from anyone who wants to see black people get over the illnesses that we have in our community and be independent of outside rule and exploitation.

I will be putting a paypal donation link up soon to accept contributions from people who want leaders who are working on solutions to our political, relational, spiritual and economical problems.

All donations will be documented and an email will be sent to the contributer to tell them exactly how the orgainzation has spent their money.

Thank you fantasy eyes

Check her out at http://fantasyeyes.blogspot.com/.

Is there any advice you can give me on how to talk to women?

2009-02-19T16:48:00.002-05:00

Okay i am going to admit it.

I am painfully shy.

I would ask a lot of women out if i wasnt so painfully afraid of being rejected by them.

I dont know why i take it so personally.

I am starting to get out of this mode but i am still plagued with this inferiority complex so what can i do about it?

How can i overcome the gripping, debilitating embarassment and bitchassness that overcomes me when i am trying to talk to a woman that i like.

If you help me with this problem i will be your friend forever.

I feel bad i dont have a valentine this year.

2009-02-12T16:24:00.002-05:00

for like the last 5 years ive always had someone to go to dinner with, write poetry to or just share intimate close relations with on february 14th.

now that has changed and it seems a little weird.

being a pisces i feel like the only way i can feel complete and whole if i have a woman on my arm to shower her with the love and affection i so desperately want to give.

but unfortunately most black women HATE black men so it's hard to find someone who will even open up their heart a little to allow a man to do this.

i am talking to a young tenderoni now, but we're still in the talking stage

by now i would definately be getting some that night with a woman i was in a serious relationship with

sucks to fuckin be me man

so do you normally get sad at these times because you dont have anybody or are you happy that you dont have anybody

or do you think this whole valentines day thing is scam (yes i do)

or what

let me know out there

The real reason why negro's love obama

2009-02-02T09:36:00.003-05:00

This subject is a touchy subject but controversy is my middle name so even though i might care what others think about me it doesn't bother me that much if others disagree with me.

Obama has certainly resonated with people of afrikan descent from all over the globe.

On january the 19th i saw black people of all different age groups crying, thinking that obama's ascendage to presidency was an achievement for the race.

LOL!

What a joke!

Negro's are freaking strange man.

We must look like real but holes to intelligent people of other races.

I know i shouldnt be so harsh and i should reckognize that you shouldnt make fun of people who dont know any better, but its so crazy.

Just because one black man is president doesnt mean that its an achievement for the race.

Do you really think that all of those white people who voted for him would have voted for him if they thought for one second that he would serve the interest of afrikan people?

If you do you are sadly mistaken.

Let me let you in on a little secret, "ALL WHITE PEOPLE ARE RACISTS!"

That sounds like a harsh statement but its true.

The only reason they elected obama is because now they can say, "look i'm not a racist because i voted for a black man."

"A devil is what a devil does."

Dont be confused by the devil yall.

But anyway lets get back to the subject at hand.

Okay, now the real reason why black people love obama so much is because now it seems that we are really starting to be accepted by white people.

And this is what we really want: the unconditional acceptance of our slave masters and colonialists.

This is a sad revelation for me but it's the truth when you look at the deep psychological reasons.

Ever since we were children we have been degraged for our skin, our hair and our blackness and many of us believed that white people represent what it means to be beautiful (this is why many of us feel uncomfortable with our skin, noses hair and so forth and secretly, and some not so secretly, desire plastic surgery).

We have seen black people acting crazy all of our lives and we think that whites represent what it means to be sane and civilized (this is why many of us want to move into white neighborhoods).

We have been degraded so much by whites we seek their approval in order to feel whole.

Let me explain this phenomenon.

If you want to brainwash a person make them question thier basic assumptions about themselves and the world.

Once they are confused then you fill their mind with the information you want them to learn.

It's that simple.

So lets say you have a shoe company and you want people to buy your shoes.

You run continous ads showing popular people they like in their shoes.

You run an ad showing people respecting and admiring people in those shoes.

You show an ad where people are laughing at a person with knock offs of your shoes and they have much respect for people who are rocking you shoes.

You get the picture.

You make them question their previous belief that wearing any type of shoes are okay (as long as they cover up your feet).

And once they throw away that believe tell them that they should only wear your shoes and you got them.

Brainwashing is easy.

All it takes is repetition of the same ideas over and over.

And this is what we have seen from white racist propaganda.

The repetition of ideas that put down our afrikaness.

So when you are confused who do you normally go to tell you what you should do?

The people who confused you in the first place.

And they confused you so that you could come to them for the answers.

So by making us crave white approval by degrading our blackness, black people will only be happy if white people accept them.

Beautiful.

So geting a black president is the ultimate way whites show their acceptance of blacks right?

This is what negros think.

And they are wrong.

First of all why would you want to be accepted by your former slave masters to begin with?

Why would you seek the acceptance of the people who murdered millions of your people, raped millions of your female ancestors, did every horrible and atrocious thing you could ever imagine to you ancestors and yet you want to be accepted by these people?

You want to live next door to them?

YOU WANT TO SLEEP WITH THEM?

Think about that.

Hey, man we counting on you brother!

2009-01-28T15:18:00.003-05:00

I was coming out of the supermarket monday.

I gently patted this old man on the back of his shoulder because i saw him getting a cart for a young lady there.

I just said, "good job brother" trying to encourage people as i normally do.

After that the old man just said "thank you young brother."

Then he said the words that kind of shook me up for a minute.

He said, "Hey man, we counting on you brother!"

And when he said that he looked me right dead in my eyes and kind of held his chin up as if i was a soldier about to go off to war or something.

I just stared back for a few seconds knowing exactly what he implied.

See the black middle class in the country really dont give a shit about the black poor and homeless in america.

They dont talk about how we can develop power to protect ourselves from other groups who want to exploit us and use us.

They dont care, and it really hurts that they dont.

The dont care until they get layed off or until somebody close to them gets effected by the ills that we suffer from in the streets.

The black middle class is like no other animal on this earth.

They are weird indeed.

But they are what they have been trained to be by white propaganda.

Thankfully God gave me the ability to see through all of the fog that is pervasive in this society.

He blessed me with knowledge of self and it is my responsiblilty (and those like me) to be at the vanguad of making long lasting social, institutional, political and economic changes ion the black community.

We can do it.

But we cant depend on the majority of the black bousouisie to help.

I will take up the call and dedicate my life to the liberation of Afrikan people the world over.

We will win because God is on our side.

How is Barack Obama's presidency going to get me a decent paying job?

2009-01-25T16:04:00.003-05:00

Have you been to a gas station or a supermarket lately?

Man prices have shot up higher than the highest high thing out there.

I do believe we are officially in a depression now but the government wants to keep it quiet.

I sat there on the 19th watching black people shed tears.

What a joke lol.

How is one man getting into office going to better your life?

Huh?

Do you really think this government is going to give us reparataions now that one of our own has been elected?

People say, "why dont you give him a chance?"

Ha!

Let me tell you something.

HOPE IS FOR SUCKERS!

Instead of hoping we need to start doing.

Do you wake up everyday hoping that you and your kids eat?

Can hope pay the gas and electric bill?

We need to throw hope in the trash receptacle.

We need to stop hoping that this racist/fascist government finally accepts us and we need to accept ourselves and love ourselves.

This is the only thing that will secure our survival as a people.

I dont know i think my problem is my excessively bleeding heart

2009-01-17T10:26:00.002-05:00

Why are the most generous people on earth always the most underappreciated.

Look at our nation for example.

We criticize this nation and its leaders so much but if it wasnt for their policies we might not even be protected the way we are.

We criticize our partners for not being perfect but when they are away we miss them.

Thats because you dont appreciate what you take for granted.

And too often we take things for granted and are upset and disturbed whrn they all of a sudden dissapear.

Getting back to me now lol.

Throughout my adult life i havent been able to get on my feet because i always put the needs of others over myown.

Whether it was family or my ex, i've always looked out and worried about others before i did this for myself.

Dont know why.

I have a question for yall.

How do you become selfish lol?

Thats a selfish question but what do you think the problem is?

Is it wrong to look out for yourself before others?

If God Gave You The Ability To Get Rid of One of Your Flaws Which One Would It Be?

2009-01-04T09:15:00.002-05:00

For me it would definately be my lack of focus.

I have so much to share with the world.

I am always bubbling with ideas on how to make things better for afrikan people but after ive come up with some great idea my focus will shift to something else that is less important.

If i had more focus and dedication to my goals i would change the world.

I would make this world a lot better for the poor unfortunate souls who are locked in the ghettos devoid of hope and who are heavily oppressed.

So what is the one flaw you wish you could get rid of.

Let me know out there.

5 Honest Things I Have To Tell About Myself.

2008-12-27T15:18:00.003-05:00

This is hard but im gonna get butt ass raw for this one.

#1 - I have an archaic way of looking at relationships

i have to have romance in my relationships.

i dont feel like im a real man if the woman has to pay for stuff and take care of me like im some damn child.

i have to wear the pants, i have to wine and dine, i have to make the decisions.

i want control (not complete control but i want to be the leader).

#2 - I finally got over my obsession with my ex

it took a long time for me to get over this woman but i havent called her in like over 3 months and i have no intention of calling her or getting back with her at all

i was with this woman for over three and a half years and i was absolutely obsessed with her

i called her damn near everyday we were in the relationship.

when i saw her i was all up on her

when i didnt get my way i would whine and complain, break shit, holler and scream to the top of my lungs i even put my hands on her a few times (that stoped when she told my father about all the times i hit her and harrased her)

she's a sagitarius (free spirits) so she didnt let a lot of things get to her

she kept it real a lot and in most cases i couldnt handle the truth

and i can get psycho when i feel that things arent the way they should be

all in all she didnt hold a grudge and neither did i

we both just grew up and naturally went our seperate ways

#3 - I masterbate over 5 times a week

sorry if you are disgusted by this but im trying to be more honest with myself

maybe if talk about this more then ll be able to stop myslef from doing this

this is a major problem and has definately caused my sex life not to be as good as it should be

actually ive masterbated so much in my life that in most cases the only time i can cum is when im gratifying myself (i need to tak to a sexologists about this or something).

It's very difficult for me to bust a nut during the sexual experience.

Thats because i've been watching porn and getting turned on by it since i was like 11

if you have any kids in the house PLEASE HIDE THE PORN VERY CAREFULLY (there are toooooo many screwed up kids in the world already)

#4 - I think misguided feminism has tried to turn the boys and men in this society into girls

i dont have enough time to really talk about this right now but this reaaaaaly bothers me.

there is nowhere in this society where a man can be a man anymore (especially a black man)

men and little boys are completely different from women and girls.

men like to dominate, they like to be aggressive, the are loud and boisterous, they are egotistical and chauvanistic.

they are also fair, most have the ability to look at things objectively without putting too much emotion in it.

i dont want to learn how to express my feelings more, i dont want to watch my tongue whenever i go out, i want to be able to speak my goddamn mind whenever i want

and if you dont like it FUCK YOU, FUCK FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK YOU!

Men should be accepted for who we are just like women shoud be accepted for who they are

STOP TRYING TO TURN THE BROTHERS INTO PANSIES!

#5 - I've been a nice guy all my life and im sick of it

Within these last couple of months it's like ive made a complete 180 transformation

I have changed profoundly in a way that i will never know

i used to be intimidated by women who were self sufficient because throughout my adult life iva always struggled to make a decent living

but becauseof some altercations ive had with others and because of some books ive read ive completely changed the way i look at the world

i am no longer intimidated by women

i can freely express myself with any woma without caring what they think

most men cant do this

monst men are afraid of being ostracized by women

im no longer afraid in fact i am grateful for the people who have stoped coming to my blog and have stoped welcoming me to their blog because they didnt really give a shit about me or the things i was saying anyway so they did me a favor

many men are afraid to assert their masculity when it comes to dealing with a woman and i think that is very sad

i can proudly say that i am not one of those men anymore

peace out

Certified Bonified Qualified Honest Blogger Baby!

2008-12-18T17:37:00.004-05:00

Its nice to have been given this award from a great spirit that i love so much MYSTERY!

If you get a chance you should stop by her blog because she is a true blogger and her blog is VERY thought provoking.

She's also one smart cookie.

She has no idea how much she's taught me within this small period of time knowing her

So as it goes, I'm supposed to nominate 7 other blogs that I believe are deserving of this award. On your free time, check them out.

Standtall - Even though we dont see eye to eye on everything lol, i appreciate her opinion and i thank God for her contribution to my learning about women, the world at large and myself.

KC - She's another spirit that i appreciate very much. She has it hard sometimes dealing with all the craziness in her life but she still gives good quality think posts that take me all over the place. Thanx for the ride KC!

Buttercup oh Buttercup She's so full of life. A wonderfully optimistic, talented and creative sister. I love her writings because they are so positive and funny. Oh and did i say that she was creative too.

Tia's Talk If you want deep and spiritual look no further. I tell you whenever i go to this sisters blog it always seems like we are on the same wave length. Its like she knows what im thinking before i go there. It's been a couple of times where she has wrote a post or talked about something that i wanted to talk about myself. I really feel safe whenever i go there. She's a real doll.

LULU This woman right here is the total package. She is WICKED smart, she has a beautiful smile that warms my heart whenever i see it, we share the same taste in music and she has a great sense of humor. She talks about pressing political issues that affect Afrika. She's also a poet and she's titilatingly topical. Great read for anybody.

Freeman's Press Talks about things that are important. Gives a variety of solutions to the problems that we face as a people. Very opinionated. Great read for anyone who has always wondered why we do the supid things that we do. He's humerous too. And he always excuses me when i say something stupid.

Little Queenie (Fantasy Queen) i love this gurl. She's so sweet she'll give you a toothache just by stoping by her site. I wish i could adopt her and keep her for myself. She's brilliant, she has a good knowledge of history, she's very appreciative of her family and friends, she always makes me feel like she cares whenever she leaves a comment. She's great and you'll see what im talking about if you visit her.

I know i left a lot of people out of the loop but these are the main 7 i could think about.

Now comes the hard part lol.

I have to give some random facts about myself.

I will next post LOL.

Gotta Go.

This Dude Is Serious As A Heart Attack

2008-12-13T18:59:00.002-05:00

The funniest thing i ever seen on youtube.

But he is the truest.

If you had an unlimited amount of resources, how would you use it to change the world?

2008-12-04T19:22:00.002-05:00

Just wondering.

I dont want to respond until i hear some thoughts on the issue.

Peace!

Assimilation Vs Tradition

2008-11-29T16:42:00.002-05:00

Afrikan people have been forced to assimilate no matter where we have been on this earth.

We have had to take up the white mans rules, his customs and his ways even on the mother continent.

I was watching a movie called "BURN" starring Marlon Brando made in the 70's about a british mercenary who was paid to go to an island in the Caribbean and start an uprising amongst the blacks there to divide the country into civil war.

The portuguese had control of the nation but the poruguese natives there wanted to start up their own nation with their own government and the freedom to trade with whoever they wanted.

So the mercenary trained up this black guy to rebel against the portuguese and eventually the country was divided.

The two opposing governments (the new republic made from the portuguese whites and the new black republic) came together to discuss how they could live in peace.

But the black general didnt want to live by the white mans laws, rules and customs so he chose to remain seperate and he was as a result forced to give up his rule.

The whites took over because he and his people didnt want to assimilate.

But the mercenary told him straight out that civilization belongs to the white man now.

And he must follow his rules in order to get ahead.

I dont think that is true.

While i do believe that we should use some of their tactics to build our civilization and run our own nations, i think when it comes to our traditional ways of doing things we should follow our own customs, culture, rules and traditions.

I can see why so many whites truly believe that they are superior to us.

We value the things that they make for themselves.

We value their cars, clothes, shoes, gizmos and technology.

And i can see why: some of what they ahve created is far more superior to anything ever produced in history.

But we also value their family system (mother, father and children living in a home) which is alien to the family household our ancestors created (extended family with grandparents, aunts uncles cousins and living together).

We value their literature and their art without valuing our own.

We value their social customs and religions without reckognizing we had customs and religions of our own before we were taken here and forced to live under their rules.

The white man hasnt accepted other peoples traditions and yet the stay on top of the world.

The japanese with all of the problems they've had from europeans still held on to their traditions and yet they are one of the main economic powers in the world.

There are some things we have to accept (like the fact that we have to follow their laws and rules in order to stay out of jail).

But i think we should seriously think about uprooting and taking back some of our ancient afrikan traditions.

For instance in many west afrikan nations during and prior to the slave trade, many afrikans didnt know what a cold was because we used traditional herbs to cure ourselves of all types of diseases.

Afrikan doctors and universities were some of the best on earth to the point where peolple from as far as europe and the middle east came to afrika to study techniques and herbal formulas created by afrikans.

I can go on and on but the point im trying to make is look at what we created ourselves and you'll see that what we had, in many ways, is far superior to the lifestyles we presently lead.

We need to look back in our history and find the best of what we had and find some way to update it so that we can use it again.

Blast From The Past.

2008-11-29T10:56:00.002-05:00

Mills Brothers - I Ain't Got Nobody (full movie)

Chuck Berry - Oh Baby Doll

Jimi Hendrix - I'm a Man (RARE 1965 LIVE)

Just because you are old doesnt mean that you are wise.

2008-11-24T18:52:00.003-05:00

Ive learned something very important from listening to my grandmother talk.

I've learned that wisdon definately doesnt come with age.

I was over my grandmothers house painting her living room when we got into a long argument over who is to blame for our condition us or the white supremacists who run this government and continuously try to keep us down as a people.

Sometimes i can be a little to opinionated lol.

Everytime she came at me with a statement i challenged her on it.

She said that mexicans are hardworking people and they come over here to work.

I said maybe thats because mexico is so wretchedly poor that they will risk there lives to come over here just to have a small chance to feed themselves.

Mexico has an unemployement rate of over 50%, so of course the mexican people are going to look for another way to feed their children.

Thats why they work so hard.

If black men were in that same condition then black men would act the same way.

It has nothing to do with one group of people being naturally lazier than the other.

Then she said we dont take care of ourselves, afrikan people sold themselves into slavery (she's such a snob lol)

Most people who brings this subject up dont even know the history.

The afrikans who supposedly sold the people into slavery did it because they didnt want to be sold in slavery themselves.

Many afrikans sold into slavery their prisoners from an opposing ethnic group.

And many afrikans had no idea how terribel the conditions were on the slave ships.

And yes some afrikans were traitors but there are traitors in every race.

There were jews in nazi germany who wore nazi armbands on their arms and often treated the jews (their own people) worse than the nazi's.

They had to act that way to keep themselves and their families from being put into the horrible conditions which most jews were under at the time.

Then she said black men in the ghetto dont want to work.

I have many cousins who stand out on the corners from the wee hours of the morning to the late hours of night.

That sounds like work to me.

The problem is they dont work for another man under their rules when they can make more money in the streets.

No healthy group of men see the end point of their lives as working for another group of men.

Why would you want to work for the same people who raped your female ancestors, lynched your ancestors, killed millions of them without any remorse or compunction, scandalized their names and bodies, called them ugly savages and did all of the other stuff to degrade us?

Why would you want to happily and cheerfully work for a people like that?

Then she said black people sell drugs to other black people.

So i said is alcohol and cigererettes drugs lol.

You see the white man selling these things to his own people and millions of lives ae lost every year because of the white man selling massive amounts of these drugs to their own people.

She didnt have anything to say after that so she just said, "well if you dumb enough to buy that stuff then you deserve what you get."

She like so many other blacks have ben brainwashed into believing the worst about themselves.

Its sad because so many blacks discriminate against their own because they have foolishly been duped by the media into believing that your own people are the most terrible people on earth.

Anytime you see a black man profiting off of something or failing in life because of some cause you can bet your bottom dollar that a white man is benefiting from it.

We all know that the jail industry in this country is set up to benefit the lawyers, judges (which are mostly white), white towns all over the country and so forth.

This means that our going to jail (whether innocent or guilty because not all people who go to jail are guilty) is sutaining the lives of white people and some blacks and others.

We have to come to this reality or we will wrongly accuse each other of things we are not responsible for.

This woman is 68 years old and she hasnt learned these lessons yet.

Its so sad but what can you say.

And she's a pisces like me (her birthday is actually the same day as mine) so she should be more intuitive than that.

I dont know lol.

Its no wonder so many of us are so confused in this day and age.

The elders are confused their damn selves.

New piece of the Tubman legacy.

2008-11-23T21:29:00.002-05:00

From now on ive decided to dedicate this blog and the tubman solution to serving the betterment of the black community.

I will be posting sound interviews with different activists, scholars, business people an politicians in the greater baltimore region and beyond from now on.

When i initially created this blog it was to help solve the problems that we as afrikan people face all over the world.

After a while because i was getting so much love from some of the bloggers i found myself trying to please others other than stay true to myself.

Well those times are over because from now on, on this blog, i am going to stick to my original objective and these interviews are going to be solution oriented documenting the ways ad means by which we can solve the many variety of different problems we face as a people.

I hope everyone who listens in gets some value out of these interviews

Peace out!

When Pisces Met Cancer.

2008-11-16T12:12:00.002-05:00

I love cancer women.

I've been with many of them ever since high school.

It seems like these women are magnetically drawn to me.

I can be sitting at the bar or getting my food and a cancer will initaite a conversation with me.

It says in the horoscopes that pisces and cancers are the soulmates of the zodiac.

Who knows.

But i have had many cancers without even knowing this so it might be some validity to this.

I was in popeyes (fast food restauraunt) about a month and a half ago.

I just wanted to find a good signal for my laptop and this beautiful young lady saw the astrology books that i had and asked are those astrology books.

I said with my dapper masculine voice, "why yes they are" lol, and she hurriedly took them out my hand to see her description i guess.

She was pretty and i thought it was nice that she showed me some attention (because so many young women treat you like crap when you go to order something) so i asked her some questions about herself and we got into a conversation.

She told me about her kids and how she didnt get along with her baby father and all that.

I didnt think much of it but i told her that ill bring some astrology books down to her whenever i get a chance because she was so passionate about the subject.

About a week passes, i go to the place and bring her some books she says "wow this must be meant to be you came back."

I just nonchalantly replied "maybe!"

She seems like a nice gurl.

She's friendly and she's only two years younger than me (im used to dating older women) but i dont know.

Two kids.

Not that im thinking about that but shit i can barely take care of myself lol.

I mean shit im 27 years old, dont work, on food stamps, lazy as hell, what can i possibly offer her and her kids.

I think i gave her the wrong impression because i came in there trying to look cool with my ugly self lol with a camel hair suit jacket on and a turtle neck trying to look like a professor.

Broke as hell I definately know how to portray the right image.

I mean i can always make money and change my lifestyle.

It's really not that big of a deal but i really like this gurl.

She has that nurturing quality that i love in cancer women so much so i know she's a good mother.

Well i guess i gotta get on my grind.

It sucks still having a college student mentality when you've been out of school for years already.

But of course in order to do my romance thing i gotta get the dough so if anybody lives in the baltimore, maryland region and knows of any job openings soon where they work.

HOLLA!

R.I.P Ol' D' B' (November 15, 1968–November 13, 2004)

2008-11-15T10:41:00.004-05:00

How do you describe a legend like the Ol' Dirt Dog?

How do you describe a man that was too great for his time?

How do you describe a man who could never be defeated no matter what others tried to do to him or say about him?

Most people who would describe this mans life would probably call him a moron, retarted, whatever?

I dont think he was either.

I see him as a man who was never defeated?

He did things his way and it wouldnt be anybody elses but his.

This dude and the group that he's from (WU TANG CLAN) had a very impresionale impact on my life.

I loved the woo.

They were my favorite rap group.

I could identif with all of them too because most of them lived in the projects and was poor growing up like i was.

They was hard, you gotta listen to their stuff to really know what im talking about.

And certainly the Ol' Dirty Bastard was one of the hardest.

He had a very unorthodox rap style were it was part singing and part rapping.

He rarely ever wrote his rhymes out (and you could definately tell) but a lot of them was hard and had mad rhythim none the less.

He was extreemly vulger.

Rude as hell, he interrupted the grammy's in 1999 to protest when the WU didnt win best rap group of the year.

He talked about killing other brothers who lloked like him.

But he will always be remembered as having a great sense of humor, and actually portraying what can happen to a brother when he grows up in an environment where the system treats them like animals.

He was a product of his environment and that really is the best way to sum it up.

I remeber being in the lunch room acting like i was him rhyming on the microphone (my favorite member from the WU was the GZA (GENIUS) but when he was hot everybody was blasting his shit in my hood.

The ol' dirt dog aint take no shit.

He was always ready to slap the taste out of somebodies mouth.

This is my tribute Ol' D' B.

RIP Forever!

WU FOREVER SON!

Do You Think That Seeking Revenge On Someone Who's Wronged You Is A Bad Thing?

2008-11-08T10:55:00.002-05:00

I dont like to get on anybody.

Im very laid back and even if you've wronged me in some way i dont hold grudges.

But sometimes it's hard to keep your composure when someone is constantly pushing your buttons.

You know what i'm saying?

Most people I can pretty much shrug off without looking the other way.

But there are some that you think need to be taught a lesson.

Im in a situation now where i'm going through some rough circumstances, thus causing me a good deal of stress.

Is it wrong to take that stress out on someone that has wronged you in the past?

I know that we believe in the christian theology that you should turn the other cheek or whatever.

How many of us actually do that when it comes to our own people?

I dont know.

I dont forget anything!

And if someone has wronged me in the past i can still remember it years and years down the road and live it out vividly in my imagination.

I never forget.

I dont know i just think some poeple need to be taught a lesson.

Revenge may be petty but its so sweet sometimes lol.

Whatta ya say.

Denial is not a river in egypt!

2008-10-28T20:48:00.007-04:00

I felt i had to write this post to get something off my chest.

most people think that if you dont pay attention to something or just ignore it for as long as you possibly can it has no effect on you.

many of us believe that if we try to escape to some foreign suburb that we wont be affected by the plights of the inner city.

or we believe that its right to just cut off communication with someone even when we still want to talk to them.

we put ourselves through a lot of unnecessary stress trying to escape from and deny that things and feelings exist when they do.

sometimes we are able to find all types of elaborate ways of distracting ourselves from reality but in actuality that thing that you are trying to escape from has influenced your life more than you know.

lets say you met somebody at a place you love dearly.

it didnt work out and you completely want to ignore them.

you dont want to go to the same place you met them at because you dont want to bump into them

this means you have to change your whole life to avoid running into that person

so you arent really ignoring them, you are giving this person too much power (more power than they actually desreve)

aint nobody stoping me from going where i want to go.

i dont get down like that

now of course if somebody fades out of your life naturally because you are moving in a whole nother direection than ok it just happens

i go to sites all the time, "i dont want to talk to them but i dont want to make it seem as if im trying to talk to them, i dont want to initiate contact, or im a G, im trying to avoid them to prove how strong i am.

you are a fool lol

you are stressing yourself out unecessary

just call them or email them if you really want to that bad

i got caught up in that and i wound up feeling dumb because i wasted so much time because of pride (not going beneath your standards)

who created your standards

how did you come to believe what you now think is the right way to go.

always question why you have accepted a belief and measure it against reality.

if its driving you insane then maybe you might need to drop that value

theres nothing wrong with changing a belief if it no longer suits you.

you are going to waist a lot of time and energy if you dont come to terms with how you really feel.

sometimes it's good to distract yourself from doing something that you might regret

thats not always the answer though

and when you finally face that reality that you have been trying to avoid, you will thank God that you had the courage to do it.

get out of old comfort zones.

the more experiences you have the more able you will be to cope more effectively with the challenges in life.

Please God Help Me Please! Whats The Best Way To Counter The Dreaded Infestation Of Procrastination!

2008-10-12T17:18:00.003-04:00

Im having a hard time with something.

Im writing this manual on how to cure yourself of all types of "incurable" disaeases.

Im basically giving a people a program on how they can heal themselves of diabetes, cancer, arthritis, obesity and whole host of other illneses.

Many people when they want to sell something put an ad in the paper or advertise on the radio or pass out flyers and business cards.

Im going to pass out flyers becasue i know flyers work if you pass out enough.

This is a big feat because i have to make two sales letters, one to upsell them on theinformation product another to post on the internet.

it's a lot of work because im putting in there all i have learned in natural healing from mentors and books, lectures workshops etc.

i wanna do it now because the sooner i start the faster i start making money and healing people.

how do you handle procrastination when you know you have to do something important.

my problem is i am easily distracted.

sometimes its hard forme to stay focused on something longer than 5 minutes (which is sad because i know the cure to ADHD lol)

Please Help Me Somebody

What Should I Do To Counter This!

Sorry. The White Boy Inside Of Me Really Likes These Songs.

2008-10-10T12:02:00.002-04:00

Metalica - Master of Puppets

Heart - Barracuda

Deep Purple - Chid In Time

Metallica - One

This is why you should never ever ever drink grain alcohol!

2008-10-08T18:55:00.004-04:00

Saturday night was a very unique one for me lol.

Im learning about herbs and their medicinal properties (healing capacity), and some mixtures require you to make tinctures.

A tincture is an herb or mixture of hebs thats mixed with a preservative to keep it in a consumable form forever.

You can mix vinegar with the herbs and yo can also mixgrain alcohol with it to keep it preserved.

So i got some liquor to go with the herbs and i went home to make the tincture (the herbs i mixed by the way were valerian, wild lettuce, loebillia and skulcap, i was making a tonic that will put you right to sleep. It didnt work though, it might work as a brewed tea though)

So i was like since i got some alcohol let me take a sip.

i cut it with some cranberry juice and for a while i aint feel nothing.

so i drunk a little bit more and all of a sudden i started to feel it.

i still kept drinking though and i felt it a little bit more.

next thing you know its 3 o'clock in the morning im drunk and horny.

its time to have a good time lol.

i rushed out of my bed making a whole bunch of noise(i rent a room in a house), i walked out the door i remember doing that.

Next thing you know it was 2pm sunday afternoon.

i had mcdonalds food scattered all around me, my cell phone was gone, my keys were gone, i had 100 dollars missing from my wallet, i had like 10 dollars in these strange looking yellow coins (which i think i got from an adult store or something lol) and i didnt remember JACK!

Well I finally got my answer today.

I went outside and talked to the guy who lives upstairs from me and we were outside talking for a minute.

He said i was immensely wet, and i was tripping hard with him like never before.

He said it was like i was a completely different person.

like the regular tubby escaped from my body and a totally different human being with a completely different personality inculcated my spiritless flesh (well maybe he didnt say it like that).

Anyway lol, we were out there talking and he said all of a sudden this fine redbone came walking down the street (he said she wasnt a dime she was a 20) and i was actually hollering at her (thats not something i ever have the confidence to do).

He said i was macking shorty hard and i just left him and walked down the street with her lol.

I guess i must have took her back to the crib because he said when he got back there there was a whole lot of moaning and groaning coming from my room.

And on top of that a lady who lives in the same building had her 17 year old kid there and she heard everything.

That's not funny man.

Dont drink please.

sidebar: this dude for a 20 dollar bet drunk a whole pint of grain alcohol STRAIGHT in only a few swallows.

That dude definately earned that twenty dollars lol.

Oh yeah, for those who dont know grain alcohol is 95% alcohol (that means if you drink that much alcohol and smoke you could litterally blow up, straight spontaneous combustion).

He was throwing up for like 2 days he said he walked all the way downtown from where we live (about 4 miles).

Please stay away from this kind of alcohol im telling you.

Just stick to wine coolers lol.

Im thinking about moving, where should i move to?

2008-10-02T05:03:00.002-04:00

Recently i just got my hands on a good chunk of money and i feel like fleeing the state of maryland.

I feel like im too dependent on my family for help (even though i live by myself) and i feel like exploring the world to see what else is out there.

Im 27, dont have any kids, in very good shape, aint tied down to a job so where should i go and why?

I wanna go somewhere there is plenty of opportunities to make money but the cost of living is still not that high.

I would reallly like to go somewhere thats warm or at least not so cold in the winter.

can somebody give me a clue please.

Im incapable of making a decision of this magnitude for myself lol.

What your birthday says about you!

2008-09-28T19:00:00.008-04:00

Signs tell us a lot about who we are. Anytime i want to understand someone i always ask them for their sign because i am a true believer in this fact.

After a while i'll be able to predict exactly what sign a person is just by talking to them for 5 minutes (trust me). And eventually im going to make a lot of money doing this lol (in my dreams i guess).

I picked up a fasinating book the other day called, "What Your Birthday Reveals About You" by Phyllis Vega.

It hit some things on the head and i think you might be interested in what it says about YOUR birthday.

Here's mine though lol (like anybody cares).

MARCH 19 (Pisces 1)

People with birthdays on this day are a strange mix of dreamer and doer. A dynamic, powerful, persuader crusader on the one hand, youre a gentle, dreamy poet on the other. When you are aggresive, pioneering spirit takes charge, you feel as if nothing can stop you from reaching your worldly goals. But when the dreamy, gentle, dreamy side of your nature surfaces, your creativity and artistic talent point your attention in another direction entirely. No, matter which mode you're in, when your imagination is fueled by an exciting project, your determination can surprise everyone.

March 19th births lead to idealistic reformers inclined to dramatize their own lives. Typically you rush to the aid of those who need help and then see yourself as some kind of mythological hero. You are exceptionally kindhearted and generous to a fault. However, you tend to be more outspoken and aggresive than other pisces natives.

Although, your help is appreciated, your habit of telling people of what to do is not. Some with birthdays on this day are explorers destined to break new ground in the physical world. Others prefer staying home and exploring the inner worlds of the pysyche.

Because you are impetuous, you are likely to rush into a love relationship without prior thought. As a lover,you are caring and considerate as long as the union lives up to your expectations. But if you become disillusioned, you'll make a beeline for the exit.

So there you have it. This is me i guess. I think it's pretty acurate, i must be stuck in the wrong stage or something.

If anybody tells me their birthday I will post the characteristics for their sign.

You can get it on the net somewhere but i think the book offers more of a indepth description. Or you can go to the library and get some books. You will be amazed at what you find. They also have it so precise that they can tell you exactly what kind of person you are if you know the day of the week you were born on and the time you were born. And BTW the people who discovered this information were AFRIKANS! (our ancestors along the nile valley in north east afrika) who discovered this information and who lloked just like YOU. Fantastic isnt it!

The Ass, the Fox, and the Lion: Aesops's Fables

2008-09-18T15:27:00.003-04:00

The Ass, the Fox, and the Lion

THE ASS and the Fox, having entered into partnership
together for their mutual protection, went out
into the forest to hunt.

They had not proceeded far when they met a Lion.

 The Fox, seeing imminent danger, approached the
Lion and promised to contrive for him the capture
of the Ass if the Lion would pledge his word not
to harm the Fox.

 Then, upon assuring the Ass that he would not be
injured, the Fox led him to a deep pit and
arranged that he should fall into it.

The Lion, seeing that the Ass was secured,
immediately clutched the Fox, and
attacked the Ass at his leisure.

The lesson: Never ever ever ever ever ever
ever ever ever trust your enemy (even
when they are nice to you and seem to be
pleasantly comfortable dealing with people
like you)!

If a person is your real friend, when they do
something bad to you they repent and try to
make it up to you in some kind of way.

If they don’t then they are just acting.

They are not your friend at all.

They are just a faker.

Remember that for your own sake!

Did you even know that there is a black woman running for president! And guess what, her running mate is a black woman too!

2008-09-05T20:07:00.007-04:00

Cynthia Mckinney: President

Rosa Clemente: Vice President

These two beautiful, brilliant, classy and INDEPENDENT black women are running on the Green Party ticket. The green party is an independent party that is based on grassroots organizing and issues that are most important to the PEOPLE (not the corporations).

1. GRASSROOTS DEMOCRACY - Every human being deserves a say in the decisions that affect their lives and not be subject to the will of another. Therefore, we will work to increase public participation at every level of government and to ensure that our public representatives are fully accountable to the people who elect them. We will also work to create new types of political organizations which expand the process of participatory democracy by directly including citizens in the decision-making process.

2. SOCIAL JUSTICE AND EQUAL OPPORTUNITY - All persons should have the rights and opportunity to benefit equally from the resources afforded us by society and the environment. We must consciously confront in ourselves, our organizations, and society at large, barriers such as racism and class oppression, sexism and homophobia, ageism and disability, which act to deny fair treatment and equal justice under the law.

3. ECOLOGICAL WISDOM - Human societies must operate with the understanding that we are part of nature, not separate from nature. We must maintain an ecological balance and live within the ecological and resource limits of our communities and our planet. We support a sustainable society which utilizes resources in such a way that future generations will benefit and not suffer from the practices of our generation. To this end we must practice agriculture which replenishes the soil; move to an energy efficient economy; and live in ways that respect the integrity of natural systems.

4. NON-VIOLENCE - It is essential that we develop effective alternatives to society’s current patterns of violence. We will work to demilitarize, and eliminate weapons of mass destruction, without being naive about the intentions of other governments. We recognize the need for self-defense and the defense of others who are in helpless situations. We promote non-violent methods to oppose practices and policies with which we disagree, and will guide our actions toward lasting personal, community and global peace.

5. DECENTRALIZATION - Centralization of wealth and power contributes to social and economic injustice, environmental destruction, and militarization. Therefore, we support a restructuring of social, political and economic institutions away from a system which is controlled by and mostly benefits the powerful few, to a democratic, less bureaucratic system. Decision-making should, as much as possible, remain at the individual and local level, while assuring that civil rights are protected for all citizens.

6. COMMUNITY-BASED ECONOMICS AND ECONOMIC JUSTICE - We recognize it is essential to create a vibrant and sustainable economic system, one that can create jobs and provide a decent standard of living for all people while maintaining a healthy ecological balance. A successful economic system will offer meaningful work with dignity, while paying a “living wage” which reflects the real value of a person’s work.

Local communities must look to economic development that assures protection of the environment and workers’ rights; broad citizen participation in planning; and enhancement of our “quality of life.” We support independently owned and operated companies which are socially responsible, as well as co-operatives and public enterprises that distribute resources and control to more people through democratic participation.

7. FEMINISM AND GENDER EQUITY - We have inherited a social system based on male domination of politics and economics. We call for the replacement of the cultural ethics of domination and control with more cooperative ways of interacting that respect differences of opinion and gender. Human values such as equity between the sexes, interpersonal responsibility, and honesty must be developed with moral conscience. We should remember that the process that determines our decisions and actions is just as important as achieving the outcome we want.

8. RESPECT FOR DIVERSITY - We believe it is important to value cultural, ethnic, racial, sexual, religious and spiritual diversity, and to promote the development of respectful relationships across these lines.

We believe that the many diverse elements of society should be reflected in our organizations and decision-making bodies, and we support the leadership of people who have been traditionally closed out of leadership roles. We acknowledge and encourage respect for other life forms than our own and the preservation of biodiversity.

9. PERSONAL AND GLOBAL RESPONSIBILITY - We encourage individuals to act to improve their personal well-being and, at the same time, to enhance ecological balance and social harmony. We seek to join with people and organizations around the world to foster peace, economic justice, and the health of the planet.

10. FUTURE FOCUS AND SUSTAINABILITY - Our actions and policies should be motivated by long-term goals. We seek to protect valuable natural resources, safely disposing of or “unmaking” all waste we create, while developing a sustainable economics that does not depend on continual expansion for survival. We must counterbalance the drive for short-term profits by assuring that economic development, new technologies, and fiscal policies are responsible to future generations who will inherit the results of our actions.

That sounds like a hell of a plan. This is better than we would get from obama bin laden lol (sorry). Ive talked to some people about these two wonderful sisters, and when i talk to them they'll say, "well they aint gon win so why should i vote for them?" Because they represent your interests thats why! Why would you vote for someone who you know wont do much if anything to improve your condition. It just doesnt make sense to me. Yes the guy may be dreamy to women, but the media is using that shollow tendency that many women (not just black) have against you. And the media is pumping you up with all of this crap. Do any of yall know any of his policies. C'mon, I CHALLENGE ONE OBAMA FAN OUT THERE TO GIVE ME 5 THINGS THAT HE WANTS TO ACCOMPLISH UNDER HIS ADMINISTRATION. GIVE ME 3 IN ILL BE HAPPY. C'MON CLETUS!

C'MON!!!

The natural truth they dont want you to know about!

2008-08-27T17:07:00.005-04:00

I heard that this speech was censored and wasnt allowed to be showed on stations like TV one amd other stations that showed the democratic convention. Why? Because homeboy told the truth!

This guy i believe was the mayor of cleveland a while ago. And when he was the mayor of cleveland he said blacks are 50% of the population there they deserve 50% of the benefits dished by the government there. We need to analyze this speech to see what he was really saying. He said a lot in that short period of time and i can see why many stations didnt allow that footage to be played on their station. The corporations have control over the government. And when the golden child Obama is elected he is going to have to pay back all of the money that he gained from these corporations.

I hear black people saying "it's stupid to think that obama is going to help blacks once he gets into office." If you know thats the case then my answer is why would you vote for him or anyone else for that matter. Sorry to be a party pooper, but i think we need to take time to look at things a little closer sometimes.

Holla!

Do you believe in interacial dating?

2008-08-18T18:49:00.012-04:00

I figured I'd do a post like this because i think i need to teach an anonymous blogger who tried to call me out a history lesson. I hope I don't offend anyone I'm just speaking my personal feelings about this issue. It has nothing to do with anything. But we cant forget certain historical facts or we will repeat them and we might even suffer a worse atrocity next time. The question is do you believe in interacial dating? I don't. Why? There are a number of very good reasons for this. First of all, i don't think its a problem to date someone who is mixed if they know who they are. But see this is the dilemma, harvard university did a survey on this, DNA sampling black and white students, and when the results came back most of the white people had afrikan blood in them. At least 90%. (They hated that by the way lol!) But the thing is they look off scratch white so you couldn't tell that at all if you just looked at them. To be honest i hadn't considered that point but i guess i should consider that and come back to yall but for the mean time, no lol.

And there are of course other ethnic groups out there that are heavily mixed with afrikan people even to the extent that it might be a stretch to actually call them anything but. You have other groups, indians east and west, latinos, asians that look just like us but they have straight hair and european features, but they may be darker than me or as dark as the bark on a tree. Im confusing myself now so i guess i should stick to one ethnic group, white people lol. I wouldnt date a white woman because i remember black men being hanged and lynched and having their bodies mutilated (dick cut off and stuffed in their mouths) for just being blamed for sleeping with a white woman. Even if they didn't do it. As a matter of fact if you study the history of the lynched victims (black men) you will see that at least 90% of them were lynched because white men (and white women btw check out rosewood) allegedly accused them of having a sexual relationship or even sexually assaulting a white woman. And they didn't do it by the way. And come to find out a large percentage of the men who were accused of having these affairs were business owners and the white men were just jealous of him owning something for himself.

And also, if you see the movie good bye uncle tom, made by italian film directors, many white women thought it was a form of bestiality to sleep with black men. They hated the ground he walked on, publicly lol, (some of them did sneak around but), they still had a low regard for him. And i would venture to say that this mentality hasn't changed that much in many white people. It's one thing to smile at you at work and laugh at all your jokes, its another thing to actually live amongst you and put their kids in the same schools with yours, and let me tell you the vast majority of white people don't want this at all. I digress. I just believe that if a person or a people once abused you they might do it again lol. If somebody abused me and my ancestors and went through the whole dictionary of evil in terms of what they did to us i would be very cautious in dealing with them because at any time they can turn crazy again. Like i said this is just my opinion. I could be wrong for even pondering this.

Now lets go with this from the sisters perspective. Why shouldn't black women date white men? I know im going to get a looooooooot of flack for this but i got to deal with it. Look im not saying im right. I could be wrong as wrong as can be, its just a different view of this situation that you may have not heard before. First of all, do you remember a time in history called "slavery" lol. Or a period not too long called jim crow. In both of these periods white men could do whatever they wanted to do to black women and they frequently used them in anyway they wanted. My ex has a cousin who is married to an Italian and now lives in Italy. She didn't give a black man the time of day but every white guy who paid attention to her, no matter how they look she flirted back with them. I swear i was at her house and she was talkin some smack about something and i started to say do you know how the italian mafia has treated black people. The sell them crack, cocaine and every other type of drugs almost exclusively to us. In the Godfather one of the corleons said "give the drugs to the niggers they have no souls." And i started to also say (and I know this is true) "white men have raped well over one million black women since we've been in this country and neither one of them ever got put to death for it. Her own aunt was raped by a white man and didn't tell anybody for a long time. And now you are willingly give youself freely to them neglecting your own? Your playing right into their hands!" She's a disgrace. I bet you the majority of people, if they knew the true history and counted up all of the stuff they did to us probably wouldn't go that route. I can go on and on. But I wont. But i do want to hear your opinion. Try not to be influenced by this in anyway.

What Traits Do You Like Most In A Potential Partner?

2008-08-04T21:21:00.004-04:00

I dont know why blogger isnt letting me upload a picture of my future wife Lauryn Hill but it's daggum shame i tell you. So what is it that makes you lose your mind about the opposite sex that you believe to be absolutely irresistable (or the same sex if you swing that way, nobody's discriminating here)? Lauryn Hill is the prototype for me because she embodies so many of the traits I loooooooove in a woman. First of all she's brilliant! Intelligence is an afrodesiac for me (if you dont believe she's really intelligent look at the video above. If you can teach me something or show me a perception of the world that i've never seen before, you got me! She's beautiful of course even though that's not real high on the totem pole because I believe 99.9% of women are beautiful or have the potential to be more beautiful than they are (if it comes down to it and she fulfills me in soooooo many other ways then i might spring for plastic surgery lol). She's confident in the sense that she stands by here beliefs reagardless of what others think of her and regardless of whether she's popular or not. Case and point, her recent concerts have shown her being portrayed as a bag lady or something. I believe, and this is just a theory, that she is presenting herself in this way because she is trying to call attention to the plight that inner city poor and homeless women face everyday. She is dressing like this to call attention to poor and homeless Black women. Who knows. But if that is the case then she is not only brilliant, but she is astoundingly creative. Another trait I love in a woman. She doesn't know it yet but she will be mine someday. The marley guy she's with or whoever she's with now is only marinating it, but it will be mne soon lol. But anyway what do you like? Some people have strange likes like if they have dirty fingernails they wont talk to them. I'm just not going to give a comment but just let me know okay?

Muddy Water Blues (Real Man Shit!)

2008-08-04T21:19:00.002-04:00

Muddy Waters - You Can't Loose What Your Never Had

Muddy Waters - Rollin' Stone aka Catfish Blues

Yall Dont Know Nuthin Bout This

2008-08-01T13:21:00.003-04:00

Stevie Wonder - Golden Lady

Happier Than The Morning Sun - Stevie Wonder

Stevie Wonder - Yester-Me, Yester-You, Yesterday

Why Do We Hate Each Other So Much!

2008-07-24T14:06:00.003-04:00

I dont understand it. I consider myself to be a pretty jolly person. So when I walk around town, on the bus stop, in McDeath (McDonalds) or anywhere else, i try to speak, be nice and courteous but people just treat me bad. Maybe it's just a figment of my imagination, but whenever i look at TV or interact with other Blacks, in most cases they are just angry LOL. I wish I could let them know thats it really not that serious. You look on TV and theres always some beef going on between us. The rich and middle class getting on poor people, celebrities fighting each other. Lets's have a national love day for black people where no matter what happens we have to be nice to each other on that day. Then maybe we can expand it to a week then maybe a month, we have a month for everything else (history, music, black women). Let's go one day without criticizing, fighting with, humiliating any black person. Let's be a little more nice to each other. Please dont hate me for this post lol.

Some Videos Im Diggin Right Now (Dont Ask Any Questions LOL)

2008-07-24T13:06:00.003-04:00

THE BRAND NEW HEAVIES - Stay This Way

Little Richard - Lucille (we have to remember our musical history)

Muddy Waters - Hoochie Coochie Man (ELECTRIC!)

What would you seek to accomplish in life if you knew that you couldn't fail?

2008-07-06T15:34:00.000-04:00

That really is a deep question when you think about it. We have so many things that we would like to accomplish in life but our goals seem so hard for us to attain sometimes. So if you knew that you couldn't fail, what would you want to achieve beyond a shadow of a doubt? Think about it. In family, work, relationships, weight loss. What would it be?

Black men need to love other black men!

2008-06-20T16:04:00.005-04:00

Sounds funny doesnt it lol.

Im not talking about in "that" way.

Black men really have a problem loving each other in our communities and their isnt enough talk about that going on.

So why do we need to love each other more anyway?

Because if we loved each other more we wouldnt stand seeing other black men going to jail in record numbers.

If we loved each other more then we wouldnt stand for other men coming into our community, taking the wealth of our communities through their businesses and taking it back to their neighborhood to take their children to private schools while ours beg the adults in the street for quarters nickels and dimes just so they can get a sandwich to eat, because they might not have anything at home.

Now im not blaming the black man.

Everytime black men established their own grassroots movements to solve their own problems there has always been a concerted effort to destroy those movements by the federal state and municipal government itself.

Whether you talk about marcus garvey's movement (destroyed by J Edgar Hoover and the FBI), the riff between malcolm x and elijah muhammad (FBI sent made up letters to both of these guys saying it was from the other, and prevented appology letters from getting to each other).

Same thing happened with the Black Panthers, SNCC, Martin Luther King (Hoover tried to blackmail King and actually suggested that he commit suicide).

These are obstacles we are going to inevitbly face.

And many of us instinctively knows this, so we choose not to do anything to help our condition.

I understand lol.

But this is what all men do if they want to survive.

We have to ensure our survival on earth by bringing together black men and collectively say "HELL NO!"

"We are not going to let any other group of men take over our communities economically!"

This is the true measure of being a man.

Men own, control, provide for and protect their neighborhoods from the exploitation of other groups of men, period!

Cool Videos From The 90's

2008-06-18T15:47:00.002-04:00

Chemical Brothers: Let Forever Be

Daft Punk - Around The World

Call 2 Action For all brothers in baltimore

2008-06-16T12:35:00.002-04:00

on fathers day I attended an event at the baltimore convention center.

black activists of all types came out to speak on the issues concerning black adult males in baltimore

there were about 20 to 30 speakers the majority local but the ones who really shook up the place were susan taylor and micheal eric dyson

miss taylor talked abouthow black people are over consumed with personal consumption and fulfillment other than saving our children (i rarely see people talking about how we are going to save our communities from all of these problems on blogs by the way)

she talked about how other groups look at us and laugh at us because we are more concerned with accumulating high priced trinkets as opposed to saving our children

she also spoke about hatian history (the history of the hatian revolution is something I have q great deal of interest in)

she talked about how the hatians took over that country and how the french when they fought the hatian men had to get help from the spanish and the british and at the end of the fighting the french, british and the spanish went back to europe HUMILIATED

she was awesome

and of course micheal eric dyson was ok with his critique of black males

talking about how black men should take responsibility for our community but he and susan taylor also condemned the government for denying black mem opportunities in the community and setting them up to commit crime so they can feed millions of people by going to prison

and by the way one of the lectures really struck me

it aaid that over 48% of black males 16 and over are UNEMPLOYED or UNDEREMPLOYED

as far as I was concerned he didn't have to say anything else

what is the responsiblity of a group of men when they don't have adequate job opportunities to support their family and children

who's taking care of them

and why would this government rather invest billions of dollars into law schools and building new prisons as opposed to providing ample employment for these men

has anyone remebered fathers day

2008-06-14T21:31:00.000-04:00

I know, I know. my fathers not the greatest guy too.

but at least he created me lol

been all around blogville, haven't seen too much love given to the fathers

I know my father isn't even worth mentioning but I love him till this day even though he doesn't want to see me unless I got some money lol

fathers don't realize how valuable they are

mainly because there is so much animosity towards the black male father in our culture

but the black man was the first father

he created (along with the black woman) all of the other races in the world (white, asian, arabs, etc.)

as a matter of fact, as the great afrikan historian dr cheihk anta diop says, if black people never left afrika to populate the rest of the world then every other place on earth would have been a desert

every race on earth should thank god that the black man led some afrikans out of afrika to create all other human beings

there is a fascinating dicumentary on the subject called "the journey of man" chartering the voyage of afrikans from afrika to the rest of the world

with all the turmoil we go through there are still good fathers out there

and if some aren't good they haven't been taught to be good

I salute all of yall

thank you ancestors for keeping the lineage alive

You know im just saying this to get you mad!

2008-06-10T12:39:00.003-04:00

Lately people have really been getting me upset very easily.

Then when things are said and done, and i finally cool down, it seems like theres someone else waiting in the wind to push the magic buttons to release that psychopathic aspect of my personality.

So fam, what is it?

What's the threshold that someone can cross to make you kurk and murk out at the drop of a dime (act a fool lol)?

C'mon speak on it.

I wanna know what to do if you ever piss me off lol (kidding)!

More Essential Black Music!

2008-06-09T18:52:00.003-04:00

Muddy Waters & James Cotton - Got My Mojo Working (1966)

Louis Jordan - Caledonia - 1946

Stevie Wonder - I'm Gonna Make you Love Me (with Diana Ross)

Sam Cooke - A Change Is Gonna Come

Happy Black Music Month!!!!!!

2008-06-04T19:05:00.002-04:00

This is the Man they call Chuck Berry. You might not know who this guy is but every rock and roll album after his coming was influenced by this brother right here. Every corny white boy and their band you can think of (rolling stones, beatles, the who, jerry lee lewis, elvis, the list goes on forever) shamelessly copied his style and reproduced his tracks to appeal to the wider audience. Even elvis's mom once told him "your good, but you're no chuck berry!" Read about him in history class, never really listened to his stuff. But after hearing cuts like this, "catch me if you can," "maybelline," "school days," johnny be good" (back to the future #1), i can see why he was so popular then and now.

I was talking to this young lady (who just happened to be caucasian) and she was telling me that she was going to st.louis to live so that she could occasionally see Chuck Berry show up at a local joint. Feeling kind of bad (because she had more of an appreciation for him then i did) i said "what choo know about chuck berry, all of the rock and roll artists from back in the day stole from him."

It's really ashamed that other people have more of an appreciation for our musical history then we do. Black music is the only music in this country that is trully original. We've had soooooooo many musical geniuses that have come and gone it's ridiculous (Louis Armstrong, John Coltrane, Louis Jordan, Muddy Waters, Bo Diddley, Billie Holiday, Marvin Gaye, Stevie Wonder, Ray Charles, Diana Ross, Ella Fitzgerald, Sam Cooke).

Please know your history. Dr. Yosef Ben Jochannan said "your history is your power!"

Of the Hands, the Feet, and the Belly

2008-06-04T13:46:00.006-04:00

He who foolishly leaves his relatives unprotected should know that he thus decieves himself.

Nor is anything of value to a man except his own, as appears in this story.

The feet and the hands being jealous, accused the belly, speaking in the fashion: "You alone hold all our gains and enjoy them.

To us falls the works, to you the pleasure. While we strive with pain, you eat and swallow with pleasure. So choose one of two things: learn a task with which you can maintain yourselfor suffer from creul hunger."

And so they ceased to support them.

The stomach not knowing how to maintain himself, in great humilty begged the help of each of them once, twice, and many times, but they refused him for many days, so that, being without food for a long time, the heat of the stomach died and thirst seized their throat, and thus nature fled

The feet and the hands, although too late, seeing that the whole body was going to die and they with it, brought food and edibles in abundance, but they did not profit it because the stomach could not tolerate the food.

So the body died and with it the hands and feet and stomach.

This fable means that NO ONE is sufficient unto himself, that every man needs relatives and friends, at that we must work each at own at his job, although it may seem to us that at first glance that we are working for others, for for the profit they derive from it will return to us in a roundabout way.

Thus, if we do for others, let us at least do it for the good we will recieve ourselves.

keating and keller: aesop's fables: with a life of aesop, 1993 pg. 103-04, University Press of Kentucky

Yeah some of us might be doing fabulously well, but we should not forget where we came from.

While the people who run this society are elevating a good number of black people to higher economic status. They are mowing a great deal of blacks down at the bottom down (imprisoning them en masse, terrible education in decreped schools, lack of sustainable employment etc.)

And this is what a lot of Blacks on the top will be saying if things get toooooooooo bad.

This is the lesson that we all should learn. We are in this thing together. No matter what we are all in the same boat.

Oh, and by the way, don't go to the site at the last part of the video if you love Obama, lol.

Of the Sun and the Avaricious and Envious Man

2008-05-27T23:03:00.006-04:00

I know I have been slipping hard on the beloved fables of Aesop. Sue me lol!

Anyway, this is one of my favorites!

Of the Sun and the Avaricious and Envious Man

So great is the envy of some persons that they actually wish to endure harm so that others might suffer greater discomforts, as this fable tells.

Soveriegn Jupiter sent someone from his lofty throne to the sun to find out the unscrupulous wishes of men. At that time two persons came before the sun: one was avaricious, the other envious.

To them the sun said: "What would you like to ask for? Declare it in the knowledge that what you ask for first will be granted. The second thing you ask for will be doubled and given."

Hearing this, the avaricious man wanted the envious to ask first so that the avaricious man might have the same thing doubled, since he thought that the envious one would ask for riches.

The envious one, hearing this and considering what the avaricious man was to recieve doubled, was not able to restrain his envy, and so he asked that he have an eye taken out, because then they would take two from the greedy man.

The sun, seeing this, smiled at both and went up to jupiter and told him to what extent envy reigns amongst men: many wished to dangers so that their neighbors might endure greater evils and harm.

What joy it gives the petty and tarnished to have companions in their ills and misfortunes!

Be careful who you deal with. If they are envious of you they will never stop until they bring you down.

Would you get married after only knowing someone for a short period of time?

2008-05-18T19:12:00.003-04:00

Interesting question. Many people say that most women are always ready to settle down. Not the ones that i've talked to lol. Most believe this but actually it's the men that are more willing to marry quicker than the women in this day and age because he needs someone to come home to so he can worry about other things in his life like being more productive in his career and achieving his other goals in life (or having someone to build and grow with). In this day and age the Black woman has a rough time finding a good partner because many black men are unemployed or underemployed, (many white men are too by the way) so he can't adeuately take care of his woman and child, or if they have any money at all they might not have any morals or kindness at all. But the black women's downfall is her low expectations and her unwilingness to hold back her scolding tongue sometimes. John Henrik Clarke, the late great historian and cultural critic said, her sharp tongue has driven more men from the home then poverty. Most women don't know that's it's easier to catch fly's with honey than with vinegar (my grandmother used to say).

But anyway, would YOU be willing to marry someone after only knowing them for a short period of time if you thought that your union could REALLY work?

Holla!!!!!!!!!!!!

INTRODUCING THE WONDERFUL AND MAGNIFISCENT AESOP'S FABLES THURSDAY CELEBRATION!

2008-05-01T11:54:00.007-04:00

Since a lot of people (particularly Black women) think i'm dumb lol, at least on Thursday I'll be able to provide some insight from a wonderful source of information on the real workings of human nature AESOP!

So from now on i will publish one of Aesop's beloved fables every thursday to remind us of some of the things that human beings do (regardless of what they say) that we all should be aware of.

Here's how it's going to go. I'll start off with the story then i'll give the original moral of the story, then i'll give my take on the story (sorry) that will probably relate to someof the conditions that Black people face as a whole (i really am sorry)

So we'll start off on the first ever AESOP'S FABLES THURSDAY (YAY WOO HOOO, YES, YES, YES) with one of my dear favorite fables:

THE BUTCHER AND THE FLOCK

Relatives, friends or mates (black men and black women) who cannot agree with one another will come to a bad end, as the following fable tells us.

Some castrated sheep had been gathered together in a flock with the rams. Although the sheep realized that the butcher had come into the flock, they pretended not to see him.

Even when they saw one of their own seized by the butcher's deadly hands and taken away to be slaughtered, still the sheep were not afraid. Foolishly, they said to one another, 'He keeps his hands off me, he keeps his hands off you; let him take whom he takes.'

In the end, there was only one sheep left. This is what he reportedly said to the butcher when he saw that he too was about to be taken away: 'We deserve to be slaughtered one after another since we didn't realize what was happening until it was too late.

The fact is, as soon as we saw you here in our midst, back when we were all together, we should have killed you at once by smashing you between our horns.'

This fable shows that people who do not keep an eye out for their own safety will be utterly destroyed by evil.

For he that wylle not helpe ne comforte other / ought not to demaunde or aske helpe ne comforte / For vertue whiche is vyned is better than vertue separate
Retrieved from "http://en.wikisource.org/wiki/The_Butcher_and_the_Flock"

Many blacks think that we can watch members of our race get assaulted and used by the system and think that nothing is going to happen to us.

Time will tell.

When will we learn?

2008-04-25T16:05:00.002-04:00

The following is for mature self-respecting black people who are tired of others getting away with unjustly mistreating us.

"there's more of us then them"
TUPAC SHAKUR

" Any police officer can shoot and kill any member of our community with impunity. They don’t mind doing it because they get a paid vacation when they do so. We have to create a security force with our own weapons, our own strategies and tactics, our own internal protection against any group of men who unfairly assaults any member of our group."

James Tubman

Comment i made from 7 Responsibilities Every Man Has To Fulfill In Life. Am I wrong about this?

Normally i don't talk about issues in the news because i don't let the media focus my attention on what they think i should be thinking about. But unfortunately this story got to me not necessarily because of the heinous nature of the crime (which we shouldn't be surprised about) but because of the typical response of our leadership (click here to read an account of the trial)

Everyday police officers unlawfully assault or murder members of our community. And almost everytime there is a major murder or assault committed against a member of our community, and the officers are prosecuted for their crimes, they are acquitted.

The local, state and federal governments have ignored or instigated the unjust treatment of our black men in the inner cities by policemen. They have turned a deaf ear to the cries, moans and harangues of the women crying in the streets after a police man has murdered their unarmed child in cold blood.

What do you do when the governement that you pledge allegiance to, that you travel to far away places to kill and labor for, that you swear to uphold and defend with your very life wants you dead? Sounds like an exaggeration right lol?

If you look at the census for a given year and look at the race of men that have been most frequently assaulted and killed by the police, you will find that the men that were killed were over 95% black. How do you explain this?

You mean white people never try to assault a cop or resist arrest? Do you watch cops lol? It happens all the time. Why don't you hear about white men being killed as frequently as black men by policemen?

How do you make a government that fails to see your humanity listen to you when you are being mistreated by them and they have basically gave a segment of the community a free pass to kill you if they want?

Please answer this question in the best way you possibly can.

Who is the celebrity, athlete, musician, actor, politician, activist, scholar you look up to the most?

2008-04-17T18:29:00.005-04:00

We can tell a lot about ourselves based on the people we look up to. My favorite guy of all time is a man that many of you have never even heard of.

AMOS WILSON

Within the last 5 years of my life no other human being on earth has had more of a profound influence on my thinking than Dr. Amos Wilson. An afrocentric psychologists who analyzes european racism and how it still affects us today. He basically postulates that the problems that we have today in education, in our relationships, in the slums of the inner city, in the criminal justice system are due in part to racism and in part to the economic changes that are going on in the world with the rise of the asian world.

He believes that Afrikans from all over the continent are the same and should have the same goals in mind because the same plan the powers that be have for afrikan americans is the same plan they have for afrikans all over the world.

I won't go on and on about him. He has written lectures about everything under the sun from what real Afrikan manhood is, to understanding black male/female relationships in america.

He is one of the greatest Pan-Afrikanists the world ever produced and he wrote the masterpiece

BLUEPRINT FOR BLACK POWER

an 856 page description on how we can attain educational, political and economic power in the world (and after a year and a half I read every single one of those pages).

here's a sample of his work (I want the guys to look at this)

disclaimer: WARNING views are extreeeeeeemly controversial. View at your own risk of WAKING UP!

LOL

Extreemly controversial isn't it.

But anyway, let me know who your favorite is. I don't want you to be influeced by this at all lol (impossible).

Just please, do your best!

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

2008-04-08T11:04:00.000-04:00

Tough question because we are so used to thinking in the present. It's a question we need to ask ourselves though because what we do now will have an effect on where we are in 5 years, in 50 years and where our children are in 500 years. We often don't think about how what we do now has an impact on what happens to us later. But it is very important that we consider this sometimes. So do you want to be married with kids. Do you want to be make more and have more money to spend. Wuz up family, let a brother know!

stop settling for less in your relationships. you have the power to change your partner for the better. if you have an open mind don't be afraid to click here to learn more.

If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?

2008-03-28T22:51:00.000-04:00

We all have some areas in our life where we would like to be better than what we are. Even for the person who claims to be so perfect. So what would it be in your case? If you could change one thing in your life in an instant what would it be. Would it be your hair color, your pot belly (sorry) or something different. Something intangible like your nagging ways or your inability to stand by a decision. Let me know. I'm all ears literally lol (i do have will smith and martin lawrence ears but i don't wanna hear any satellite jokes, dumbo jokes or none of that).

stop settling for less in your relationships. you have the power to change your partner for the better. if you have an open mind don't be afraid to click here to learn more.

ORAL SEX DEBATE!

2008-03-21T20:49:00.000-04:00

Disclaimer : Sexual contents are below and not suitable for those under the age of 18.

EB: I'm about to put myself out here on this one... Yup Eb is going to go ahead and tell all her biz. But I got questions, and we're all grown folks here... so let's talk about it.

First of all, a lot of people still can't believe that their are black men that don't eat p*ssy and black women that don't give head. I for one can because I have dealt with a man who didn't and I have a complex about giving head.

So here goes, I lost my virginity in high school, but always promised myself that I would never give head until I was married. Thought that was the least of gifts I could give to the man I would be with for the rest of my life since I wasn't a virgin, but he would know that he was the only man that I have ever pleasured in that way. Seems like good logic right? Maybe?

Anyway, in college I met the guy I thought I was going to marry. I was so headover heels for this undeserving guy it was sickening. He cheated constantly and I thought it was because I wasn't giving head. Like the saying goes "if you don't do it, he will find someone that will."

Senior Year in college, I finally indulged in the forbidden territory with this dude. In the 2 years after that we were off an on so I think I only did it once or twice more.

The complex comes in me doing it for someone that wasn't worthy may be the psychology behind the reason that I now I will only do it for a dude I love. Everyone always says after you've done it once it should be nothing to do it often. I ain't trying to hear that. I think its not something you do for every Tom, Dick, Harry, or Jumpoff. With this thinking am I putting "giving head" on a pedestal? Is it not that big of a deal? What is the man's perception of a female who does it that they are not in a monogamous relationship with? How soon is too soon to go there with a man, and when have you waited too long? Is this the reason why our brothers are going to other races because they have a more nonchalant attitude about giving head?

Also the bonus questions... What constitutes giving good head? How do you as men like it to be done? I ask this because someone that is inexperience in this department wants to know. I remember I was drunk one night and did it for the guy above and the next morning he had a complete attitude with me. I don't know what I did the night before, because I couldn't remember (yeah I was that drunk) but he wanted to know who the hell I had been practicing on, so I guess it was good to him. So back to the questions that started this little paragraph... answers men...Also for the men that don't eat p*ssy, explain why? Or if you do explain why their might be a complex about doing it from the male perspective.

TUBS Response

Why don't some men and women give head?

Because not everybody washes their ass right lol. And some people actually have enough self-respect not to do it. And some people don't like it done to them. If you know what you doing then me likey. If you don't, make it wet and we'll go from there.

Seems like logic right?

Good logic and very thoughtful too. Men are not going to have respect for you if you give it up too easy.

That guy must have been a stud. And you probably just wanted him so you can look good to others and make the women hate you lol.

He didn't cheat because you didn't give him head though.

He cheated for a number of reasons that I'll talk about in my audiobook: Getting Over The Drama: A Black Man Who Knows Something Answers 10 Critical Questions About Our Relationships (sorry for the shameless self promotion lol)

EB: DEFINITELY A SHAMELESS PLUG, BUT ITS ALL GOOD TUBS

I am positive he felt bad about it every time he did it. Didn't want to feel that way so he tried to justify it by cheating some more

Am I putting giving head on a pedastool?

Yes! And it deserves to be there, because if you don't show self respect people will walk all over you. And you always show self respect by doing what's right, as opposed to doing what feels good or makes you look good. Men don't show self respect when they sleep around. They catch feelings for one of the women they slept with and now they are wondering why she won't return his calls or want to be with him.

What is the man's perception of a female who does it that they are not in a monogamous relationship with?

That she's easy and she doesn't deserve respect because she doesn't respect herself. But, that goes for the guys too. Women will NOT respect you, they might want that d#*k, but that's not respect. A black man is more than just a breeding animal. He has feelings, thoughts, passions, wishes, purposes, likes, dislikes and desires just like anybody else. And all of these things will not be respected if he gives it up too easy.

How soon is too soon to go there with a man, and when have you waited too long?

Yo no se about this e, it depends on the nature of the relationship and how much you know on the issue of relationships (in my humble opinion (dappa)). You should wait till you've been together a long time (ideally). Now you can always say the right things and DO the right things to get that person to respect you more in the future after you did it (check in the audiobook).

However, when you know for a fact that you 2 are in LOVE and not infatuation then you can do it. But not too many times because men and women want head for different reasons that don't always relate to sex. Sometimes it's about domination and control. Sometimes it's about something else

Is this the reason why our brothers are going to other races because they have a more nonchalant attitude about giving head?

There are many reasons for this as well e. Men, just like women, tend to want what is easy until it becomes too easy. They might have that white women but more than likely they are cheating on her with black women (unless they are afraid of black women). Things are getting too long so I'll just say this. The main reason black men want white women is because they have always seen the white woman as a symbol of beauty ever since they was young. Some guys act on this belief. Some don't.

What constitutes giving good head? How do you as men like it to be done?

Technique is what's important. I've read some material on this and one book said that the most sensitive part of man's penis is where he was circumcised. So if you suck around the cusp of the penis then you'll really get him going. I like the tipping lol (whatever they call it) where the woman sucks on the tip of the penis girating her tongue back and forth through the slit with the whole head in her while she strokes the shaft. That's definitely a good way lol.

Also for the men that don't eat p*ssy, explain why? Or if you do explain why their might be a complex about doing it from the male perspective.

I've been eating pu#*y for a looooooong time so it's nothing for me. I'll generally do it the first time (which might explain why I haven't had much success with women) if she smells like sanitation (like biggy says) because I don't feel good unless I give a woman an orgasm. Now some it might take a little extra time for. But for most it won't.

Now for the guys who don't do it, I have no idea lol. This will be pure speculation. I assume they think it's nasty or they just believe that they are the s*#t and don't think that they have to do it or they are waiting for the right one to do it for themselves.

Oral Sex or Not!

This is a highly debated issue. I think we should look at its purpose.

What is the purpose?

I don't know lol. I guess it's to stimulate the person sexually so that an orgasm is possible.

Is oral sex good?

It sure feels good lol.

What are the benefits of oral sex?

It helps us to show our sexual partner that we are willing to go the extra mile to please themIt can help us to get perks in the relationship if the person knows how to do it right lol

What are some of the detriments of oral sex?

You could catch an STD, throat cancer whatever (even though there are cures for these diseases).

It could be used as a form of degradation and domination (people can convince their partner to perform these acts as a means of degrading them and feeding their own ego).

Where did we learn to perform these acts?

We learned from people in our lives

We learned from watching pornography (which is about degrading women through sex).

Does oral sex enhance the sexual experience?

YES! Lol

So should we do it?

In my opinion, it's OK as long as it is done mutually by both partners and not a form of domination or ego stroking.I also believe it's OK as long as proper sanitation procedures are taken lol and as long as you know the cure to ALL of the things that you might catch as a result of doing it.

So let's discuss blog world... Did TUBS give me good answers to my questions?

Do you agree or disagree, and what's your apprehensions about oral sex?

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Who's causing more problems: men or women?

2008-03-19T12:56:00.000-04:00

i hate to start it off like this but my homegurl ebonne has the whole week dedicated to relationships so she asked me to do a collaboration with her to see if we could skool some people

you can get her version here to see her comments.

it's my birthday too yall

yup turned 27 and i feel like kat williams in the pimp chronicles when he was imitating white people by saying "tonight, we're gonna get f#*ked up" lol

but any who, here's the post and give some honest feedback please

it would be very much appreciated

my writing is in blue, her's is in lilac (pink for the guys lol)

Who's causing more problems in the relationship men or women

The question is really irrelevant because it doesn't matter. Just phrased it like this because so many of us are used to playing the blame game. If I had to say who was mostly to blame I would have to say the men are. Why? It's the men's fault because we don't know our roles as men. The man's responsibility is to protect and provide for, not only his wife and children, but his community, ethnic group and nation. No healthy group of men ever see the end point of their lives as working for another group of men and leaving the responsibility for providing food, clothes, shelter and jobs in the hands of those other men. It's no wonder black women have so much contempt for black men, because like E said on my independent women post, "Seriously, ya'll always whining about the independent woman... if ya'll stepped ya'll game up and was taking care of business we wouldn't have to be so damn independent!"

She is absolutely correct. But in order to hold somebody accountable they have to know right from wrong. This is why I believe that it's really not the black man's fault. He was never taught this. The responsibility does fall on the ones (like me and the black men who are reading this now, sorry lol) who are conscious of this fact. And the ones who are conscious of this fact have been doing a terrible job for the most part (like me).Also, you have to look at who benefits from us being divided (black men from black women). The best way to get a people to serve you is to make them dependent on you. Another way to keep people dependent on you is to break the self confidence of the ones who are strong enough to go against you, the men of the group. You do this by cutting off their examples of real manhood, and by giving them a false image of what manhood really is. Tell him that being unable to resist sleeping with a woman is the essence of manhood. Tell him anything that doesn't require him being the sole providers and protectors of his women and children.

Can we really do this though TUBS? When we approach men about these issues aren't we looked at as the Angry Bitter Black B*tch? Yes, we most certainly do. But I think it can be done if the ladies realize that its all about the approach. We need to bring back the stabilization of sitting down and having meaningful conversation with men. To leave the situation alone when we feel everything that comes out of our mouth will be loud and abrasive. Remove ourselves from the situation until we can talk about it in a calm matter, because as soon as we start to yell or scold is when men tune us out.Our education is controlled by another group of men.

If you had a business and you hired someone, would you train them to be equal to you and start a business like you so that they could be your competition? Uhhhh no, lol. You are gonna train them to serve you. You might give them a nice pay for doing a good job in what you created, but you are not going to train them to be equal to you. And some of us believe that other people have our best interest in mind. Some do, but most don't.

In closing, if the black man and the black woman really loved each other and got along the way that we should, then no other group or race would be able to use us and exploit us the way they do now.But it shows how smart we really are as a people.

Every other ethnic group in the world feeds off of our ignorance but yet we still love each other the best way we can. We still have the desire to be with each other, so they haven't been doing a good job of keeping us divided.

Is the desire to be with each other really still there? You would think that with the percentage of interracial marriages where the black man is the African American counterpart in the relationship that black men may have the desire but aren't up for putting in the work. Let's discuss further. I agree with TUBS that the men are more at fault. They have stepped down from the traditional role of being the head of the household.

Let's talk about it...

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Come from a long line of sexual stallions

2008-03-06T22:33:00.000-05:00

Have you ever heard about a woman fainting while having sex?

I know this crazy, insensitive, confused man who whenever the issue of sex comes up always tells this story about how he made this woman faint while engaging in coitus with her. Having no consideration for the poor unfortunate audience who has to twist and turn, shake their heads in disgust and sit there looking crazy as he goes on and on about how he was sooooooo scared to death when she wouldn't move and how he had to throw water on her just to see if she was alive.

Have you ever heard of a story like this where a woman was so overwhelmed with pleasure in this way?

Now he is the one who should be making an audiobook lol.

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Independence…Yeah, Right? Who Really Wants That?!?!

2008-03-05T12:42:00.000-05:00

My baby freefree posted this last year in august of 2007 and i think it was interesting and funny so i thought i would re-post it myself.

hope you likey.

Independence…Yeah, Right? Who Really Wants That?!?!

I am a strong black woman who was taught to hold my own. Never depend on a Man I was told. And, make things happen for myself. The beautiful black women in my family drilled this into me. 'Depend on yourself and DO NOT depend on a Man for anything’ they would say. Even the men in my family encouaged this concept as well. They all encouraged me to have my own flow (money), so that if that Negro starts trippin’ I would be able to handle my finances on my own. His money would just be an added bonus for me. Today I am a divorced/single black female who is still handling her business. Independent! Yeah right? Who are we really fooling with this feminist approach to life? I cannot pretend any longer. I am feeling like New Edition….Ronnie, Bobby, Ricky, and Mike when they were singing, “ I need a girlfriend and need her right now huggin’ kissin’ holding me tight....NEVER letting GO!” In my case I am singing, “I need a boyfriend and I need him right now! Hugging, kissing holding me tight and NEVER LETTING ME GO! Now that is the frequency I am on today. However, tomorrow might be something totally different, I might be strong again, but today I am weak and feeling the need for a boyfriend in my life RIGHT NOW!

So, what is a girl to do? What? Go buy some tools to pass the time by until that significant other comes along and fulfill my every want and need or get a quick fix? Which one? I thought I knew the answer to this question. I was sure I knew the answer to this question, but those good ole needs are playin’ tricks with my mind. Do I indulge in pleasure or do I wait it out for my prince charming to come along and sweep me off my feet and we live happily ever after? I know what you are saying. I know. I am moving back to earth!

In today’s society the average man knows or at least thinks he does not have to commit to a woman to get the goodies. And, don’t talk about actually marrying her to get the goodies its becoming harder and harder to stay pure nowadays. So many men are saying, ‘Hey if she doesn’t give it up, then I will move on to someone who will’ and there is definitely someone out there who will.

So, what is a girl to do? Do you compromise on your personal morals that you have set up for yourself for a night of hot steamy passionate sex or do you wait it out? Do you listen to Musiq Soulchild, "Wait, Just Wait, for something just a little better, WAIT, don't settle for what ever, JUST Wait, For someone that Can bring ME everything I WANT and NEED"? Or do you listen to R. Kelly, “My mind is telling me NO, but body is telling me YES I don’t won’t hurt nobody but there is something..............I must CONFESS.............I don't see nothin’ wrong..................with a little Bump and Grind”.

Who do you listen to? Do you listen to your mind that is usually right 9 out of 10 of the times or do you listen to your flesh that will surely have you crying the next day because this man will not return your phone calls or communicate with you any longer. Tricky!! Very Tricky!!!

TO BE CONTINUED!

Thoughts generated from New Edition song “I Need a Girlfriend”, but in my case I NEED a Boyfriend and I NEED HIM RIGHT NOW!

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What are some examples of bad situations that come up in a relationship?

2008-02-29T09:49:00.000-05:00

Okay people I need your help please. Things are going well with my audio book but I don’t have all the answers (yes I said it lol). There are some things I just don’t see and I need the help of some brilliant, creative bloggers to see me over on some examples of when relationships turn bad.

I already got the solutions but in order to get a specific solution to a problem you have to have that specific problem. The more specific information is the easier it is to apply it. I need you to be with me right now. Give me some instances in your or someone else’s life in which a relationship took a turn for the worst (op d I need you on this because I know you have plenty lol (just kidding)). But for real holla. Don’t be scared, nobody’s going to judge you. Just give me a scenario so we can finally get this thing out and start saving our relationships!

PS you can email me at tubmansolution@gmail.com if you don't want to say it here this is completely anonymous.

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What would you do if you had a million dollars?

2008-02-23T10:46:00.000-05:00

Deep question. You know I like asking the deep ones. What would you do? It's a lot of money and you could do a lot with it. Would you buy your dream house, dream car? Would you donate it all to charity (ha)? Would you use it to start your own business? Or invest in a friends? What would you do? Unlike the other one I'll tell you upfront with this one because this is one I've been contemplating for a long time. Some of you all know about leveraging. Say as if you want to get a loan. You can get a million dollar loan if you put up 100,000 as collateral. I would do that ten times thus giving me 10 million to use. Then i would go around town looking for he cheapest property in the black neighborhoods and i would buy the biggest cheapest buildings i could find and make them community educational centers where i show poor people how to make money easily off the Internet in real estate, investing etc. I would also have classes on how to be a good parent, how to heal yourself of incurable diseases and of course how to maintain a great relationship. I would also make the students pay fees once they start making money so that we could always have extra capital to expand into different areas all over the country. As the money grew and as i became friends with other wealthy investors I would duplicate this process in any major city where black people are and i would add on banks, credit unions, investment clubs, farm land, manufacturing plants, livestock, distribution centers with trucks and warehouses and centralize all of these resources under the umbrella of my organization then i would just keep expanding and continue helping people to get out of poverty. It's a dream but it's definitely possible.

So what would you do? Let me know.

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